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Tuesday, February 25, 2014

CREATION V EVOLUTION.2014

CREATIONIST BELIEVE WITHOUT ANY DOUBT OR DEBATE THAT GOD ALMIGHTY CREATED EVERYTHING IN THE UNIVERSE,INCLUDING THE WORLD IN 6 DAYS :(
THEN HE RESTED ON THE 7TH DAY,WHICH FOR CHRISTIAN'S IS SUNDAY,THEIR ROMAN SABBATH.
JEWS HAVE THEIR SABBATH ON SATURDAY,WHICH IS AT ODDS WITH CHRISTIAN'S :( EVEN THOUGH THEY SHAPED THE OLD TESTAMENT,UNTIL ROME CAME ALONG AND RESHAPED IT MANY TIMES FROM CONSTANTINES UNTIL THE PRESENT,2014,TO SUIT THEIR OWN AGENDA :(
EVOLUTIONS BELIEVE IN DARWINS THEORY,THAT EVERYTHING CAME TOGETHER WITH A BIG BANG,AND EVERYTHING,BILLIONS OF COMPONENTS JUST CAME TOGETHER BY CHANCE,AND LIFE IS ALL ABOUT THE SURVIVAL OF THE FITEST :(
SCIENCE HAS PROVEN THAT THE UNIVERSE,THE PLANETS,THE EARTH AND ALL UPON,IE VEGETATION,MOUNTAINS,CREATURES ETC,TOOK MILLIONS OF OF YEARS TO COME TOGETHER TO WHAT WE HAVE NOW IN 2014,AND IN PART THAT IS TRUE,BUT EVEN SCIENTISTS ARE STILL STUMPED WHEN THEY COME TO HUMAN BEINGS :(
THE AMAZING THING IS,IN 2014,SIR DAVID ATTENBOROUGH,TO MENTION ONE,THE GREAT SO CALLED EXPERT OF LIFE UPON EARTH,STILL BELIEVES WE CAME FROM FISH FIRST,AND THEN MONKEY'S AND APES SECOND AND THIRD :(
YET EVEN HE HAS TO ADMIT,AS DO THE REST OF THE SO CALLED EXPERTS,THAT THEY CANNOT MATCH HUMANS DNA COMPLETELY WITH THAT OF MONKEY'S AND EVEN APES,IF TRUTH BE TOLD :(
SO IF TRUTH BE TOLD,THE SO CALLED JURY IS STILL OUT WHEN ITS COMES TO HUMAN BEINGS,WHICH MOST UPON THE PLANET FAIL TO GET :(
THEY WATCH THEIR WILDLIFE PROGRAMMES,WHICH ARE TRULY FASINATING AND FULL OF SIGNS AND WONDERS,BUT EVEN THOUGH THE SO CALLED EXPERTS TELL THEM POINT BLANK,THE DNA OF HUMAN BEINGS AND MONKEY'S AND APE'S DO NOT COMPLETELY MATCH,HUMAN BEINGS STILL DO NOT QUESTION THIS REVELATION AND TRUTH :(

CREATIONISTS BELIEVE LITERALLY THAT GOD ALMIGHTY,OUR HEAVENLY FATHER CREATED THE WHOLE SHABANG IN LESS THAN A WEEK :( MORK CALLING ORSON.
NO DOUBT IF GOD ALMIGHTY,OUR HEAVENLY FATHER WANTED TO CREATE A UNIVERSE AND WORLD IN 8 DAYS,HE PROBABLY COULD,ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU SEE WHAT SOME MAGICIANS CAN DO IN 2014,BUT IT IS NOT SO,LIKE ANY GREAT CREATION,IT TAKES TIME TO BUILD,MATURE AND EVOLVE :)
THOUGH,THERE AGAIN PEEPS,CREATIONISTS STILL BELIEVE THAT THE BIBLE IS THE TRUE WORD OF GOD,EVEN THOUGH IT WAS PUT TOGETHER BY ROME,AND HAS BEEN EDITED AND TAMPERED WITH CONSTANTLY SINCE ITS HUMAN CONCEPTION :(
THE MADNESS OF BOTH CREATIONISTS AND EVOLUTIONISTS IS,THEY CANNOT SEE THE TRUTH FOR THE LIES :( AND REGARDLESS OF THE DECADES OF STUDY,OBSERVATION,EXAMS AND LETTERS AFTER THEIR NAMES,THEY ARE BOTH STILL CLUTCHING AT STRAWS IN THIS YEAR 2014 :( ESPECIALLY WHEN IT COMES TO US,HUMAN BEINGS.
EVOLUTIONISTS ARE STILL LEARNING FROM THE UNIVERSES,PLANETS,STARS AND THE WORLD AROUND THEM,WHICH IS WHAT ITS ALL ABOUT,KNOCKING,SEEKING AND ASKING QUESTIONS.
CREATIONISTS THINK THEY KNOW IT ALL,EVEN THOUGH THEIR PROPHET JESUS,A CHRIST ASKED THEM TO KNOCK,SEEK AND ASK,AND TO TEST THEIR TEACHERS,THE SO CALLED EXPERTS OF EVERYTHING,YET CHRISTIANS,AND CREATIONISTS IGNORE THEIR LORD AND EVEN THEIR GOD,WHO CONSTANTLY REVEAL NEW REVELATIONS DAILY.

"THEY SPEAK OF LOVE WITH THEIR LIPS,BUT THEIR HEARTS ARE FAR FROM ME."

I WILL REPEAT MY CLAIM,I AM A STEWART,OF THE BLOODLINE OF DAVID,THE BLOODLINE OF GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLTSPIRIT,AND I KNOW WHAT I TALK ABOUT WITHOUT FEAR OF CONTRADICTION :)
EVEN YOUR KING JAMES BIBLE WAS FURTHER EDITED BY ONE OF MY BLOODLINE,AND THE ROMAN CATHOLIC CHURCH WHICH ACCEPTED HIM IN FROM THE ANGLICAN CHURCH OF ENGLAND,SCOTLAND AND WALES,KING JAMES 11 OF SCOTLAND,ENGLAND,WALES AND IRELAND :)
SO I DO NOT GO ABOUT LIGHTLY WRITING WHAT I DO WITHOUT MUCH THOUGHT,AND GUIDANCE FROM ABOVE.
SO CALLED CHRISTIANS AND CREATIONISTS THINK THEY HAVE A MONOPOLY ON GOD ALMIGHTY,AND JESUS,BUT THIS SPIRIT IS TELLING YOU,THEY HAVE NOT.
GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT ARE WITHOUT AND ABOVE YOUR HUMAN RELIGIONS,THIS YOU WILL FIND OUT TO YOUR SHOCK WHEN YOU REACH THE OTHERSIDE,FURTHER MORE JESUS WAS A JEW,BUT HAD LITTLE TIME FOR THE JEWISH OR ROMAN AUTHORITIES OF HIS DAY,PREFERRING THE COMPANY OF WOMEN, TAX COLLECTORS,PROSTITUTES AND SINNERS OF ALL CULTURES AND TRADITIONS,AND THOUGH HE ACKNOWLEDGED HIS LINEAGE AND ROOTS,HE WAS WITHOUT AND ABOVE YOUR HUMAN RELIGIONS,JUST LIKE HIS HEAVENLY FATHER AND MOTHER,GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT :)
YESHUA'S MESSAGE WAS FOR ALL,NOT JUST THE SO CALLED ELITE OF ISRAEL AND ROME.
JESUS MESSAGE WAS UNIVERSAL,FOR ALL UPON EARTH,THOUGH SO CALLED CHRISTIANS AND CREATIONISTS WOULD ARGUE THIS IS A LIE,EVEN USING VIOLENCE TO GET THEIR POINT ACROSS,AS THEY HAVE FOR MILLENIA IN YOUR WORLD OF CHAOS :(
MUSLIMS AND JEWS USE ABRAHAM AS THEIR BENCH MARK,AND JUSTIFICATION FOR THEIR ACTIONS UPON THE EARTH PLANE,AND GENERALLY LEAVE JESUS OUT OF THEIR MINDSET,PREFERRING TO USE THE SINGLE,JEALOUS,VENGEFUL,WRATHFUL,PUNISHING SON GOD OF THE OLD TESTAMENT AS THE HEAD OF THEIR EMPIRE OF DELUSIONAL HATE,BIGOTRY AND TEACHING,AND SO CALLED TRUTH :(
YET REGARDLESS OF WHO HEADS THEIR HUMAN RELIGIONS,THERE IS NO GETTING AWAY FROM THE FACT,THAT THE WORLD YOU LIVE ON IS BILLIONS OF YEARS OLD,AND NOT JUST THOUSANDS OF YEARS OLD AS YOU SO CALLED CHRISTIANS AND CREATIONISTS BELIEVE.

AS I WRITE SCIENTISTS HAVE FOUND MANY FOSSILS OF WHALES AND OTHER CREATURES IN THE DESERT IN CHILE,JUST OF THE PAN-AMERICAN HIGHWAY,THIS 26TH DAY OF 2014 :) AND WEEKLY NEW REVELATIONS POP UP ALL OVER THE WORLD PROVING THE CREATIONIST CHRISTIANS WRONG :( BUT STILL THEY MAINTAIN,THIS WORLD IS BUT THOUSANDS OF YEARS OLD :( MORK CALLING ORSON.
IF YOU ASK A CREATIONIST CHRISTIAN,OR CHRISTIANS IN GENERAL WHERE HUMAN BEINGS CAME FROM,THEY ARE STUMPED,AND WILL REFER TO THE BIBLE,AND GOD CREATING THEM,YET THEY FAIL TO UNDERSTAND FROM WHENCE THEY CAME IN THE FIRST INSTANT :(
THEY ALSO BELIEVE THAT A SINGLE GOD BROUGHT FORTH HUMAN BEINGS ON HIS TODD,WITHOUT A FEMALE,THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT,LOL,WHICH,IF TRUTH BE TOLD IS IMPOSSIBLE,EVEN FOR A GOD :(

"LET US MAKE MAN IN OUR IMAGE,AFTER OUR LIKENESS."

THE SO CALLED CHRISTIANS BELIEVE ALSO THAT GOD ALMIGHTY WAS SPEAKING TO HIMSELF,WITHIN THE TRINITY WHEN HE SAID THE ABOVE WORDS :( SO ITS LIKE FLOGGING A DEAD HORSE WHEN TRYING TO EXPLAIN THE TRUTH OF WHO HE WAS TALKING TOO :(
THEY DON'T EVEN GET,IN THEIR SO CALLED BOOK OF COMPLETE TRUTH,THAT THERE ARE TWO CREATION OF MAN AND WOMAN STORIES IN GENESIS,THE ONE ON THE 6TH DAY,AND THEN THE ONE,WHERE MAN IS MADE OUT OF THE DUST OF THE GROUND,AND WOMAN,OUT OF ONE OF THE MAN'S RIBS,LOL,THE SECOND STORY IS A RIB TICKLER,WHICH AMUSES GREATLY THE DIVINE COUNCIL ABOVE :)
THOUGH THE FIRST STORY IS THE TRUTH,IN PART,EXCEPT THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT IS LEFT OUT OF IT,WHICH LEAVES GOD ALMIGHTY TALKING TO HIMSELF,WHICH IS MAD,TO SAY THE LEAST :( BUT NOT SO MAD WHEN YOU KNOW,HE WAS NOT ALONE,AND BESIDE STANDS HIS LOVE,PARTNER,CO CREATOR AND DAILY DELIGHT :)
PROVERBS 8:22-36,REVELATION 12,"AND WISDOM IS VINDICATED BY HER CHILDREN."
EVEN IF YOU BELIEVE AS BILLIONS OF CHRISTIANS BELIEVE,THAT GOD ALMIGHTY WAS TALKING WITHIN THE TRINITY,TO HIMSELF,WHEN HE SAID,"LET (US) MAKE MAN IN (OUR) IMAGE,AFTER (OUR) LIKENESS,THIS IS BLOWN OUT OF THE WATER IN GENESIS 11:7 WHEN GOD ALMIGHTY SAYS,"COME,LET (US) GO DOWN."
SO HOW WAS GOD ALMIGHTY GOING DOWN,AS THE FATHER,SON AND HOLY SPIRIT?
TO BELIEVE THAT GOD ALMIGHTY WAS TALKING TO HIMSELF IS TOTALLY INSANE,AND IS A SAD REFLECTION OF THE LACK OF WISDOM BILLIONS OF CHRISTIANS HAVE,AND THIS 2014 :(
THE AMAZING THING IS IN 2014 IS,THE SO CALLED EXPERTS ON LIFE,BELIEVE HUMAN BEINGS CAME FROM FISH FIRST,AND FROM APES SECONDLY :(
HUMANS CAME FROM UP ABOVE,WHERE OTHER HUMAN BEINGS LIVE STILL :)
REMEMBER PEEPS,IN THE IMAGE,AFTER THE LIKENESS OF GOD AND THE GODDESSALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT ARE YOU MALE AND FEMALE HUMAN BEINGS :)

SO IN 2014,HOW HAS MAN EVOLVED?
GRANTED THEY HAVE SENT TECHNOLOGY TO OTHER PLANETS,AND BUILT MAGNIFICENT BUILDINGS,TRANSPORT,AND INVENTIONS OF ALL KINDS,ALONG AMAZING TECHNOLOGIES,USED BY MOST,BUT HOW FAR HAS MAN REALLY EVOLVED IN THIS YEAR 2014?
WITH ALMOST 100 NATIONS AT WAR,AND WITH INTERNAL PROBLEMS OF MANY,THE PICTURE DOES NOT LOOK GOOD :(
YOUR RELIGIOUS WARS ARE INCREASING,WITH THE BLIND OF ISLAM TRYING TO BRING ABOUT THEIR HOLY WAR,KILLING ALL WHO OPPOSE THEM,INCLUDING THEIR OWN,THEN YOU HAVE THE WEST OF CHRISTIAN NATIONS TRYING TO EXTERMINATE THOSE OF ISLAM,WHO WISH TO EXTERMINATE THEM,AND IN THE MIDDLE ARE THE INNOCENTS OF ALL RELIGIONS :(,AS FOR THE JEWS,THEY ARE SURROUNDED IN ALL FRONTS,AND AT SOME POINT,NOT FAR OFF,WILL EXPLODE AT ANY NATION WHO WISHES TO CAUSE THEM HARM.
WHAT MAN IS EVOLVING TOO,IF TRUTH BE TOLD,IS THE TOTAL DESTRUCTION OF ALL THEY HAVE BUILT,ESPECIALLY IN THE LAST 120 YEARS :(
APES ON THE OTHER HAND,ARE NOT SO STUPID :(
THOUGH THEY HAVE NO RELIGION TO WORRY ABOUT,ONLY MAN,THE GREAT DESTROYER OF LIVE UPON EARTH,IN 2014 :(
THOSE WHO ARE FIGHTING YOUR WORLD WARS AT THE MOMENT,ARE THOSE WHO BELIEVE WE CAME FROM MONKEY'S,WHO THINK HUMAN BEINGS ARE BUT ANIMALS :(
WITH THIS MINDSET,THE WORLD IS FCUKED,FOR EVENTUALLY ONE OF THE BIG GUNS IS GOING TO CRACK,AND THEN THE GATES OF NATURE WILL TRULY OPEN :( AND THEN THERE IS NO POINT IN CRYING OVER SPILT MILK.
UKRAINE COULD EASILY TURN INTO A WAR TO OUTSHINE OTHER WARS,IF ONE CRACKPOT DECIDES TO MOVE WITHOUT ORDERS,THERE ARE A LOT OF DAMAGED MINDS IN THIS WORLD PEEPS,IT JUST TAKES ONE CRACKPOT TO ROCK THE BOAT TO MUCH :(
UKRAINE'S HUMAN HABITATION CAN BE TRACED BACK 32,000 YEARS,YET ONE CREATIONIST OR EVOLUTIONIST OR ATHIEST OR MUSLIM OR JEW OR CRACKPOT WHO BELIEVES WE HAVE ONLY BEEN HERE FOR A SEVERAL THOUSAND YEARS,AND HAS THE POWER TO BRING ABOUT ARMAGEDDON,WHETHER THEY BELIEVE IN ANYTHING OR ANYBODY :( IS THE REALITY OF YOUR EVOLVED MAN OF 2014 :(

"IN THE LATTER DAYS IT WILL BE LIKE THE DAYS OF NOAH?"

SO IN 2014,SCIENTISTS ARE NOW BEGINNING TO UNDERSTAND THAT THERE WAS NO BIG BANG :)
THEY NOW KNOW THAT SOMETHING WAS THERE BEFORE THE SO CALLED BIG BANG,BUT THEY DO NOT KNOW YET,WHAT IT IS :(
THE BIG BANG THEORY WAS A DELUSIONAL THEORY TO SAY THE LEAST,I MEAN PEEPS,THINK ABOUT IT,BILLIONS OF UNIVERSES AND WORLDS AND EVERYTHING THING WITHIN THEM,AND UPON THEM,INCLUDING LIFE COMING TOGETHER JUST BY CHANCE,GET A GRIP PEEPS,ITS 2014,NOT THE DARK AGES :( AND IT DOESN'T TAKE A SCIENTIST WITH DECADES OF STUDY,AND MULTIPLE DEGEES AND EXAMS,WITH COUNTLESS LETTERS AFTER THEIR HUMAN NAMES TO FIGURE OUT THE DELUSION OF THE BIG BANG THEORY :)
THOUGH BEFORE 2013/14,THE THEORY HELD TRUE,BUT NO LONGER,WHICH MEANS,EVEN THE SO CALLED EXPERTS OF LIFE AND THEOLOGY CAN BE WRONG,AND HAVE BEEN MANY TIMES IN THE PAST,AND STILL IN YOUR SO CALLED MODERN TIMES :(
THOUGH AT LEAST THE SCIENTISTS ARE KNOCKING,SEEKING AND ASKING,CREATIONISTS GAVE UP KNOCKING,SEEKING,ASKING AND LISTENING TO AND BELIEVING THEIR CHRIST,GOD ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT LONG AGO,AND THE TRUTH THEY ALLOWED THEMSELVES TO REMAIN WITHIN YOUR HUMAN BIBLE,IS FAR OVER THEIR HEADS :)
CREATIONISTS DON'T GET THE TRUTH BEFORE THEM,THEY DON'T GET THE BIBLE,AND THEY MOST CERTAINLY DON'T GET THEMSELVES :(
THEY READ THEIR HUMAN BIBLES WITH CLOSED EYES,INSTEAD OF READING THEM WITH WISDOM BY THEIR SIDES.
THEY MAKE THINGS DIFFICULT FOR THEMSELVES,COMPLICATING THEIR STUDY OF A HUMAN BOOKS,AND MAKING THEIR OWN INTERPRETATION OF THAT WHICH CONFUSES THEM,OUT OF THEIR LACK OF WISDOM IN DECERNING THE SACRED TRUTH FROM THE HUMAN LIES :(

"THEY SPEAK OF LOVE WITH THEIR LIPS,BUT THEIR SOULS AND HEARTS ARE FAR FROM ME."

I SPEAK TO MANY HUMAN HEAD DOCTORS AS A RESULT OF A HEAD INJURY/TRAUMA,AND THEY ARE LEARNING WITH EACH APPOINTMENT THAT THERE IS MUCH THEY DO NOT KNOW,ABOUT THE BRAIN,AND EVEN LESS THE SOUL WITHIN I AND THEM :(
BUT THEY ARE SLOWLY LEARNING NEW TEACHINGS,AND THE WORKINGS OF THE BEING,THE SOUL WITHIN :)
THOUGH SOME DO NOT LIKE A SUPERIOR SOUL TALKING TO THEM,OR SHOULD I SAY,ABOVE THEM,ABOVE THEIR HUMAN TEACHINGS :(
WHAT I TEACH IS NOT WITHIN THEIR HUMAN STUDY BOOKS,BUT IS WITHIN THEM,I JUST AWAKEN THE SOUL WITHIN :)
AND STILL IN 2014,THE SO CALLED EXPERTS BELIEVE WE CAME FROM MONKEY'S :(
DR.GEORGE MC GAVIN IS THE LATEST ELDER OF THE NATURAL WORLD WHO BELIEVES HUMAN BEINGS ONCE CAME FROM MONKEYS,PRIMATES :(
ALL THOSE YEARS OF STUDY,EXAMS AND LETTERS AFTER HIS NAME,AND GEORGE FALLS FOR THE AGE OLD BELIEF IN PRIMATES EVOLUTION INTO HUMAN BEINGS,LOL :(
WHEN WILL THE SO CALLED EXPERTS IN LIFE IN GENERAL FINALLY GRASP EVEN A HINT OF THE TRUTH OF HUMAN LIFE?
THE NATURAL WORLD IS EASY TO GET,IF YOU HAVE EYES TO GET IT,BUT THE HUMAN WORLD IS MUCH HARDER TO UNDERSTAND,ESPECIALLY AMONGST HUMAN BEINGS :(
WITH MILLENIA OF HUMAN CONDITIONING AND RELIGIOUS INDOCTRINATION,EVEN THE SO CALLED EXPERTS ON LIFE,HUMAN AND NATURAL ARE STILL MIFFED BY LIFE IN GENERAL :(
THE WORLD IN 2014 IS CLOSER TO A NUCLEAR CONFLICT WITH RUSSIA AND NORTH KOREA FLEXING THEIR MIGHT,INCLUDING CHINA,JAPAN AND SOUTH KOREA PLAYING WAR GAMES,AND THE WEST HUFFING AND PUFFING ABOUT ALL OF IT :( AND SANCTIONING THIS AND THAT,WHILE UKRAINE AND CRIMEA IS THE PIGGY IN THE MIDDLE OF HUMAN RESTLESS FOR A FIGHT :(
THE EVOLUTION OF MAN HAS NOT REALLY COME SO FAR IN 2014,IF TRUTH BE TOLD :(
MONKEYS AND APES ARE NOT SO FOOLISH,FOR THEY KNOW,THEY NEED EACH OTHER IN THIS WORLD OF HUMAN MADNESS :(
MAN'S DOMINION OVER ALL THE CREATURES OF THE WORLD HAS GONE ASTRAY COMPLETELY,AND MAN'S EGO AND BELIEF IN THEIR SINGLE,JEALOUS,VENGEFUL,WRATHFUL,PUNISHING GOD HAS BROUGHT THIS WORLD TO THE BRINK OF SELF DESTRUCTION :( AND HOW SMART IS THAT?
THERE'S NO GOOD CRYING WOLF WHEN THE GREAT MISSILES FLY PEEPS :(
WE CAME FROM MONKEY'S AND APES,LOL,GET A GRIP OF REALITY SO CALLED EXPERTS OF LIFE IN GENERAL,FOR I TELL YOU THIS,'MONKEY'S AND APES ARE NOT SO FOOLISH AS HUMAN BEINGS,FOR THEY HAVE WISDOM ON THEIR SIDE,AND KNOW,AND RESPECT THEIR CREATORS :)
HUMAN'S ON THE OTHER HAND RESPECT NOTHING :( NOT EVEN THEMSELVES :(

THE DICE ARE LOADED PEEPS,HOW MUCH DISRESPECT ARE YOU GOING TO SHOW YOUR CREATORS THIS 2014?

SAN DOM DE NANTA VAN SAN NANTESS ESTANTO PEEPS?







Thursday, February 13, 2014

JESUS SAID,"YE ARE GODS,SONS OF THE MOST HIGH."

JESUS SAID AND DID MANY THINGS WHILE UPON EARTH,AND IF EVERYTHING HE SAID AND DID WERE WRITTEN DOWN IN BOOKS,YOUR WORLD COULD NOT HOLD THOSE BOOKS.
WHAT FOLLOWS IS ONE OF THE MOST IMPORTANT TRUTH'S AND STATEMENTS IN HE BIBLE,OLD AND NEW TESTAMENT,WERE JESUS REVEALS,HE IS NOT THE ONLY SON OF GOD,WHICH IF TRUTH BE TOLD,WILL COME AS A MAJOR SHOCK TO THE BILLIONS OF CHRISTIANS WORLDWIDE,ESPECIALLY THOSE WHO ARE TAUGHT,THAT JESUS IS THE ONLY SON OF GOD :(
JESUS REVEALS THE TRUTH FEW UNDERSTAND,OR SEE,REGARDLESS OF THEIR HUMAN TEACHERS FAILURE TO REVEAL THAT WHICH JESUS REVEALS,THE TRUTH,THAT HE IS NOT THE ONLY SON OF GOD,PLUS,GOD ALMIGHTY IS NOT THE ONLY GOD,THOUGH HE IS SUPREME GOD OF THE DIVINE COUNCIL ABOVE,IN WHICH HE HOLDS COURT.
THE DIVINE COUNCIL ABOVE CONSISTS OF MANY GODS,AND SONS OF THE MOST HIGH,AND THIS IS WITHOUT DISPUTE,REGARDLESS OF YOUR HUMAN TEACHERS FAILURE TO UNDERSTAND,REVEAL AND TEACH THE TRUTH WHICH JESUS TAUGHT HIMSELF.
THEY SAY,THEY BELIEVE IN THE BIBLE,AND JESUS,THESE SO CALLED CHRISTIANS,YET THEY IGNORE THE TRUTH WITHIN THE SCRIPTURES,AND TOTALLY IGNORE JESUS'S REVELATIONS AND TEACHINGS ON THE TRUTH.
YET THIS SPIRIT WILL NOT HOLD BACK ON MY CONDEMNATION FOR SUCH IGNORANCE AND FAILINGS IN TEACHING AND REVEALING OF THE TRUTH,BY SO CALLED REPRESENTATIVES OF GOD AND JESUS UPON EARTH.

"THEY SPEAK OF LOVE WITH THEIR LIPS,BUT THEIR HEARTS ARE FAR FROM ME."

WHAT FOLLOWS BELOW IS SO IMPORTANT,IT IS WRITTEN OF IN THE OLD TESTAMENT,AND BROUGHT TO YOUR REMEMBRANCE BY JESUS,AND NOW BY THIS SPIRIT,IF YOU HAVE EYES TO SEE.
IT IS ALSO IMPORTANT TO NOTE,THE JEWS STONED TO DEATH,THEY DID NOT CRUCIFY,ROME CRUCIFIED,NOT THE JEWS,WHICH MEANS,JESUS WAS PUT ON THE CROSS BY ROME,AND NOT BY THE JEWS,THOUGH THE JEWS CRIED OUT FOR HIM TO BE CRUCIFIED,THEY DID NOT CRUCIFY HIM.
SO LETS SEE WHY JESUS WAS PUT ON THE CROSS.
THE JEWS TOOK UP STONES AGAIN TO STONE HIM.
JESUS ANSWERED THEM,"I HAVE SHOWN YOU MANY GOOD WORKS FROM THE FATHER;
FOR WHICH OF THESE DO YOU STONE ME?"
THE JEWS ANSWERED,"WE STONE YOU FOR NO GOOD WORK BUT FOR BLASPHEMY;
BECAUSE YOU,BEING A MAN,MAKE YOURSELF GOD."
JESUS ANSWERED THEM,"IS IT NOT WRITTEN IN YOUR LAW,'I SAID,YE ARE GODS'?
IF HE CALLED THEM GODS TO WHOM THE WORD OF GOD CAME (AND SCRIPTURE CANNOT BE BROKEN),DO YOU SAY OF HIM WHOM THE FATHER CONSECRATED AND SENT INTO THE WORLD,'YOU ARE BLASPHEMING,'BECAUSE I SAID,'I AM THE SON OF GOD'?
IF I AM NOT DOING THE WORKS OF MY FATHER,THEN DO NOT BELIEVE IN ME;
BUT IF I DO THEM,EVEN THOUGH YOU DO NOT BELIEVE ME,BELIEVE THE WORKS,THAT YOU MAY KNOW AND UNDERSTAND THAT THE FATHER IS IN ME AND I AM IN THE FATHER.

PSALMS 82:MEET THE DIVINE COUNCIL OF GODS,THE SONS OF THE MOST HIGH.
BY DOUBTING THIS SPIRIT,YOU ARE REJECTING JESUS AND GOD ALMIGHTY,PLUS YOU ARE REJECTING THE HOLY SPIRIT,WHICH IS THE GREATEST OF ALL BLASPHEMIES.
I,AS WITH JESUS ARE SENT IN THE NAME OF GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT,AND DO NOT NOT TAKE LIGHTLY OUR TASKS UPON EARTH,OR THE TRUTH WE REVEAL.
ITS 2014 PEEPS,NOT THE DARK AGES :)
OPEN YOUR EYES AND MINDS,BECAUSE THE TRUTH IS COMING TO A FLESH AND SOUL NEAR YOU,SOON,A TRUTH YOU HAVE ALL IGNORED AND MISSED,EVEN IN 2014.
YOU WERE TOLD TO KNOCK,SEEK AND ASK,SO DO AS YOU WERE REQUESTED :)
YOU WERE TOLD TO TEST YOUR TEACHERS,SO DO AS YOU WERE REQUESTED :)

I AM A SON OF GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT :)
I AM ALSO OF THE BLOODLINE OF DAVID,THE HOUSE OF STEWART,THE HOUSE OF UNICORN :)
WHAT I REVEAL,IS REVEALED TO ME BY GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT,AND MY 7 SPIRITS WHO GUIDE MY WRITINGS,AND AT TIMES MY FLESH,WHEN IT CARES TO LISTEN,BUT BEING HUMAN,I MAKE MISTAKES AT TIME,AS FOR MY SOUL,IT LISTENS TO ABOVE ALWAYS,AND TRIES TO GUIDE THE HOUSING OF THE FLESH,YET ALL ARE ME,FLESH,SOUL AND SPIRIT.
WE ARE PUT ON THE EARTH PLAIN TO LEARN,AND FACE MANY TRIALS AND TRIBULATIONS ALONG OUR PATHS OF EVOLUTION.
ALL HAVE WALKED THIS EARTH BEFORE,WITH MANY INCARNATING NUMEROUS TIMES ALONG THE WAY :) BUT FEW REMEMBER THESE PAST LIVES,UNTIL DEJA VU COMES CALLING.
JESUS CALLING HIMSELF THE SON OF GOD SHOCKED THE JEWISH AUTHORITIES,THOUGH THE ROMANS WERE USE TO THIS REVEALTION AND TRUTH,BEING THEY UNDERSTOOD,THEY WERE SONS OF GODS ALSO :)
WHAT VEXED THE ROMANS WAS,JESUS WAS NO FRIEND ROMES,AND HIS PERSONALITY WAS SHINNING THROUGH,ALONG WITH HIS POPULARITY AND STRENGTH AS A FREEDOM FIGHTER AGAINST EVERYTHING ROMAN,INCLUDING THE SO CALLED ELITE OF THE JEWISH PEOPLE,WHO ANSWERED TO ROME,IF TRUTH BE TOLD.
JESUS WAS ON THE SIDE OF THE PEOPLE,JEW,ARAB AND GENTILE,AND NO TIME FOR THE POMP AND EGOS OF THE SO CALLED RIGHTEOUS OF ROME OR THE SO CALLED ELITE OF THE JEWISH COMMUNITY.
JESUS DID NOT FIT IN,BECAUSE HE WAS REVEALING THE TRUTH,AND THAT WOULD NEVER DO :(
BEST TO KEEP THE PEEPS IN IGNORANCE OF THE TRUTH,LEST THY SEE,AND ARE FREED FROM THE BONDS OF SLAVERY TO THE SO CALLED ELITE OF THE POWERS OF BE.
FEW UPON THIS EARTH KNOW THE TRUTH OF THE SCRIPTURES,BECAUSE MOST STILL RELY ON HUMAN TEACHERS TO TEACH THEM THE TRUTH,WHICH THEY DO NOT :(
ITS TIME PEEPS TO READ THE SCRIPTURES FOR YOURSELVES,TO SEARCH FOR THE TRUTH WITHIN THEM,WITHOUT THE TEACHINGS OF HUMAN TEACHERS BLINDING YOU FROM THAT TRUTH.
OPEN YOUR EYES PEEPS,AS I SAID BEFORE,ITS 2014,NOT THE DARK AGES,ITS TIME TO LOOK FOR THE LIGHT IN THE WORLD,INSTEAD OF THE DARKNESS THAT SURROUNDS THE LIGHT.
SEARCH FOR THE TRUTH WITHIN THYSELVES,FOR THERE LY'S THE KINGDOM.

SAN DOM DE NANTA VAN SAN NANTESS ESTANTO PEEPS?







Monday, February 10, 2014

2014 YEARS SINCE A SON APPEARED,WHAT HAVE WE LEARN'T PEEPS?

WELL AT THE MOMENT THERE ARE 56 NATIONS AT WAR OR HAVE UNREST WITHIN THEM.
MOST OF THE WARS ARE OLD WARS,WITH OLD ENEMIES :( AND MOST GO FURTHER BACK THAN 2014 YEARS,AND ALL STEM FROM THE BELIEF IN THE SINGLE,JEALOUS,VENGEFUL,WRATHFUL,PUNISHING SON GOD OF THE OLD TESTAMENT,WHO'S WAY ARE AN EYE FOR AN EYE,AND STRANGELY,A TOOTH FOR A TOOTH :(
YET IF YOU OPEN PROVERBS 24:29,YOU WILL FIND THIS SON OF GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT,IS TOLD BY HIS MOTHER,THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT,OUR HEAVENLY MOTHER,DO NOT SAY,"I WILL DO TO HIM AS HE HAS DONE TO ME;
I WILL PAY THE MAN BACK FOR WHAT HE HAS DONE."
YET IN 2014 IT IS STILL SO IN BILLIONS OF MINDS,AND THE REASON THIS IS,YOUR HUMAN TEACHERS OF FALSEHOODS WITHIN THEIR HUMAN RELIGIONS,WHICH SPAWNS DEATH,HATE,BIGOTRY,INTOLERANCE AND A WORLD OF DISHARMONY,WAR AND UNBALANCE,IN FACT,EVERYTHING THAT IS NOT GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT,WHO ARE KING AND QUEEN OF SALEM,KING AND QUEEN OF LOVE COMPLETE.
THEN AFTER MANY SONS AND DAUGHTERS OF GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT COMING AND GOING OVER THE AEONS,THE PROPHETS AND PROPHETESS'S OF OLD,THE WORLD YOU LIVE ON,THE PLANET THEY CALL EARTH,IS IN A WORSE SHAPED THAN IT EVER WAS BEFORE :( AND ALL BECAUSE OF MAN'S INDIFFERENCE TO HIS FELLOW MAN :(
I SAY MAN,BECAUSE WOMEN ARE THE VICTIMS OF MAN'S INDIFFERENCE TO MEN AND WOMEN,AND CHILDREN,IF TRUTH BE TOLD,WITH COUNTLESS BILLIONS OF BROKEN HUMAN MINDS AND SOULS :( TRAPPED IN THE WORLD OF DELUSION,THE WORLD OF ABUSE,THE WORLD WITHOUT BELIEF AND RESPECT FOR GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT,WHO CREATED ALL YOU ARE DESTROYING THIS YEAR 2014.
JESUS A SON CAME TO YOU OVER 2014 YEARS AGO,AND LEFT YOU WITH TWO REQUESTS,TO HONOUR YOUR HEAVENLY FATHER AND MOTHER,GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT,AND TO LOVE THY NEIGHBOUR AS THYSELF,WHICH IS NONE EXISTANT WITH THE MAJORITY OF HUMAN BEINGS UPON YOUR PLANET THIS YEAR 2014.
DAILY THE ABUSE OF YOUR CHILDREN IS REVEALED UPON YOUR MEDIA OUTLETS,FROM OLD ABUSE OF THE PAST,TO NEW ABUSE STILL ON GOING;
AFRICA AND SOUTH AMERICA HAVE YET TO REVEAL THE ABUSE OF THEIR CHILDREN PAST AND PRESENT,AND THEIR ICEBERG WILL BE THE BIGGEST OF ALL,AND ALL DONE IN GOD,YESHUA AND THE HOLY SPIRITS NAMES :(
I AS A CHILD,KNEW THE HANDS OF THEIR MANMADE RELIGIONS GODS AND JESUS'S,VIA THEIR HUMAN SO CALLED REPRESENTATIVES UPON EARTH.

"IT IS AS IF THE LORD WAS SLEEPING AT TIMES." EX POPE BENEDICT XV1 ON HIS RESPONSE TO HIS CHURCHES EVIL AGAINST THE CHILDREN OF THE WORLD,PASSING THE BUCK TO THE LORD FOR NOT STOPPING THE EVIL OF HIS CHURCH UPON EARTH :(
GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT,AND THEIR DIVINE COUNCIL ABOVE,INCLUDING JESUS AND MARY MAGDALENE HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH THE EVIL UPON YOUR EARTH,FOR ALL HAVE FREEWILL,WHAT HAPPENS UPON EARTH,IS THE RESPONSIBILITY OF HUMAN BEINGS,FACT,SO THAT WHICH IS UPON EARTH,IN REGARDS OF EVIL,IS THE CREATION OF HUMAN BEINGS,NOT ABOVE.

"LET US GO DOWN FOR MAN HAS BECOME LIKE ONE OF US,KNOWING GOOD AND EVIL."

YOUR SINGLE,JEALOUS,VENGEFUL,WRATHFUL,PUNISHING SON GOD OF THE OLD TESTAMENT HAS SHAFTED YOU PEEPS,THIS 2014 YEAR OF OUR LORD :( AND STILL YOU FALL FOR HIS CHARM :(
YET READ HIS CV AGAIN PEEPS,OPEN YOUR EYES,HE IS SINGLE,JEALOUS,VENGEFUL,WRATHFUL,PUNISHING,WITH ONLY ONE SINGLE SON!
DOES THAT SOUND LIKE A KING OF PEACE?
A FATHER OF LOVE?
A CHARMING GOD?
BEING A JEALOUS GOD IS HIS FIRST MISTAKE,AND SHOULD HAVE YOU QUESTIONING HIS CLAIM OF BEING THE ONLY GOD,WHO THREATENS HIS FOLLOWERS TO BELIEVE IN HIM AND NO OTHER?
YET IF HE BE ALONE,WHO IS HE JEALOUS OFF?
JEALOUSY IS NOT A TRAIT OF GOD ALMIGHTY,OUR HEAVENLY FATHER,AND THIS IS THE GREAT GIVE AWAY,YOUR SINGLE,JEALOUS,VENGEFUL,WRATHFUL,PUNISHING SON GOD OF AN OLD TESTAMENT IS NOT GOD ALMIGHTY,OUR HEAVENLY FATHER,AND IS IN FACT A WAYWARD SON WHO IS LEADING THIS WORLD INTO PERDITION WITH HIM :(
THE SCARY THING IS PEEPS,ITS 2014,NOT THE DARK AGES,AND WISDOM IS NOWHERE TO BE SEEN IN YOUR SO CALLED MODERN WORLD:(
ITS NATION AGAINST NATION,RELIGION AGAINST RELIGION IN YOUR YEAR 2014,WITH UNREST IN MANY OTHER NATIONS,WHERE THE POOR HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF THE RICHES WAYS OF OLD :(
YOU SEE PEEPS,NOTHING,SADLY IS NEW UNDERNEATH THE SUN,ITS THE SAME OLD BORING STORY OF MAN'S INHUMANITY TO MAN,WOMEN AND CHILDREN.

THE SPIRITS OF NATURE HAVE HAD ENOUGH PEEPS,AND A HORSEMAN RIDES OUT FROM THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN,TO TEACH HARD LESSONS IN THE SCHOOL OF LEARNING,EARTH,THIS YEAR OF OUR LORD AND LADY 2014.


MANY SONS AND DAUGHTERS OF GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT HAVE COME TO YOU OVER THE AEONS,FROM WITHIN MANY HUMAN RELIGIONS,BUT NOT OF THEM HAVE YOU LISTENED TOO :(

THE RICHMAN AND LAZARUS COMES TO MIND :(

IN HIS ANGUISH,THE RICHMAN CRIED OUT,"ABRAHAM,MY FATHER,HELP ME",BUT ABRAHAM TURNS FROM HIM,FOR HIS INHUMANITY TO HIS FELLOW MAN.
YOU CALL YOURSELVES CHILDREN OF ABRAHAM,YET EVEN ABRAHAM ANSWERS TO HIS FATHER ABOVE,IF TRUTH BE TOLD :)
SO WHY CALL TO A SON,RATHER THAN TO THE FATHER,OUR HEAVENLY FATHER,GOD ALMIGHTY?
YOU THINK ABRAHAM WILL SAVE YOU?
JESUS OR MUHAMMAD?
OR ANY OF YOUR MUTITUDE OF HUMAN SAINTS?

THEN YOU WILL CRY,"BUT LORD,DID WE NOT DO THIS AND THAT IN YOUR NAME?"
AND THE LORD WILL SAY,"I KNOW YOU NOT."
THEN YOU WILL KNOW YOUR FOLLY,AND THE FOLLY OF YOUR WAYS THESE LAST 2014 YEARS :(
ASK YOURSELVES PEEPS,WHAT HAVE YOU TRULY LEARN'T WITHOUT WISDOM BY YOUR SIDE,THESE LAST 2014 YEARS?
THE DARK AGES ARE STILL WITH YOU :( WHERE A SINGLE,LONELY,JEALOUS,VENGEFUL,WRATHFUL,PUNISHING SON GOD RULES THE HUMAN ROOSTS OF MANMADE RELIGIONS,AND THAT IS THE SAD REALITY OF IT ALL PEEPS :( IN THIS YEAR 2014.

WITH YOUR DAILY REVELATIONS OF CHILD ABUSE,PAST AND PRESENT,RELIGIOUS WARS,RELIGIOUS HATE AND BIGOTRY,HATE FOR OTHERS FROM OTHER NATIONS,WORLDWIDE HOMOPHOBIA,SPURNED ON BY MANMADE RELIGIONS,THE RICH CONTINUING TO USE ANS ABUSE THE POOR,YOUR GREED FOR NATURAL RESOURCES,AND GREED FOR WEALTH,TO BE THE BEST OUT OF EGO,AND NOT OT OF TRUTH,AND ADD IN THE FURY OF NATURES SPIRITS,ARE YOUR FUTURE IS FAR FROM ROSY PEEPS :(

SAN DOM DE NANTA VAN SAN NANTESS ESTANTO PEEPS?




Thursday, February 6, 2014

THE MARK OF GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT.

THEY KNOW NOT THAT THEY ARE CALLED,
HEAR NO VOICES SPEAK THEIR NAMES,
BELONG TO NO DENOMINATION,
HAVE NO FAITH,SOME LIVE IN SHAME.

THE SOULS ARE PUSHING FORWARD,
IN AN URGENCY MAKE HASTE,
TO FORCE THE FLESH TO LISTEN,
AND GIVE THE DEVIL CHASE.

THEY SENSE THE END IS COMING,
AND WITH JOY CALL THEIR NAMES,
GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT ARE TAKING HOME,
THE MEEK,THE WEARY AND THE LAME.

THE FLESH IS LEFT IN IGNORANCE,
FOR A SHORT WHILE YET AHEAD,
THEY ARE BLINDLY DOING WONDERS,
NOT KNOWING WHY HE BLED.

HE BLED TO SHED OUR EARTHLY SINS,
THAT WE MAY BE FORGIVEN,
HE LAID THE PATH AND MADE THE WAY,
OPENED UP THE GATES OF HEAVEN.

THE CHILDREN NOW DO MARK THEMSELVES (TATTOOS),
THEY WEAR THE STAR OF DAVID,
THEY DO NOT EVEN WONDER AT,
THE MESSAGE HIDDEN IN IT.

ALL WILL BE REVEALED TO THEM,
WHEN THE TIME WILL BE ALLOWED,
WHEN FLESH IS AWARE OF THE SOUL,
AND DEATH IS COVERED WITH A SHROUD.

UNTIL THE DAY OF JUDGEMENT COMES,
TAKE COMFORT IN LIGHT NOT DARK,
YOU ARE WITNESSING THE BLESSING,
EVERYTIME YOU SEE THE MARK.

THE MARK OF WHICH I SPEAK OF,
THE STAR OF DAVID SHINNING BRIGHT,
THE CHILDREN WEAR THE SYMBOL,
AND IT LEADING THEM TO LIGHT.

ALTHOUGH THEY MAY NOT BE AWARE,
THEY ARE BRANDED BY THEIR ROD,
THE AWAKENING IS OBVIOUS,
TOUCHED BY THE HANDS OF GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT.

SAN DOM DE NANTA VAN SAN NANTESS ESTANTO PEEPS?

THE STAR OF DAVID IS AN ANCIENT SYMBOL,MUCH OLDER THAN ISRAEL,IT REPRESNTS THE SACRED MASCULINE AND FEMININE,GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT,AND IS A SYMBOL OF LOVE,PEACE AND HARMONY,AND IS FOR ALL NATIONS,NOT JUST ONE.

"AND THE SPIRIT AND HIS BRIDE SAY,COME."



Saturday, February 1, 2014

THE CONFESSIONS OF A SINNER,BUT NOT AN ORIGINAL SINNER :)

THEY CRY OUT FROM THEIR PULPITS AND ALTARS,AND ON STREET CORNERS,"UNLESS YE BE BORN AGAIN,YE SHALL NEVER KNOW THE KINGDOM,FOR YE ARE BORN OF ORIGINAL SIN."
ONE OF THE GREATEST LIES EVER INVENTED BY THE CHURCH OF ROME,TO FRIGHTEN,PUT DOWN AND CONTROL THE MASSES,AND THE MASSES BELIEVE THIS IS TRUE,WHEN IN TRUTH,THIS IS A GREAT EVIL.
NO CHILD IS BORN OF ORIGINAL SIN,NO CHILD IS BORN EVIL,NOT EVEN HITLER,WHAT IS SIN,AND EVIL ARE THOSE THAT SURROUND THE CHILD WHILE IT GROWS,AND FEW CHILDREN ARE WITHOUT EVIL WITHIN THIS WORLD OF MADNESS WHILE THEY GROW,FOR EVIL IS EVERYWHERE AS THIS WORLD PROVES,FROM RELIGIOUS BRAINWASHING,CHILD ABUSE AND LACK OF LOVE AND WISDOM BY THOSE SURROUNDING THE CHILD,BE THEY PARENTS,SO CALLED REPRESENTATIVES OF GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT UPON EARTH,TEACHERS,POLITICAL LEADERS,CELEBRITIES,ARMIES,KINGS,QUEENS AND GUARDIANS IN GENERAL :(
DAY AFTER DAY THE ABUSE OF CHILDREN IS THERE FOR ALL THE WORLD TO SEE,AS SCANDAL AFTER SCANDAL SHOWS ITS UGLY FACE UPON THE WORLDS MEDIA,AND THIS 2014 PEEPS.
I MYSELF AM GUILTY OF MENTAL ABUSE,NOT OUT OF KNOWINGLY DOING IT,BUT DUE TO MY ABUSE OF ALCOHOL AND DRUGS,LEGAL AND ILLEGAL,WHICH WAS THE RESULT OF MY OWN CHILDHOOD SEXUAL,PHYSICAL AND MENTAL ABUSE,WHICH RESULTED IN THREE BEAUTY DAUGHTERS MISSING THEIR FATHER DAILY FOR HIS LACK OF WISDOM AND UNDERSTANDING, AND I NEVER SAW MY SON GROW, THOUGH I DID TRY TO MAKE CONTACT THROUGH HIS SHCHOOL WITHOUT SUCCESS, PLUS MY EARTH PARENTS DID NOT WANT TO KNOW, OLD SCHOOL RELIGIOUS PARENTS.
I NEVER EVER DREAMT OF TOUCHING MY DAUGHTERS IN A SEXUAL WAY,AND CAN NOT UNDERSTAND ADULTS REASONS FOR DOING SO,OTHER THAN PURE EVIL,I WAS ABUSED,BUT NEVER DREAMT OF ABUSING OTHERS FOR KICKS OR SEXUAL GRATIFICATION,AND REGRET GREATLY THE MENTAL HURT I CAUSED THOSE CLOSE TO ME,AND TELL THEM WHENEVER I CAN, I AM SORRY,THOUGH AT TIMES,SORRY IS TO LATE,THE DAMAGE IS DONE,AND WILL NOT BE REPAIRED IN THIS INCARNATION.
THOUGH I TELL MY DAUGHTERS, AND FRIENDS I LOVE THEM WEEKLY, IF NOT DAILY.
I NEVER ONCE HIT MY DAUGHTERS THE YEARS I WAS WITH THEM,AND WE HAD SOME BEAUTIFUL TIMES TOGETHER,BUT ALCOHOL AND DRUGS WERE NEVER FAR AWAY :( THE MAKE UP AND CRUTCH OF THE ENTERTAINMENT BUSINESS,AND A CURSE OF MANY UPON THE EARTH.
FROM AN EARLY AGE,AND I HAVE WRITTEN ABOUT THIS BEFORE,FROM AN EARLY AGE,I WAS SURROUNDED BY ALCOHOL,WITH GENERATIONS OF ALCOHOLICS IN MY FAMILY,GRANDDAD, DAD,UNCLES AND AUNTIES,COUSINS,FRIENDS,AND STRANGERS,AND MOST OF THE GATHERINGS WERE JOYOUS EVENTS FOR THE CHILDREN INVOLVED,BUT WHEN THE PARTY ENDED,THE TROUBLE BEGAN AT HOME,MY DAD,AS WITH ME,AND COUNTLESS OTHERS OF MY FATHERS AND MY GENERATION,NEVER KNEW WHEN THE PARTY ENDED,SO MOTHERS WENT TO BATTLE WITH THEIR PARTNERS OF THE MALE WORLD OF SELF,EGO AND PRIDE,AND ADDICTION HANDED DOWN THROUGH GENERATIONS,AN ENDLESS CYCLE OF ABUSE AND SELF ABUSE,DUE TO CHILDHOOD ABUSE YOUR FATHERS ENGURED AS CHILDREN THEMSELVES :(
MOST ALCOHOLICS AND DRUG ADDICTS DO NOT WISH TO CAUSE HARM,TO THEMSELVES,OR THERE LOVED ONES,BUT THEY JUST CANNOT STOP IT,FOR THE DEMONS ARE NEVER FAR AWAY :(
FIRST WITH CHILDHOOD ABUSE/TRAUMA,AND THEN BY ADULT ABUSE OF SELF AND YOUR LOVED ONES,ITS A BATTLE AGAINST HUMAN EVIL AND GOOD.
SOME WIN THE BATTLE,SOME LIVE WITH THE BATTLE DAILY AND SOME LOSE THE BATTLE COMPLETELY :(

SO THE CHILD LEARNS HOW TO SHOUT,TAKING ALL IT HEARS IN,EVEN BEFORE BIRTH,IT LEARNS TO HIT,BECAUSE OF WHAT HE OR SHE SEES,IT LEARNS TO FEEL PAIN,FEAR AND HOPELESSNESS;
AND IT IS CHANGED FOREVER BY THE DARKNESS OF THOSE AROUND THEM,THOSE SUPPOSED TO LOVE THEM.
BUT HOW CAN YOU KNOW LOVE,IF YOU HAVE NEVER FELT LOVE,OR HAVE BEEN TAUGHT LOVE,BY THOSE WHO WERE SUPPOSED TO LOVE YOU,BY THOSE WHO ARE SUPPOSED TO REPRESENT GOD AND THE HOLY SPIRIT,THE GODDESS UPON EARTH,WHO KNOW MORE ABOUT LOVE THAN THE DEVIL HIMSELF,"THEY SPEAK OF LOVE WITH THEIR LIPS,BUT THEIR HEARTS ARE FAR FROM ME;"
THEY STAND IN THEIR SCHOOLS,THE SO CALLED EDUCATORS OF CHILDREN,YET THE LESSONS ARE SEXUAL,PHYSICAL AND MENTAL EVIL,AND THEY THE GUARDIANS OF THE CHILDREN,INTRODUCED BY THEIR PARENTS,AS THEY LEFT THEIR CHILDREN AT THE VARIOUS GATES OF HELL.
HOMES,CHURCHES,YOUTH CLUBS AND SCHOOLS WERE THE PLACES OF CHILDREN'S NIGHTMARES AS YOUR MEDIA IS REVEALING DAILY IN 2014.
PAST AND PRESENT ABUSE IS REVEALED DAILY :(
ADULTS HAD A FREE REIGN ON ABUSE IN MY CHILDHOOD,AND MOST OF IT WITH THE PARENTS PERMISSION :(
LOVE WAS NEVER SPOKEN OFF,AT HOME OR WITHOUT,BECAUSE LOVE DID NOT EXIST,EXCEPT IN THE MOVIES.
I HAVE LONG FORGIVEN MY 14 ABUSERS,THOUGH IT TOOK MANY YEARS OF ADULTHOOD TO DO IT,BUT HATE ONLY BREEDS HATE,AND I AM NOT THEIR JUDGE,SO I WILL LEAVE JUDGEMENT TO THOSE ABOVE ME IN THE DIVINE COUNCIL,FOR THEY ARE BETTER JUDGES THAN THIS FLESH.
THE PROBLEM WITH CHILDHOOD ABUSE IS IT SCARS YOU FOR LIFE,WHETHER VISIBLE,OR INVISIBLE,BUT THE SCARS ARE THERE.
MANY OF MY CHILDHOOD FRIENDS ARE DEAD,TAKEN BY THE RAVAGES OF THEIR ABUSE,BE IT THROUGH SUICIDE,CONFLICT,JAIL,ALCOHOL,DRUGS ETC...
A VICIOUS CIRCLE OF ABUSE AND SELF ABUSE,FEW COME THROUGH WITHOUT MANY SCARS,BE THEM FROM OTHERS,OR SELF.
MILLIONS OF BROKEN BODIES,AND BROKEN MINDS,AND MOST OF IT INFLICTED BY THOSE WHO WERE SUPPOSED TO LOVE AND GUIDE YOU,WHO CLAIMED TO BELIEVE IN GOD,JESUS AND THE HOLY SPIRIT :( BUT ACTED OUT PLAYS OF EVIL,IN PLAIN SIGHT OF GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT,AND ONE OF THEIR SONS,JESUS A CHRIST,AND THE DIVINE COUNCIL,UNLESS THEY WERE SLEEPING,AS EX POPE BENEDICT SAID ONCE,BEFORE THE JESUITS AND OPUS DEI REMOVED HIM.
"ITS AS IF THE LORD WAS SLEEPING AT TIMES."
BLAMING THE LORD FOR ROMES EVIL.

FROM 14 YEARS OF AGE MY FUTURE WAS SEALED,IN REGARDS OF SELF ABUSE.
AFTER THE PHYSICAL AND MENTAL ABUSE,CAME THE EVIL OF SEXUAL ABUSE,THE GREAT LESSON IN MANS INHUMANITY TO CHILDREN,THOUGH IT WAS NOT EXCLUSIVE TO MAN,FOR WOMEN KNEW HOW TO ABUSE AS WELL :( BUT LUCKLY FOR ME,MY SEXUAL ABUSE WAS BUT AT THE HANDS OF ONE ABUSER,OTHERS WERE NOT SO LUCKY,AS YOUR MODERN MEDIA REVEALS DAILY :(

I STARTED SMOKING AT 14,AND OUR CIGARETTES OF CHOICE WAS,THE DANDY AND BEANO COMICS,AND A BOX OF MATCHES :(
WE USE TO ROLL THE PAGES UP NEAT AND TIDY,AND SMOKE THEM,SO RIGHT FROM THE BEGINNING OF THE PATH OF ADDICTION,THE MADNESS OF IT ALL WAS PRESENT,SMOKING COMICS,INSTEAD OF READING THEM,MORK CALLING ORSON :(
THE STRANGE THING IS,MY ADDICTIONS OF CHILDHOOD ONLY BEGAN WHEN WE MOVED UP THE SO CALLED SOCIAL LADDER,THOUGH ADDICTIONS WERE ALWAYS ABOUT ME,WITH THE ADULTS WHO WERE IN MY LIFE,PARENTS,RELATIVES,FAMILY FRIENDS,AND OF COURSE THE DRINK CULTURE OF MY YOUTH,WHICH IS NORTHERN IRELAND,AND STILL IN 2014 WE ARE A FAMOUS OR INFAMOUS DRINKING NATION,BE THAT GOOD OR BAD.
JESUS WAS REGARDED AS A DRUNKARD AND GLUTTON,WHO SAT WITH TAX COLLECTORS,PROSTITUTES AND SINNERS,BUT HE DID TELL YOU TO DO THINGS IN MODERATION,THOUGH EVEN HE FAILED IN THIS AT TIMES :( HE LIKED TO PARTY AT TIMES :) AS HUMAN BEINGS DO :)
"LOVE THY NEIGHBOUR AS THYSELF."
AND OF COURSE,"HONOUR YOUR HEAVENLY FATHER AND MOTHER,GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT."
THOUGH UNDERSTANDING GOD,JESUS AND THE HOLY SPIRIT WAS FAR FROM MY COMIC SMOKING DAYS,FILLED WITH MENTAL AND PHYSICAL ABUSE BY THOSE AROUND ME,PARENT AND TEACHERS,AND SO CALLED REPRENTATIVES OF GOD AND JESUS UPON EARTH.

MY SECOND ADDICTION WAS THE ONE TO BRING ME SO MUCH HEARTACHE AND PAIN,WHERE ALL SELF WORTH GOES OUT THE WINDOW :( ALCOHOL,THE GREATEST CURSE AFTER RELIGION UPON EARTH IN MY MIND ANYWAY,BECAUSE WITH ALCOHOLISM,MODERATION IS NOT IN THE MINDSET OF THE ADDICT.
YOU SEE NO ONE TELLS YOU OF THE PERILS OF ALCOHOL,EVEN THOUGH THE SIGNS ARE THERE ALL ROUND THE CHILD,BUT TO THE CHILD OF ADDICTION,ALCOHOL IS THE NORM :(
NO ONE EVER TOLD ME OR ANY OF MY MATES OF MY CHILDHOOD THE PERILS OF ALCOHOL,IT WAS JUST A WAY OF LIFE,FAMILY GATHERINGS AND PARTIES WERE ALWAYS A FUN TIME,IT WAS WHEN THE PARTY WAS OVER FOR THE LEVEL HEADED FAMILY MEMBERS,THAT FOR MY FATHER,AND SOME OF HIS MATES,THE PARTY WAS NEVER OVER,AND THIS IS WHEN THE STRAIN OF ALCOHOL STARTED SHOWING UP THE PAIN AND ABUSE THAT CAME VIA ANOTHERS ABUSE AND ADDICTIONS.
NO ONE EVER EXPLAINED THAT ALCOHOL WAS IN THE GENES OF ALCHOLIC FAMILIES,AND AS FOR SUPPORT FOR THOSE AFFECTED BY A FAMILY MEMBERS ABUSE OF ALCOHOL,AND ALL THE DISTRESS AND PAIN THAT COMES WITH THAT ABUSE WAS NON-EXISTANT IN MY CHILDHOOD,AA WAS THE AUTOMOBILE ASSOCIATION FOR THE ELITE,AND WHAT HAPPENED AT HOME,STAYED AT HOME.
THE JONES NEXT DOOR KNEW THINGS WERE NOT WELL,WITH THE SHOUTING DUE TO ALCOHOL ABUSE,BUT IGNORED IT,IN THE LIGHT OF SOBER DAY :(
THOUGH SLOWLY MY MOTHER WAS LOSING THE PLOT,TRYING HER BEST TO KEPT UP WITH THE JONES,AND LETTING ON EVERYTHING WAS FINE :( EVEN WHEN IT WASN'T :(
THE PRESSURE OF BEING A SISTER OF A WELL KNOWN PRIEST,AND BELIEVING HER FAMILY WERE BETTER THAN MY FATHERS,LOL,MADNESS :(

I FOUND MUCH TROUBLE WITH ALCOHOL IN MY YOUTH,GETTING INTO TROUBLE WITH THE LAW AT LEAST 12 TIMES,FROM DRUNKEN DISORDERLY,POSSESSION OF DRUGS,DUI,CRIMINAL DAMAGE AND EVENTUALLY ARSON,WHERE I TRIED TO KILL MYSELF BY FIRE :(
IN MY FCUKED MIND,AFTER 12 YEARS OF CHILDHOOD ABUSE,CLERICAL ABUSE AND SEXUAL ABUSE,AND SECTERIAN BEATINGS,I BELIEVED I COULD CLEANSE THE EVIL WHICH WAS SURROUNDING ME BY CLEANSING IT BY FIRE,I DIDN'T WISH TO LIVE ANYMORE,AND IF IT WASN'T FOR A PASSERBY AND FIREMEN,I WOULD HAVE SUCCEEDED,BUT LITTE DID I KNOW ABOVE WERE WATCHING MY EVERY WRONG MOVE,AND AT TIMES DISPAIRING AT THEM :(
I WAS A DANGEROUS DRUNK AT TIMES,WHO HURT THOSE CLOSE TO ME :( AND BELIEVE IT OR NOT,THIS I DID NOT WISH DO :(
SOBER,I WAS A GENTLEMAN,WHO WOULDN'T HURT A FLY,BUT WHEN I DRANK,THE DEMONS WITHIN DRANK WITH ME,AND IT WAS THEIR INSTRUCTIONS I WAS LISTENING TOO,FUELING OTHERS VIEW OF ME,WHICH SLOWLY WAS DESTROYING ME :(
I HAVE LOST COUNT OF THE TIMES I TRIED TO KILL MYSELF,MANY WITH TABLETS,IF ONLY THAT HAD BEEN THE ONLY WAY,THEN I WOULD HAVE HAD NO CRIMINAL RECORD,BUT YOU CAN NEVER GO BACK :(
I HAVE APOLOGIZED TO ALL I HURT ALONG THE WAY,MANY TIMES,WHEN EVER POSSIBLE,THOUGH I HAVE MISSED A SON I NEVER GOT TO KNOW,AND THIS IS MY FAULT,ITS NOT THAT I DIDN'T WANT TO KNOW,I JUST THOUGHT IT WAS BEST LEFT ALONE,THOUGH AN EX PARTNER COULD HAVE FOUND ME,IF SHE'D WANTED TOO,BUT SHE DID NOT,YET THIS IS NOT KIM'S FAULT AFTER LEAVING HER IN SUCH A WAY,I WAS TOLD I WAS NOT ON MY SON'S BIRTH CERTIFCATE,WHICH KINDA SEALED ME PUSHING ANY FURTHER LOOKING INTO MAKING CONTACT,BUT I DID TWO CHARITY SHOWS FOR HIS SCHOOL,WHICH WAS STRANGE,AND ALWAYS TALKED TO MY DAUGHTERS,PARTNERS AND FRIENDS ABOUT MY SON:)
WE LOVED EACH OTHER,HIS MOTHER,AS I HAVE LOVED ALL MY PARTNERS,PRESENT AND PAST,BUT ALCOHOL AND MY DEMONS ALWAYS RUINED THAT LOVE :( FOR ALCOHOL AND LOVE DO NOT MIX,ESPECIALLY WHEN ALCOHOL IS YOUR BEDFELLOW :(
I NEVER KNEW THE LOVE OF A MOTHER,AND EVEN THOUGH MY FATHER SEEMED TO LOVE ME AND MY SIBLINGS,ALCOHOL WAS HIS DOWNFALL ASWELL,UNTIL HE STOPPED,THOUGH EVEN THEN,I ONLY EVER HEARD MY MOTHER TELL ME SHE LOVED ME ONCE,AND THAT WAS IN JAIL :(
LOVE FOR MY FATHER AND MOTHERS GENERATION WAS NEVER TALKED ABOUT,WHEN YOU FCUKED UP,SEVERE BEATINGS WAS THE LOVE THAT CAME FORTH :(
THERE WAS NO SOCIAL WORKERS OR AA,OR ANY KIND OF COUNSELLING IN THOSE DAYS,IT WAS A LEARNING BY SERIOUS TRAIL AND ERROR :( WHICH ALL MY GENERATION WENT THROUGH :(
MANY OF MY CHILDHOOD FRIENDS ARE DEAD,DIVORCED OR STILL CAPTURED BY DRINK AND DRUGS,AND QUITE A FEW ALSO FOUND THEMSELVES ON THE WRONG SIDE OF THE LAW :(
I COULDN'T EVEN KEEP MY MARRIAGE TOGETHER,AND MISSED QUITE A LOT OF MY CHILDRENS CHILDHOODS :( THOUGH I STILL TELL THEM TO THIS DAY THAT I LOVE THEM,AND ALWAYS DID :) BUT AS I SAID BEFORE,YOU CANNOT GO BACK :(

THE TALENT I HAD WAS WITHOUT EQUAL,I WAS A SINGER,COMEDIAN AND IMPRESSIONIST,AND MANY WITHIN THE ENTERTAINMENT SCENE ENVIED MY TALENT :( BUT LIKE MANY OTHERS IN MY COUNTRY,GEORGE BEST AND ALEX HIGGINS,TO MENTION BUT TWO,ALCOHOL CONTROLLED THEIR TALENT,I GUESS IT JUST CAME WITH WHATEVER FIELD WE EXCELLED IN :( TALENTED SOULS,WITH FCUK UP'S OF FLESH :(
THE ENTERTAINMENT BUSINESS IS NOT A GOOD PLACE TO HAVE AN ALCOHOL PROBLEM,ESPECIALLY WHEN YOUR SURROUNDED BY ALCOHOL :)
HAVING SAID THAT,MY UNCLE FRANKIE WAS A VERY WELL KNOWN PRIEST IN IRELAND,NORTH AND SOUTH,AND HE HIMSELF WAS AN ALCOHOLIC,WHO FUCKED UP,MANY TIMES,BUT MY MOTHER'S EXCUSE FOR HIM WAS HIS JOB,AND THE PRESSURE IT BROUGHT WITH IT :(
TO ME,HE WAS JUST COOL,AND A GREAT UNCLE WHO I MISS DEARLY EVERYDAY,HE WAS ONE YOU COULD TALK TOO,WITHOUT JUDGEMENT,CONDEMNATION OR BEATINGS :)
HE KNEW HIS OWN FAILINGS,SO COULD UNDERSTAND OTHERS,ESPECIALLY WITHIN THE FAMILY :)
THE STRANGE THING WAS,ALL MY UNCLES,ESPECIALLY ON MY MOTHERS SIDE WERE AND ARE ALCOHOLICS,TWO OF MY BROTHERS ARE TOO,AND MOST OF MY FRIENDS :( WHICH TELLS YOU,THERE ARE MANY FCUKED UP MINDS OUT THERE,EVEN GREATER IN 2014,WHICH TELLS YOU THAT MOST OF HUMAN BEINGS ARE IN TRUTH FCUKED UP,DRINK SEEMS TO BE A MAJOR FACTOR IN MOST OF HUMAN LIFE,AND IT IS MOST CERTAINLY NOT THE XFACTOR :(

I LOVED MY DAUGHTERS DEEPLY,AND TRIED MANY TIMES TO STAY SOBER,AND I DID,INBETWEEN THE ENDLESS SPLITING UP :( MY FAULT COMPLETELY,MY DAUGHTERS AND SON SHOULD HAVE CAME FIRST,NOT MY ADDICTIONS :(
MY CHILDHOOD ABUSE WAS ONCE MORE CONTOLLING MY CHAOTIC LIFE,AND OTHERS,INCLUDING ME WERE GETTING HURT :(
AS I LOOKED AROUND FAMILY MEMBERS AND FRIENDS QUITE A FEW HAD THE SAME CURSE OF ADDICTIONS,THOUGH SOME HAD UNDERSTANDING FAMILIES AND FRIENDS WILLING TO HELP THEM,AND TALK WITH THEM,INSTEAD OF THREATS,AND YOU BETTER :(
ALWAYS I WAS REMINDED OF THE FAILURE I WAS,AS A SON,AND NOW FATHER,BUT NO REMEMBRANCE OF THE EXTREME ABUSE,SEXUAL,MENTAL AND PSYCHICAL WHICH BROUGHT THIS FAILURE TO THIS POINT IN HIS LIFE :(
EVEN WHEN STAYING SOBER,I WAS REMINDED CONSTANTLY OF MY FAILINGS BY MY EARTH MOTHER :( SHE DOES IT TO MY DAUGHTERS NOW,AND EVEN HER GRANDCHILDREN,AND MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS,STILL TO THIS DAY,EVEN WITH MY FATHERS DEATH,I THOUGHT THIS WILL HUMBLE HER,WHICH IT DID,FOR 2 MONTHS,THEN THE CEASEFIRE OF INSULTS AND HUMILIATION CONTINUES :(
THOUGH I STILL BY HER FLOWERS, CHOCS AND PRESENTS, AND NEVER MISS CHRISTMAS, MOTHERS DAY, BIRTHDAYS ETC...
AND I TELL HER I LOVE HER, WHICH IS NEVER RETURNED :(

I WAS THROWN INTO REHAB,AND FORGOTTEN ABOUT,WITH THREATS RINGING IN MY EARS,AND LOVE,AS IN CHILDHOOD,NOWHERE TO BE SEEN :(
MY FATHER AND MOTHER NEVER TALKED OF LOVE,IT WAS NOT THEIR GENERATIONS WAY,IF FACT,I ONLY HEARD MY MOTHER TELL ME SHE LOVED ME ONCE,AND THAT WAS WHEN I WAS IN PRISON FOR TRYING TO KILL MYSELF WITH FIRE,AFTER TAKING TWO BOTTLES OF TABLETS,A BOTTLE OF VODKA,AND OTHER DRUGS,I'D HAD ENOUGH,ONCE AGAIN :(
THE DEMONS WERE WORKING THEIR BLACK MAGIC AGAINST ME,AND THEY HAD ME,HOOK,LINE AND SINKER :(
WHILE SOBER,I WAS A PERFECT PARTNER AND FRIEND,BUT DRUNK,DRINKING SPIRITS,OTHER SPIRITS ENTERED ME,TO RUIN EVERYTHING I LOVED IN THE WORLD,MY EX WIFE AND CHILDREN, AND PARTNER, AND SON :(
I KNEW I COULD NOT CONTINUE ON THIS DANGEROUS AND DESTRUCTIVE PATH,AND SLOWLY,WITH EACH NIGHT OF ARGUMENTS AND TROUBLE,I BEGAN TO FIND PEACE OF MIND,AND SOBRIETY,THE PROBLEM IS,AN ALCOHOLIC TELLS SO MANY PORKIES OVER THE YEARS,THEY FIND IT HARD FOR THOSE CLOSE TO BELIEVE THEM :( AND SO,FRUSTRATIONS SET IN,AS THE,YOU BETTER THREATS CONTINUED,EVEN WHILE SOBER,INSTEAD OF WELL DONE,KEEP IT UP :)
I MEET ALCOHOLICS EVERY WEEK,I CAN GIVE THEM THE BEST OF ADVICE,BUT AT TIMES,I NEVER HEAR THAT ADVICE MYSELF,EVEN THOUGH IT IS COMING OUT OF MY MOUTH :(
I KNEW THE ANSWERS TO MY ADDICTIONS,I JUST COULD NOT SEE THEM,NOT EVEN WITH A BEAUTFUL WIFE,WHO I LOVED,AND WHO LOVED ME,WHILE SOBER,AND BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTERS :(
CHILDREN ARE SO PRECIOUS :) BUT ADDICTIONS FORGET THIS :(
IN THEIR EARLY YEARS I REARED THEM WHILE MY WIFE WORKED,THEN I'D GO AT TIMES AND DO MY SHOWS,EVEN HAVING TO SNEAK OUT OF THE HOUSE,BECAUSE MY DAUGHTERS WERE SO ATTACHED TO ME,ALWAYS BEING AROUND ME WHILE SINGING AND PUTTING SHOWS TOGETHER,WHILE THEY SANG ALONG AND STORING MY TALENT WITHIN THEMSELVES,LEARNING THE TRICKS OF THE TRADE,WHICH IS STILL WITH THEM,OF WHICH I AM SO PROUD,BUT AFTER MY DRINKING AND BEHAVIOUR HAD ARRIVED AGAIN,THIS TIME LOSING MY LICENCE,AND WITH IT FREEDOM,WORK,FAMILY LIFE,WIFE AND CHILDREN,ONCE MORE A FAILURE,BUT THIS TIME,IT WAS SERIOUS,MY WIFE HAD HAD ENOUGH,AND OUR CHILDREN WERE DEVASTATED :( ONCE MORE THE DAD THEY LOVED WAS GONE,AND THIS TIME 20 MILES AWAY,WITHOUT MOBLIES,COMPUTERS,WORK OR HOME :( NO TEXT MESSAGES OR INSTANT PHONE CALLS,AND WITHOUT A CAR,FEW TRIPS TO SEE MY BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTERS,AND SLOWLY HEARTS WERE BROKEN,INCLUDING MINE :( AND ALL BECAUSE OF ALCOHOL,DRUGS AND INNER DEMONS,HOW MAD IS THAT?
I WENT FROM HAVING MY OWN TRANSPORT,WAS DAILY ON TV AT TIMES,WAS ON RADIO SHOWS AND ADVERTISEMENTS,INCLUDING TELEVISION,TO SUDDENLY BE ON THE STREETS,ALONE,WITHOUT THE PEOPLE I TRULY LOVED,ABOUT TO JUMP INTO THE LAGAN :(
THIS WAS THE LOWEST POINT IN MY LIFE,EVERYTHING I LOVED WAS GONE IN AN INSTANT OF DRUNKEN MADNESS :(
I TRIED TO KILL MYSELF ABOUT 22 TIMES,VIA FIRE,TABLETS,DRINK AND SELF HARMING,AND WHEN I SAY TRIED,THOSE DAYS ARE FAR BEHIND ME :)
WHEN GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT ENTERED MY LIFE,INCLUDING 7 SPECIAL SPIRITS :)
YET EVEN KNOWING THERE IS A GOD AND GODDESS ALMIGHTY,DOES NOT CHANGE THE FACT THAT I AM HUMAN,AND PRONE TO MISTAKES AT TIMES,ESPECIALLY WHEN DRINK AND DRUGS ARE AROUND,THOUGH MODERATION IS MY WAY NOW,KNOWING AND UNDERSTANDING THE DAMAGE THESE ADICTIONS CAN CAUSE,DAMAGE WHICH REMAINS THROUGHOUT YOUR LIFE,ESPECIALLY WITH CHILDREN,AND AT TIMES PARTNERS :(
YET I HAVE SEEN THE PROBLEMS WITH DRINK AND DRUGS FROM MY CHILDHOOD,AND THROUGHOUT MY LIFE,AND HAVE LOST MANY FRIENDS AND FAMILY TO THESE ADDICTIONS :(
IN MY GENERATION,AND THIS IS BORNE OUT BY THE MESS OF LIVES LIKE MY OWN AND THOSE CLOSE TO ME,AND NOT SO CLOSE TO ME :(
THE PROBLEM IS,YOU CAN NEVER RETURN TO REPAIR THE DAMAGE,AND THE BEST YOU CAN DO IS TRY TO TALK ABOUT WHY YOU FAILED CHILDREN AND PARTNERS,AND AT TIMES FRIENDS :(
THE ONLY SAVING GRACE IS,IN THIS WORLD OF MEDIA AND SOCIAL NETWORKS PEOPLE CAN SEE AND LEARN ABOUT THESE ADDICTIONS :) AND WHERE HELP IS AVAILABLE,IF NEEDED,IN MY CHILDHOOD THERE WAS NO INTERNET,MOBILES,SOCIAL MEDIA OR HELP WITH ADDICTIONS,YOU JUST HAD TO GET ON WITH IT,INCLUDING THROUGH THE MOST EVIL AND CRUEL ABUSE OF CHILDHOOD AND TEENAGE YEARS :(
THEN THERE WAS THE RELIGIOUS VIOLENCE,HATE AND BIGOTRY WHICH IS STILL VERY MUCH ALIVE IN NORTHERN IRELAND IN THIS YEAR 2014 :( SO LIFE IN NORTHERN IRELAND WAS NOT GOOD,FOR MY GENERATION,WITH CHILDHOOD ABUSE,SELF ABUSE AND RELIGIOUS ABUSE,THE COUNTRY WAS SIMPLY FULL OF ABUSE :( AND TROUBLED CHILDREN HAD NO CHANCE,NOT FROM PARENTS,RELIGIOUS FIGURES,TEACHERS OR EVEN FRIENDS,FOR MOST WERE GOING THROUGH THE SAME SHIT :(
I WATCH THE HISTORICAL ABUSE INQUIRY WITH INTEREST HERE IN NORTHERN AND SOUTHERN IRELAND,AND BAR THE SEXUAL ABUSE OF SOME,QUITE A LOT TELL STORIES OF HAVING THEIR HEADS PUT UNDER WATER,HUMILIATION AND SOME PHYSICAL ABUSE :(
WHAT I WENT THROUGH WAS SYSTEMATIC CHILD ABUSE ON A SCALE I HAVE YET TO HEAR,IT WAS PURE EVIL,DONE IN THE NAMES OF GOD,THE HOLY SPIRIT AND JESUS,BY SO CALLED REPRESENTIVES OF ALL THE ABOVE,WITH SEVERE BEATINGS BY NUNS,TEACHERS,AND MOTHER,MENTAL AND PHYSICAL ABUSE THE INQUISITION,GESTAPO AND EVEN ISIS WOULD BE PROUD OF :(
SO I WROTE TO THE HISTORICAL ABUSE INQUIRY,WITH A LIST OF MY ABUSERS,WHICH CAME TO ABOUT 12 PEOPLE,NUNS AND TEACHERS,BUT WAS TURNED DOWN BECAUSE ROMAN CATHOLIC SCHOOLS WERE NOT INCLUDED IN THEIR INQUIRY,JUST HOMES AND BORSTALS :(
YET WHAT WAS GOING ON IN THE ROMAN CATHOLIC SCHOOLS WAS DAILY AND SYSTEMATIC,WHERE CHILDREN WERE LEFT BLACK AND BLUE,AND TRAMATISED,WHO THEN WERE REPORTED TO PARENTS,WHO THEN FOLLOWED UP WITH THEIR OWN ROMAN CATHOLIC DISCIPLINE AND ABUSE :( THOUGH EVEN MY PROTESTANT FRIENDS WERE GOING THROUGH THE SAME SHIT,WHICH I WITNESSED FOR MYSELF :)
I WOULD NEVER HAVE GOT INTO THE MAJOR TROUBLE I DID GET INTO IF I'D HAVE BEEN TREATED LIKE A CHILD SHOULD HAVE BEEN TREATED,WITH LOVE,RESPECT AND HUMANITY,BUT AS I HAVE WRITTEN BEFORE,NORTHERN IRELAND HAD THE ADDED PROBLEM OF RELIGIOUS VIOLENCE,HATE AND BIGOTRY,ON TOP OF CLERIC,EDUCATION AND HOME ABUSE :(
IT WAS JUST A CIRCLE OF ABUSE,WHICH ALL SEEMED TO BE DOING AND SUFFERING :(
SO DRINK AND DRUGS WERE THE WAY OF THE ABUSED,WHICH TOOK YOU OUT OF THE SYSTEM OF ABUSE,BUT WITH MOST,IT BROUGHT TROUBLE WITH THE LAW,WHICH IN TURN BROUGHT TROUBLE WITH PARENTS,AND ONCE AGAIN TEACHERS AND CLERICS,SO THE TROUBLED CHILDREN HAD NO HOPE OF ESCAPING THE CYCLE OF ADULT ABUSE :(

IN 2015,NOT A DAY GOES BY,THAT YOU DON'T TURN ON YOUR TV SCREENS,AND YOUR NEWS,AND SOME NEWS ITEM,WITH JOE PUBLIC,OR MORE LIKELY A CLERIC,NUN,POLITICIAN AND NOW CELEBRITIES ARE BEING DRAGGED BEFORE COURTS FOR HISTORICAL CHILD ABUSE CHARGES :(
WHICH JUST GOES TO PROVE WHAT I AM WRITING ABOUT,IN FINE DETAIL,THE WHOLE SYSTEM OF MY CHILDHOOD,FROM THE HOMES TO CHURCH,TO SCHOOLS,TO YOUTH ORGANISATIONS,TO ILLEGAL ORGANISATIONS WAS EVIL TO THE CORE :(
WHICH LEFT A GENERATION OF TALENTED CHILDREN,FCUKED UP FOR THE REST OF THEIR LIVES :(
AND WHETHER THEIR MARRIAGES LASTED FOR SEVERAL YEARS LIKE MINE,OR TWENTY YEARS LIKE OTHERS :)
NONE OF THOSE MARRIAGES OR RELATIONSHIPS WERE HAPPY,ONE'S, BECAUSE SOME JUST STAYED TOGETHER BECAUSE OF OLD SCHOOL DEMANDS AND KEEPING FACE :(
SO IN THE END,ALL SUFFERED YEARS OF PAIN,AT THE HANDS OF THEIR FATHERS,MOTHERS AND PEERS,AS THE ABUSE CONTINUED,VIA SELF ABUSE,AND SELF DESTRUCTION OF MARRIAGES,RELATIONSHIPS AND LIVES :(
MANY NEVER MADE IT THROUGH,MANY CHOOSING SUICIDE AS THEIR WAY OUT OF THIS HELL CALLED EARTH :( AND IT IS HELL,A WORLD FULL OF WARS,HATE,BIGOTRY,ABUSE,GREED,AND AT ITS CORE IS RELIGION,EVIL AND SIMPLE,BECAUSE THERE IS NO WAY ON EARTH YOU COULD CALL IT PURE AND SIMPLE :(
JESUS ITS 2015,AND NOTHING HAS CHANGED IN THIS WORLD SINCE I WAS A CHILD,IN FACT,ITS WORSE NOW,THAN IT EVER WAS THEN :(
THE ONLY DIFFERENCE NOW IS,THE WEAPONARY AND TECHNOLOGY IS FAR MORE ADVANCED :(
BEFORE GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT ENTERED MY LIFE 17 YEARS AGO,I WAS A LOST SOUL :(
LOST AFTER A BROKEN MARRIAGE,BROUGHT ABOUT BY YEARS OF DRINK,SOBRIETY,HAPPY TIMES,THEN BROKEN PROMISES AND DRINK AND DRUGS,AND ALL BECAUSE OF PAST DEMONS,AND CHILDHOOD MEMORIES WHICH ONLY ABOVE CAN TRULY ERASE,WHICH THEY DID,IN LATER YEARS :) BUT NOT QUICKLY ENOUGH FOR WIFE AND CHILDEN :(
YET THIS WAS TO BE EXPLAINED IN YEARS TO COME ASWELL,WHICH I HAVE EXPLAINED,BIT BY BIT OVER THE YEARS TO MY CHILDREN AND EX SPOUSE,THOUGH,AT TIMES,THEY STILL FIND ALL OF MY REVELATIONS A BIT STRANGE,ESPECIALLY THE GODDESS,AND OF COURSE MY SOULMATE ULAYLAH,WHO I HAVE BEEN SPEAKING ABOUT FOR 17 YEARS,EVEN RECORDING A CD WITH HER NAME UPON ITS COVER,AND A SONG DEDICATED TO HER,"A SONG FOR ULAYLAH."
YET IN LIFE,SHE HAS YET TO APPEAR BY MY SIDE :( SO FAMILY AND FRIENDS BELIEVE MY MIND IS,SOMEWHERE OVER THE CUCKOO'S NEST IN REGARDS ULAYLAH,AS FOR THE GODDESS,THEY ARE LISTENING,BUT STILL NEED CONVINCING,BUT DO CONCEDE,THAT WOMEN IS NEEDED TO BRING FORTH BOTH MEN AND WOMEN,MAN COULD NEVER DO THAT,NEVER :(
THIS IS THE ONLY OTHER WAY I DIFFER FROM ANY OTHER CHRISTIAN'S,BAR NOT STANDING IN A BUILDING OF HUMAN HANDS :(
YOU SEE,JESUS TOLD ME,TOLD GO TO MY ROOM,IN PRIVATE,AND SPEAK TO THE FATHER,IN PRIVATE,AND HE WOULD ANSWER ME,IN PRIVATE :)
HE ALSO SAID,WHERE TWO OR THREE OR GATHERED TOGETHER,IN MY NAME,THERE I'LL BE :)
NO MENTION OF HUGE BUILDINGS OF HUMAN HANDS THERE THEN :(
I BELIEVE IN THE CHRIST :)
AND I BELIEVE JESUS CAME IN FLESH :)
BUT I ALSO BELIEVE AS YESHUA DID IN HIS HEAVENLY MOTHER,WISDOM,"AND WISDOM IS VINDICATED BY HER CHILDREN."

PROVERBS 8 22-36 :)

IF COULD TURN BACK THE CLOCK,I'D NEVER HAVE LIFTED THAT FIRST DRINK :(
I NEVER EVER GOT INTO TROUBLE BUT FOR DRINK,AND THE DOZEN OR SO TIMES I DID GET INTO TROUBLE VIA DRINK,IT WAS SECONDS OF MADNESS,REGRETTED FOR A LIFETIME :(
I ALWAYS APOLOGIZED FOR THE HURT I CAUSED,WHEN I WAS ABLE,AND THROUGH THE YEARS DID THOUSANDS OF CHARITY FUNDRAISING EVENTS WHICH I CONTINUE TO DO TODAY :)
BUT YOU CAN NEVER GIVE BACK THE YEARS OF MISSING TO YOUR CHILDREN,WHICH IS THE GREATEST GUILT I CARRY WITH ME :(
I SEE THEM WEEKLY,AND AM IN CONTACT WITH THEM AND MY GRANDCHILDREN MOST DAYS,BUT MANY DAYS, AND MONTHS ARE MISSING :( AND MANY SWEET MEMORIES :( AND NONE WITH MY SON :(
DRINK IS A CURSE,WHICH ROBS THE FLESH AND SOUL OF EVERYTHING PRECIOUS TO YOUR BEING :(
IT RUINS FAMILIES,LIVES,FUTURES,DREAMS,MARRIAGES,RELATIONSHIPS,LOVE,HEARTS,CAREERS,LIBERTY...
YET IT IS SOLD FREELY,WITHOUT QUESTION,EVEN THOUGH THESE FACTS HAVE BEEN KNOWN SINCE PROHIBITION AND LONG BEFORE :(
IT TOOK GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT TO ENTER MY LIFE BEFORE I TOOK HOLD OF MY DRINKING PROPERLY,AND ENDED THE MADNESS THAT SURROUNDED :(
THOUGH I HAVE FCUKED UP ALONG THE WAY,WHEN I FORGET THEM,AND THEIR TEACHING :(
BUT I WILL NOT RETURN TO MY DRINKING DAYS OF 26 YEARS AGO,AND THE MADNESS THAT THOSE DAYS BROUGHT WITH THEM,FOR I HAVE LAID TO REST MY CHILDHOOD ABUSE,WHICH WAS AT THE CORE OF MY DRINKING,AND IS AT THE CORE OF MOST ALCOHOLIC'S ADDICTION,IF TRUTH BE TOLD,CHILDHOOD TRAUMA/ABUSE/EXPERIENCES :(

SO MUCH TALENT,AND I JUST COULDN'T HOLD IT TO-GETHER :(
YET,THEN WHY DID GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT ENTER MY LIFE 17 YEARS AGO,ALONG WITH MANY SPIRITS TO AWAKEN MY SOUL TO THE TRUTH I NOW BLOG ABOUT?
WHEN I LOOK BACK AT THE MESS OF MY LIFE,BEFORE GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT APPEARED,SINCE THOSE DAYS THERE HAS BEEN 17 YEARS OF STUDY AND RESEARCH NO MAN ON EARTH HAS DONE :)
THIS MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS DO NOT KNOW,BECAUSE I SELDOM TALK ABOUT MY WRITINGS TO THEM,STRANGELY ENOUGH,SO THEY JUST THINK I'M JUST THE MAD SON,DAD,BROTHER,FRIEND THEY ALWAYS HAD :( FEW
OF THEM KNOW OF THE SPIRITUAL SIDE OF ME,THEY ALL LOOK AT THE MAN THEY ONCE KNEW YEARS AGO,AND FORGET THE MAN WHO BOTHERS NONE,AND HELPS OTHERS WITHOUT QUESTION,AND HAVE ALWAYS DONE SO,EVEN THROUGH THE YEARS OF MADNESS :)
YOU SEE MY MADNESS WAS BUT FOR SECONDS,AND THROUGH DRINK,BUT THE EFFECTS LASTS FOR YEARS :(
AND BECAUSE I AM NOT A SUCCESS IN LIFE,THEN THE STORY IS HARD TO BELIEVE :(
IT WOULD BE MORE EASY TO BELIEVE COMING FROM A SUCCESSFUL BUSINESSMAN THAN SOMEONE WHO FELL DOWN MORE TIMES THAN ENOUGH,AND NOW CONTENDS WITH CLUSTERS HEADACHES,THE GREATEST PAIN KNOWN TO MAN AND DOCTORS,SO HOW CAN GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT EVER BE TALKING TO THIS BEING?

OVER THE YEARS I'VE BEEN TO LAP DANCE CLUBS,STRIP CLUBS AND HAD MASSAGES WITH PARTNERS I'VE BEEN WITH,ONCE OR TWICE :)
MY FRIENDS HAVE EVEN BEEN TO LIVE SEX SHOWS,AND STRANGELY TO SEE STICKY VICKY,AND NOW HER DAUGHTER,BUT THIS DID NOT APPEAL TO ME,WHICH PROVES,WE ALL HAVE DIFFERENT TASTES IN LIFE :)
BUT ONCE YOU'VE BEEN TO A LAP DANCE  CLUB ONCE OR TWICE WITH PARTNER AND FRIENDS,THE NOVELTY,SOON WEARS OFF,AND YOU FIND THE FASCINATION AT THE END OF THE DAY WAS JUST THAT,A FASCINATION :)
I NEVER FOUND MYSELF IN THESE VENUES ALONE,IT WAS ALWAYS WITH PARTNERS AND FRIENDS,AND ITS WAS MORE OUT OF FUN,THAN PERSONAL ENJOYMENT :)
I'VE WATCHED PORN,HAD FANTASIES,PLAYED ADULT GAMES,BUT NEVER ENJOYED ANOTHER,SEXUALLY,BAR THE PARTNER I WAS WITH :(
I EVEN WENT TO A SWINGER PARTY IN THE LATE 90'S,AND I SWUNG OUT OF IT ASAP,NO THANK YOU :(
THE ENTERTAINMENT SCENE,AND THE MONEY PEEPS, WAS NOT FOR ME :(
YOU DIDN'T LEAVE YOUR KEYS IN A BOWL,BUT YOUR FALSE TEETH :(
I DROPPED OUT OF THAT SCENE,PRONTO.
AND I WAS NEVER MR GREY :(
WITH DRUGS,YOUR SUPERMEN AND WOMEN, BUT THAT LEAVES WHEN DRINK AND DRUGS WERE OFF :(
ONCE MORE,THINGS YOU DO,AND TRY ONCE OR TWICE,BUT NEVER AGAIN :(
EVEN TODAY,AT A BIRTHDAY PARTY,I CAN NEVER SEE THE ATTRACTION OF A STRIP-A-GRAM,BUT THEN AGAIN,THAT'S JUST ME :)
IN THE ENTERTAINMENT BUSINESS THERE ARE MANY BRANCHES TO THE TREE,WHICH CROSS THEIR PASSES AT TIMES,WITHIN,AND WITHOUT :)
THAT'S WHY I JUDGE NONE :)
FOR WE ARE ALL ON OUR OWN JOURNEY'S TOWARD ENLIGHTENMENT :)
THERE IS NO ONE TO SAY YOU CANNOT DO THIS OR THAT,AS LONG AS YOUR NOT HURTING ANYBODY,AND ITS NOT ILLEGAL :)
ENJOY YOUR HOLIDAY'S,AND IF YOU WISH TO GO AND SEE STICKY VICKY :( THEN DO SO :)
EACH TO THERE OWN :)

GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT WILL NOT FROWN ON YOU FOR SUCH THINGS :)
THAT IS WHY YOU WERE GIVEN FREEWILL PEEPS :)
FREEWILL FOR ENJOYMENT AND FUN IS NEVER FROWNED UPON BY THE DIVINE,REGARDLESS OF WHAT THE FUDDY DUDDY'S SAY :(
IF THE ESTABLISHED CHURCHES HAD THEIR WAY,THEIR WOULD BE NO FUN IN THIS WORLD PERIOD :(
LIFE IS TO BE ENJOYED,IN WHATEVER WAY PEOPLE CHOICE TO LIVE IT,WITHOUT JUDGEMENT AND CONDEMNATION,IF THEY ARE LIVING IN HARMONY WITH THEIR NEIGHBOUR'S,REGARDLESS OF PROFESSION OR LIFESTYLE :)
WHO ARE WE TO JUDGE OR CONDEMN?
DID NOT JESUS TELL US TO LEAVE THAT TO THOSE ABOVE?
IF JESUS SAT WITH TAX COLLECTORS,PROSTITUTES AND SINNERS,SURELY HE KNEW WHAT HE WAS DOING?
I MEAN JESUS WASN'T CALLED A DRUNKARD AND GLUTTON FOR NO REASON,HE HAD TO BE SEEN,DRUNK AND MAKING A PIG OF HIMSELF AT TIMES,TO WARRANT SUCH AN OBSERVATION?
YET THE AVERAGE CHRISTIAN WOULD DENY THE ABOVE AS A LIE,EVEN THOUGH IT IS WITHIN THE SCRIPTURES,IN BLACK AND WHITE,FOR ALL TO SEE,THE HUMAN PROPHET,JESUS CHRIST,SON OF JOSEPH AND MARY WAS AT TIMES A DRUNKARD AND GLUTTON,AND THAT'S THE GOSPEL TRUTH :)
WHICH IF BILLIONS OF CHRISTIANS WERE TOLD,IT WOULD FREE THEM OF THE BURDEN OF TRYING TO LIVE UP TO THE EXPECTATIONS OF THIS MYTH THAT JESUS WAS THIS HOLY JOE WITHOUT BLEMISH,WHEN IN TRUTH HE WAS JUST LIKE THEM AT TIMES,A HUMAN BEING,WHO LIKED TO PARTY,WITH TAX COLLECTORS,PROSTITUTES AND SINNERS OF ALL SHADES :)
JOHN THE BAPTIST WAS THE COUSIN,WHO WAS WITHOUT BLEMISH,IF TRUTH BE TOLD :)
YET HE IS SELDOM MENTIONED?

WITH WISDOM THERE IS MUCH WE WOULD NOT DO,THAT WE DID WHEN WE WERE YOUNGER,OR EVEN NOT SO YOUNG :(
IF YOU HONOUR YOUR HEAVENLY FATHER AND MOTHER,AND LOVE THY NEIGHBOUR AS THYSELF,THEN THAT COVERS EVERYTHING :)
SO IF YOU WISH TO PARTY,AND YOU ARE HARMING NO ONE,AND TAKING CARE OF YOUR COMMITMENTS,THEN THE DIVINE HAVE NO PROBLEM WITH THAT :)
BUT THEN AGAIN,I'M NOT A PREACHER,I'M A SINNER WITH A POINT OF VIEW,WHO KNOWS WHO JESUS SAT AMONGST :)
I RESPECT MY NEIGHBOURS,AND QUIETLY DO MY CHARITY WORK,THROUGH MY ILLNESS'S,UNTIL I CAN WORK AGAIN :)
I HAVEN'T PARTIED IN 7 YEARS,DUE TO PERSONAL CHOICE,AND ILLNESS,CLUSTER HEADACHES,CONTROL MOST OF MY LIFE :(
AN ILLNESS I WOULDN'T EVEN WISH ON SATAN :(
THEY CALL THEM SUICIDE HEADACHES AND RECENTLY I HAVE COME CLOSE TO ENDING IT,THANKFULLY,THE DIVINE AND DOCTORS ARE WITH ME :)

BUT THOSE 7 YEARS HAVE HAD ME CATCH UP ON THE 17 YEARS OF WRITING,STUDYING AND RESEARCHING ON THE SUBJECT I WRITE AND SPEAK OF,GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT,JESUS,MARY MAGDALENE,THEIR BLOODLINE AND BEYOND :)
I NEVER STOPPED WRITING,STUDYING OR RESEARCHING IN ALL THESE 17 YEARS,EVEN THOUGH MANY HAVE RIDICULED AND LAUGHED AT ME,AND SOME VERY CLOSE TO ME :(
BUT STILL I AM STEADFAST IN THE TRUTH THE DIVINE REVEAL TO ME :)
YOU CAN'T HAVE CHILDREN,NOT EVEN ADAM AND EVE,WITHOUT A WOMAN,GODDESS,THE HOLY SPIRIT :)
WHEN GOD ALMIGHTY SAID,"LET US MAKE MAN IN OUR IMAGE,AFTER OUR LIKENESS."HE WAS NOT ALONE :)
AND BEING HE IS A MALE,WOMEN COULD NOT BE CREATED IN HIS IMAGE,SO THE ONLY LOGICAL CONCLUSION,IF YOU HAVE WISDOM ON YOUR SIDE IS,HE IS TALKING TO HIS LOVE,PARTNER,CO CREATOR AND DAILY DELIGHT,PROVERBS 8 22-36,REVELATION 12,"AND WISDOM IS VINDICATED BY HER CHILDREN."

IT WOULD HAVE BEEN MUCH EASIER IF GOD AND THE GODDESS,THE HOLY SPIRIT HAD'VE PICKED THIS FLESH WHEN HE WAS BORN,AND GUIDED HIM FROM THAT POINT,INSTEAD OF ALLOWING TO GO THROUGH 12 YEARS OF EXTREME SEXUAL,PSYCHICAL AND MENTAL CHILD ABUSE,TO THEN TO BE THROWN INTO A WORLD,OF SELF ABUSE,UNTIL THEY FINALLY CAME ALONG TO AWAKEN HIS SOUL :(
BUT THEN THEY REVEAL,NOTHING IS BY CHANCE,AND EVERYTHING HAS ITS REASON,AND ALL WAS PART OF YOUR LEARNING,AND THE LEARNING OF THOSE AROUND YOU :)
WHICH IS QUITE UNBELIEVABLE FOR A DAMAGED MIND AND VERY WEIRY FAMILY AND FRIENDS TO FATHOM :(
COMING THROUGH YEARS OF ALCOHOL,DRUG ABUSE,FAILED MARRIAGE,RELATIONSHIP PROBLEMS AND BRUSHES WITH THE LAW WHEN MY DRINKING WAS AT ITS HEIGHT 26 YEARS AGO,SUDDENLY SPEAKING OF GOD,AND EVEN MORE A GODDESS,A FEMALE HOLY SPIRIT,WAS OF COURSE GOING TO GET YOU VERY STRANGE LOOKS,AND EVEN LAUGHTER FROM FAMILY AND FRIENDS,EVEN THOUGHTS OF,HE'S TOTALLY FLIPPED HIS MIND :(
YET SURELY THEY SHOULD HAVE BEEN OVER THE MOON THAT THEIR SON WAS TALKING GOD AND JESUS?
I MEAN,MY PARENTS WERE REGULAR CHURCH GOERS,WHO PRAYED EVERY NIGHT TO, AND WOULD HAVE BELIEVED THE SAME GOD,WHO WAS NOW TALKING TO ME?
MY PROBLEM WAS,I HAD TOLD THEM,A WOMAN WAS TALKING TO ME ASWELL,THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT,AND TO ALL AROUND ME,THAT WAS,MORK CALLING ORSON :(
EVEN THOUGH MY DRINKING WAS AT AN END,ME TALKING OF A GODDESS,AND A JESUS BEING MARRIED TO MARY MAGDALENE,AND HAVING CHILDREN,AND THEIR BLOODLINE CAME RIGHT DOWN TO THE STEWART BLOODLINE,WHICH IS MY BLOODLINE,MY MOTHER AND FATHER JUST LAUGHED,AND TRULY THOUGHT THEIR SON HAD FLIPPED :(
YET IN YOUR YOUTH,YOUR BEATIN AND FORCED TO BELIEVE IN GOD AND JESUS,AND BEATIN AND FORCED INTO CHAPEL AND CHURCHES BY YOUR PARENTS :(
WELL THAT'S MY EXPERIENCE,AND WHAT I SAW SOME OF MY FRIENDS GOING THROUGH, WAS NOT NORMAL BEHAVIOUR FOR ANY ADULT :(
BUT WHEN YOU REACH YOUR THIRTIES,AND SOMETHING UNEXPECTED,AND TRULY AMAZING HAPPENS,AND YOU GET 100% PROOF THAT THERE IS NOT ONLY AND GOD,BUT ALSO A GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT,AND A MULTITUDE OF OTHER HUMAN BEINGS ABOVE,YOU SUDDENLY WANT TO TELL EVERYBODY,THINKING,THEY ARE BOUND TO LISTEN,BECAUSE THEY ALL GO TO CHURCH,AND ALL THEY ALL WANTED TO SEE FOR YEARS WAS A SOBER,SAVED SON,WHO HAD FOR GOD AND JESUS AGAIN :)
THE PROBLEM WAS,THEIR GOD AND JESUS WAS DIFFERENT FROM MINE :(
THEIRS WAS JUDGING AND CONDEMNING ME NOW IN SOBRIETY,AND MOCKING MY INTEREST IN THE BIBLE,EVEN TELLING ME,"TO GET THAT RUBBISH AWAY FROM THEM."
SO EVEN 17 YEARS AGO I KNEW MY TASK OF CONVINCING ANYBODY OF THE EXISTENCE OF THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT WAS GOING TO BE HARD :(
PROVERBS 8 22-36 :)
THE DIVINE COUNCIL PSALMS 82.
THAT JESUS WAS MARRIED TO MARY MAGDALENE,EVEN THOUGH THERE ELDEST SON IS IN COLOSSIANS 4:11 AND IS KNOWN AS JESUS JUSTUS :)
FEW REALIZE THAT A RABBI HAD TO MARRY,AND HAD TO HAVE AN HEIR,AND THIS MOST CERTAINLY WOULD HAVE BEEN THE SAME FOR JESUS,SON OF JOSEPH,SON OF DAVID :)
IT IS IMPOSSIBLE THAT JESUS WAS NOT MARRIED,IMPOSSIBLE :)
AND WHAT IS EVEN MORE IMPOSSIBLE IS,A GOD,MALE GIVING BIRTH TO ANY CHILDREN,FACT :)
FOR I,AND ALL WHO READ MY BLOGS COME FROM A FATHER,BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY A MOTHER,AND WITHOUT THE MOTHER,THERE WOULD BE NO FATHER OR MOTHER,OR CHILDREN,MALE OR FEMALE :(
NOW WHEN I SPEAK TO CHRISTIANS ABOUT THIS FACT,AND ESPECIALLY CREATIONISTS,THOSE WHO BELIEVE THE BIBLE IS THE COMPLETE WORD OF GOD ALMIGHTY :(
EVEN THOUGH,IN JOHN'S GOSPEL IT CLEARLY SAYS,IF EVERYTHING JESUS SAID AND DID WERE WRITTEN DOWN IN BOOKS,I SUPPOSE THIS WORLD COULD NOT HOLD THOSE BOOKS :)
AND EVEN THOUGH IT IS WRITTEN,"AND WHEN HE/SHE COMES,HE/SHE WILL REVEAL ALL TRUTH.'
SO ALL TRUTH HAS YET TO BE REVEALED,FOR PENTECOST WAS BUT THE BREATHE OF THE SPIRIT :)
HE/SHE IS A BEING/S,WHO MUST COME IN FLESH,THIS ALSO MOST MISS,INCLUDING THE SO CALLED EXPERTS IN THEOLOGY :(
BUT THEN AGAIN,I COULD JUST BE A MADMAN?

BUT IS IT NOT MAD FOR A GOD TO BE TALKING TO HIMSELF IN GENESIS,ON THE 6TH DAY?
WHEN HE SAID,"LET (US) MAKE MAN IN (OUR) LIKENESS,AFTER (OUR) LIKENESS."
THEY LOCK PEOPLE UP FOR THAT UPON EARTH :(
YET A GOD TALKING TO HIMSELF IS FINE?
THE CHRISTIANS SAY,'HE'S TALKING WITHIN THE FATHER,SON AND THE HOLY SPIRIT.'
YET IF THEY TRULY KNEW MY FATHER,GOD ALMIGHTY,THEY WOULD KNOW,THE ONE HE TALKS TO IS HIS LOVE,PARTNER,CO CREATOR,AND DAILY DELIGHT,THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT :) PROVERBS 8 22-36,REVELATION 12,"AND WISDOM IS VINDICATED BY HER CHILDREN."
JESUS WASN'T EVEN BORN AT THE BEGINNING,SO THE TRINITY WASN'T EVEN IN EXISTENCE,ROME CREATED THAT IN LATTER YEARS :(
A BIT FURTHER ON IN GENESIS,THE CAT IS OUT OF THE BAG,WHEN ONCE MORE SEVERAL,OR TWO ARE SPEAKING,"LET US GO DOWN FOR MAN HAS BECOME LIKE ONE OF (US) KNOWING GOOD AND EVIL."
THE TRINITY WERE NOT GOING DOWN :)
BUT THE GODS,AND SONS OF THE DIVINE COUNCIL WERE :) PSALMS 82.

THIS IS WHY MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS BECAME CONCERNED,FRIGHTENED AND LAUGHED NERVOUSLY :(
I SUDDENLY BEGAN TO SPEAK OF THINGS,I COULD NOT HAVE KNOWN,IN DETAIL,WITHOUT PAUSE,AND WITH SO MUCH EXPERTISE :(
YET MY LIFE STILL SEEMED A MESS,I DIDN'T GO TO CHURCH,I WAS IN AND OUT OF WORK,AND FOREVER WRITING,STUDYING AND SPEAKING ABOUT MY NEW PASSION,AND CONTINUE TO SPEAK ABOUT IT,TO MUCH HILARITY AND MOCKING AT TIMES,AND SOMETIMES BEING MARCHED OUT OF CHURCHES FOR ASKING QUESTIONS THE TEACHER OF A CHURCH CANNOT ANSWER :(
YET WISDOM IS VINDICATED BY HER CHILDREN :)

I AM NO PREACHER,OR HOLY JOE :)
I WAS A LOVING HUSBAND AND PARTNER WHILE SOBER,BUT RUINED IT ALL IN THE END,WHEN ALCOHOL AND DRINK GOT THE BETTER OF ME AGAIN 20 YEARS AGO,BROKE THREE BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTERS HEARTS,HEARTS I'M STILL TRYING TO REPAIR :)
I WAS LUCKY TO BE A HOUSE HUSBAND FOR A FEW YEARS,SO I HAVE A BOND WITH MY DAUGHTERS,BETTER THAN MOST,EVEN THOUGH I WAS A ONCE A WEEK DAD,AFTER THE DUST SETTLED FROM THE SEPARATION,WHEN SPEAKING TERMS ARE NIL,AND ANGER IS STILL HIGH :(
MY POOR WIFE HAD BEEN THROUGH THIS,SO MANY TIMES BEFORE,AND SO HAD I,MOVING OUT,FINDING A PLACE TO STAY ANOTHER'S SOFA OR SPARE BED AGAIN :(
WORST OF ALL,THERE WAS NO MOBILES,SOCIAL MEDIA,CAR,JOB AND MILES AWAY FROM EVERYBODY I LOVED :(
ROCK BOTTOM AGAIN :(
MORE ENDLESS NIGHTS OF CRYING,MISSING WIFE AND CHILDREN :( AND ALL BECAUSE OF DRINK AND DRUGS.
ITS ALL FUN AT THE TIME,UNTIL THE COLD LIGHT OF DAY :(

I LOST INTEREST IN ENTERTAINING,DOING MAINLY CHARITY SHOWS,FELL IN LOVE AGAIN WITH A BEAUTIFUL WOMAN,WHO GAVE ME SO MUCH STRENGTH AND HELP,BUT ONCE MORE DRINK,AND ONE NIGHT OF JEALOUS MADNESS RUINED THAT,HOW I EMBARRASSED HER,AND I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER IT :(
BUT I LISTENED TO HER TELL ME,ALONG WITH A FRIEND,AND I WAS ASHAMED,THE TONGUE CAN BE A CRUEL THING WITH DRINK AND JEALOUSY :(
AFTER THAT MY DRINKING TOOK A BACK SEAT :(
THIS LEGAL SUBSTANCE,WHICH HAS CAUSED NOTHING BUT PAIN THROUGHOUT MY FAMILY LIFE,AND MINE,HAD ROBBED ME OF EVERYTHING I HAD EVER LOVED :(
LOVE,FAMILY,FRIENDS,FREEDOM,JOBS,SANITY,DIGNITY,PRIDE :(
ENTERTAINING TOOK A BACK SEAT AGAIN AS I REFLECTED,AS MANY TIMES BEFORE,SECONDS OF MADNESS,AND ALL BECAUSE OF DRINK :(
ITS WAS ALWAYS SECONDS OF MADNESS,BEFORE LONG PERIODS OF SOBRIETY :)
BUT THIS TIME,GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT WERE TO ENTER MY LIFE,THROUGHOUT THE MADNESS AND MESS,WHICH BEGAN A SPIRITUAL JOURNEY FULL OF WONDER AND AT TIMES MAGIC :)
YET BEING HUMAN,I STILL HAVE MADE MISTAKES ALONG THE WAY,BUT THANKFULLY FEW OVER THE LAST MANY YEARS :)
YOU SEE WHEN GOD ALMIGHTY,JESUS AND EVEN THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT ENTERS A PERSON LIFE,THEY ARE STILL HUMAN BEINGS :)
BUT THE DIVINE DO NOT WISH YOU TO GIVE UP YOUR LIFE,AND PRAY TO THEM 24/7 :(
AND GIVE UP THIS AND THAT :(
YOU HAVE FREEWILL PEEPS,TO DO AS YOU WISH :)
THE ONLY REQUEST IS YOU HONOUR YOUR HEAVENLY FATHER AND MOTHER,GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,AND LOVE THY NEIGHBOUR,AS THYSELF,WHICH COVERS ALL THE COMMANDMENTS :)
THERE IS TOO MUCH JUDGING AND CONDEMNING IN THIS WORLD,BY THOSE WHO CLAIM TO BELIEVE IN JESUS,WHO WARNED ABOUT JUDGING AND CONDEMNING,"LET THEM WITHOUT SIN CAST THE FIRST STONE."
I SEE CHRISTIANS CONTINUALLY JUDGING AND CONDEMNING GLBT PEEPS,WHICH IS NOT WHAT JESUS WOULD HAVE DONE :(
BUT THEY TAKE THEIR JUDGEMENT AND CONDEMNATION FROM THE OLD TESTAMENT :(
TIS THE SAME WITH RELIGIONS,THEY ALL CLAIM TO BE TRUE,AND WILL KILL TO DEFEND THEIR OWN RELIGION,AND AS YOU SEE WITH ISIS,THEY WILL KILL ALL,INCLUDING THEIR OWN,TO FORCE THEIR IDEOLOGY UPON EVERY SOUL AND FLESH THEY MET :(
IN MY YOUTH RELIGIOUS WAR,HATE AND BIGOTRY WAS BAD,BUT NEVER LIKE THIS :(
THIS WORLD HAS REACHED A NEW LEVEL OF RELIGIOUS MADNESS,NOT SEEN SINCE THE CRUSADES OF OLD :(
NOW SOME WOULD SAY,WHAT HAS THIS TO DO WITH MY LIFE?
I LIVE UPON THIS PLANET,SO ALL EFFECTS ME,NEAR AND FAR :)
JESUS SAID,"IF YOU WISH TO SPEAK TO MY FATHER,WHO IS IN HEAVEN,THEN GO TO YOUR ROOM,AND SPEAK TO HIM IN PRAVTE,AND IN PRIVATE HE WILL ANSWER YOU."
YOU DO NOT HAVE TO RUSH TO A BUILDING OF BRICKS AND MORTAR TO SPEAK TO GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT :)
"FOR WHERE TWO OR THREE ARE GATHERED TOGETHER IN MY NAME,THERE I WILL BE."
TURN A STONE OVER,AND THE DIVINE ARE THERE,SPEAK TO A TREE AND THEY LISTEN,TALK TO YOUR CHILD,YOUR DOG,THE MOON,AND THERE THEY WILL BE :)
AND WHEN YOU HEAR THAT VOICE WITHIN YOU ANSWERING,THE ONE YOU KNOW IS NOT YOU,THAT'S EITHER OUR HEAVENLY FATHER OR MOTHER,THE HOLY SPIRIT SPEAKING,AND YOU WILL KNOW ITS THEM :)
IN YEARS GONE BY,POOR SOULS WERE LOCKED UP IN ASYLUMS,TODAYS PSYCHIATRISTS ARE BEGINNING TO UNDERSTAND,TALKING TO YOURSELF,AND EVEN HEARING VOICES,IS NO SO MENTAL AT ALL :)
AS LONG AS THE VOICES ARE NOT ASKING YOU TO CAUSE EVIL, WHICH IF THEY ARE, THEN YOU NEED HELP,ASAP :(
YOU SEE GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT,JESUS AND ANY SPIRITS OF DIVINE ORIGIN,WILL NEVER ASK TO DO AN EVIL ACT :)
SO TEST EVERY SPIRIT AS JESUS REQUESTED,THOSE WHO DENY,JESUS CAME IN FLESH,ARE NOT FROM GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT,AND SHOULD BE AVOIDED,LEST YOU BE LEAD ASTRAY :(

WHEN YOU TAKE CHILDREN OF SIX YEARS OF AGE AND ABOVE,ABUSING THEM IN THE NAME OF GOD ALMIGHTY,JESUS AND THE HOLY SPIRIT,THEN YOU ARE GOING TO GET FCUKED UP TEENAGERS AND ADULTS WHO WILL GET THEMSEVES INTO ALL KINDS OF TROUBLE,EVEN GETTING INVOLVED IN WARS AND RELIGIOUS CONFLICTS :(
YET HUMAN JUDGES,SOCIETY OR THE MEDIA DO NOT SEE THE BIG PICTURE,EVEN THOUGH MOST COME FROM THIS BACKGROUND,IF TRUTH BE TOLD :(
THE MEDIA REPORT ON WHAT THEY THEMSELVES HAVE SUFFERED,EXCEPT THE OLD SCHOOL,THEY WILL NEVER REVEAL THE TRUTH OF THEIR ABUSE :(
TO THEM,THAT WAS THE NORM :(
BLACK AND BLUE WENT ALONG WITH ORANGE AND GREEN :(

IF I HAD'VE BEEN BORN WITH WISDOM, AND WITHOUT THE CURSE OF ALCOHOL IN MY LIFE, I WOULD HAVE NEVER GOT MYSELF INTO ANY TROUBLE.
SOBER, I WAS A PERFECT HUSBAND, FATHER, PARTNER, FRIEND, BUT WHEN I ALLOWED DRINK TO RUIN EVERYTHING, IN SECONDS OF MADNESS, DEMONS CONTROLLED ME :(
I RARELY DRINK NOW, AND AVOID SPIRITS AT ALL COSTS, BECAUSE ONCE YOU DRINK SPIRITS, SPIRITS OF DARKNESS ENTER INTO YOU, WHICH MANY MILLIONS WILL KNOW BY THEIR EXPERIENCES WITH DRINK, GOOD AND BAD :(
MODERATION IS THE ONLY WAY YOU CAN WITHHOLD THE SPIRITS OF DARKNESS, WHICH WITHIN SOCIETY TODAY, FEW REMEMBER AS THEY DRINK :(
SURE ONE MORE WILL DO NO HARM, THE FAMOUS LAST WORDS OF A FOOL.

I ALWAYS LOVED WHOEVER I WAS WITH, AND NEVER A WEEK WENT PAST THAT I DIDN'T BUY FLOWERS, CHOCS OR SOME KIND OF PRESENT FOR WHOEVER I WAS WITH, BE IT MY WIFE, OR GIRLFRIENDS OF THE PAST.
I STILL BY PRESENTS FOR FAMILY AND FRIENDS, WHICH I HAVE ALWAYS DONE THROUGHOUT MY LIFE, AND THROUGH THE MADNESS OF MY HEAVY DRINKING DAYS.
I NEVER FORGET BIRTHDAYS, CHRISTMAS, MOTHER'S DAY, OR JUST AS A THANK YOU TO FAMILY AND FRIENDS I LOVE :)
I'VE ONLY HAD A LOT OF MONEY ONCE IN MY LIFE, WHICH CAME ABOUT BY CHANCE, BUT EVEN THAT WAS SHARED BY FAMILY AND FRIENDS, WHICH HAS ALWAYS BEEN MY WAY, WHICH THOSE WHO KNOW ME KNOW.
NEVER DID I GET INTO TROUBLE, BAR THROUGH MY DRINKING, WHICH IS BORNE OUT BY MY POLICE RECORD.
WHEN I FORGOT ABOUT MODERATION, AND MY HEAVENLY PARENTS, GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY, THE HOLY SPIRIT, HARD LESSONS WERE TAUGHT BY THEM :(
DRINK WAS THE ONLY TIME THINGS WENT WRONG IN MY LIFE, SOBER, EVERYTHING WENT RIGHT.
YET FAMILY, PARTNERS AND FRIENDS MADE THEIR OWN MISTAKES VIA ALCOHOL, BUT SOME FORGET THEIR OWN DRINKING AND MISTAKES, AND COVER THE TRUTH WITH LIES, LETTING ON THEY ARE PILLARS OF SOCIETY, WHILE HIDING THE TRUTH FROM THOSE THEY KNOW, BLAMING OTHERS FOR THEIR OWN MISTAKES :(
NORTHERN IRELAND IS A DRINKING NATION, AND HAS ALWAYS BEEN, IN DAYS OF OLD, MOVIES ALWAYS INCLUDED THE DRUNKEN IRISH MAN.
YET SINCE I WAS YOUNG, I ALWAYS DID CHARITY WORK, TAKING HANDICAP PATIENTS TO CHURCH ON A SUNDAY WHEN I WAS 13, TO FUNDRAISING FOR THOUSANDS OF CHARITIES OVER THE YEARS, WHICH I STILL DO WHEN I AM ABLE, WHEN THE CLUSTER HEADACHES ALLOW, IT WAS JUST MY WAY, TO HELP OTHERS, BE IT CHARITY OR JUST HELPING A FRIEND OR STRANGER OUT, EVEN WHEN I COULDN'T AFFORD IT, I LENT OR GAVE OTHERS MONEY, WHICH MANY KNOW, AND I HAVE GIVEN THOUSANDS TO FAMILY, FRIENDS AND EVEN STRANGERS, AND NEVER PASS A BEGGER IN THE STREET.
I HAVE NEVER HID MY PAST FROM ANYONE, MY HEAVY DRINKING DAYS AND THE TROUBLE WHICH CAME FROM IT, BECAUSE I HAVE LEARNT THE TRUTH IS BETTER THAN THE LIE, AND A LIE WILL ALWAYS CATCH YOU OUT, SO ITS BETTER TO BE HONEST WITH FAMILY, PARTNERS, FRIENDS AND STRANGERS.
YOU WILL FIND WHEN YOU TELL THE TRUTH, OTHERS WILL REVEAL THE TRUTH ASWELL, AND THE MISTAKES IN LIFE THEY THEMSELVES HAVE MADE.
SOME FAMILY, PARTNERS AND FRIENDS, LIVE IN DENIAL ABOUT THE MISTAKES THEY HAVE MADE IN THE PAST, OR ABOUT THEIR ADDICTIONS, BUT THATS FOR THEM TO DENY.
I COULD HAVE HAD MANY IN COURT FOR MY CHILDHOOD ABUSE, AS I WATCH OTHERS ON THE NEWS DOING, BUT WHATS THE POINT, MOST CHILD ABUSERS, EITHER GET OF WITH THEIR ABUSE, OR GET SENTENCES, AS IF THEY HAVE BUT STOLEN A PACKET OF SWEETS, INSTEAD OF SERIOUS SEXUAL, PSYCHICAL AND MENTAL ABUSE OVER MANY YEARS, IN MY CASE 10 YEARS STRAIGHT :(
SOCIETY LOVES TO GOSSIP, AND LISTEN TO TALES AND CHINESE WHISPERS WHICH COME FROM THOSE WHO'S OWN LIVES ARE A MESS, AND MANY BLAME ANOTHER FOR THEIR OWN WOES, BE THEY FROM THEIR CURRENT PARTNERS, CHILDREN OR THEIR OWN DRINKING AND TROUBLE THAT COMES WITH IT :(
I NEVER BLAMED ANOTHER FOR THE TROUBLE MY DRINKING BROUGHT MY WAY, IT WAS MY FAULT FOR NOT HAVING THE WISDOM AND GUIDANCE AT THE TIME TO SEEK HELP FOR SUCH A DEVASTATING AND DANGEROUS ADDICTION AS ALCOHOL, BUT EVERYTHING WOULD BE EASY IF YOU HAD HINDSIGHT, BUT ALAS, YOU ARE NOT BORN WITH WISDOM OR HINDSIGHT.
THANKFULLY MY DRINKING OVER THE YEARS HAS ALMOST STOPPED, EVENTUALLY GIVING UP ON SPIRITS COMPLETELY, BECAUSE WHEN SPIRITS ARE TAKEN, SPIRITS OF DARKNESS ENTER THE HOST, WHICH BRINGS MUCH SORROW TO THEM, AND THOSE THEY LOVE, SO IN 2014, I LEAVE SPIRITS OF ALCOHOL TO OTHERS, THOUGH I KNOW I WILL BE TESTED WHEN I SAY, "I'M FINISHED WITH SPIRITS
I ONLY HAVE A DRINK WITH FAMILY AND FRIENDS NOW, AND EVEN THAT IS SELDOM, WHICH IS MY CHOICE, THOUGH CLUSTER HEADACHES KEEP ME SOBER NOW, THANK GOD AND THE GODDESS, THE HOLY SPIRIT, AND ITS BEEN OVER 28 YEARS SINCE MY FAMILY, ESPECIALLY MY DAUGHTERS HAVE SEEN ME DRUNK, AND A FEW YEARS SINCE MY FRIENDS HAVE SEEN ME TRULY OUT OF IT :)
I NEVER DRINK AT HOME, AND RARELY WHEN I'M OUT, PREFERRING A FEW PINTS OF GUINNESS RATHER THAN ANY SPIRITS.
IF ONLY IN MY YOUTH I'D HAVE LEARNT WHAT I KNOW NOW, I COULD HAVE STOPPED ALL THE HEARTACHE TO MYSELF AND OTHERS.


SAN DOM DE NANTA VAN SAN NANTESS ESTANTO PEEPS?