POPE FRANCIS AT EASTER.PART TWO.2013.

SO POPE FRANCIS WASHES AND KISSES THE FEET OF TWO WOMEN,ONE A MUSLIM AT THE WASHING OF THE FEET CEREMONY IN ROME TODAY,ONCE MORE BREAKING WITH TRADITION IN THE MALE CHURCH OF ROME.
THIS WILL HAVE INFURIATED THE TRADITIONIST'S GREATLY,BUT WITH OPUS DEI AND THE JESUITS NOW IN THE DRIVING SEAT,THE TRADITIONIST'S MEAN NOTHING WHEN IT COMES TO PROMOTING THE BEAST.
THE BEAST OF REVELATION,WITH THE MORTAL WOUND ON ONE OF ITS HEADS,IS SLOWLY STARTING THE RECOVERY FROM THAT WOUND.
THE OPUS DEI PR MACHINE IS IN FULL SWING NOW,AS POPE FRANCIS,THE JESUIT,BLACK POPE GOES AGAINST OVER TWO THOUSAND YEARS OF TRADITION,BUT BE NOT FOOLED PEEPS,USING WOMEN IN SUCH A PUBLIC WAY IS ALL PART OF OPUS DEI'S PR MACHINE,AND A CLEVER ONE AT THAT,EVEN CLEVERER USING A MUSLIM WOMEN FOR BREAKING WITH TRADITION.

"AND THE WORLD WONDERED AND MARVELED AT THE BEAST."

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POPE FRANCIS AT EASTER.PART ONE.2013.

SO POPE FRANCIS TELLS HIS CLERGY,TO FORGET ABOUT THE TRAPPINGS OF THE CHURCHES WEALTH,AND TO STOP JUST BEING MANAGERS OF THE CHURCH,AND TO GET OUT AMONGST THE SHEEP,EVEN TO SMELL LIKE THE SHEEP.
THE AMAZING THING IS,AS HE WAS ADVOCATING TO HIS CLERGY TO FORGET ABOUT THE WEALTH AND TRAPPINGS OF THE CHURCH,HE HIMSELF WAS SURROUNDED BY THE WEALTH AND TRAPPINGS OF HIS OWN CHURCH :(

USING JESUS NAME TO ADVOCATE ANYTHING,IS NOT A GOD IDEA,ESPECIALLY WHEN HIS WORDS,AND THE SPIRIT BRINGING THEM TO YOUR REMEMBRANCE WILL IN THE END CONDEMN YOU,IF YOU DO NOT FOLLOW THROUGH WITH ACTIONS.
TO CLAIM YOU BELIEVE IN JESUS MEANS,YOU HAVE TO BELIEVE IN HIS WORDS,AND ACTIONS,TO BE LIKE THE CHRIST IS MUCH MORE THAN JUST WORDS.

"SELL WHAT YOU HAVE ROME AND ITS BRANCHES,AND GIVE IT TO THE POOR,AND THE ABUSED."

DID NOT JESUS SAY,"IT IS EASIER FOR A CAMEL TO GO THROUGH THE EYE OF A NEEDLE,THAN A RICH MAN TO ENTER THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN?"
YET EVEN WITH JESUS REQUESTS REGARDING THE POOR AND NEEDY 2013 YEARS AGO,OR SO,THE CHURCH OF ROME HAVE BECOME IN THOSE 2013 YEARS,THE WEALTHIEST CHURCH IN HISTORY,WHICH MEANS,THE CHURCH OF ROME BELIEVE NOT IN JESUS,OR CARE EVEN LESS FOR HIS WORDS,AND REQUESTS REGARDING THE POOR AND NEEDY.
IF TRUTH BE TOLD,THEY CARE MORE FOR THEIR GOLD,JEWELS,PEARLS,STATUES WITHOUT BREATH OF LIFE,IDOLS,ART,AND TRAPPINGS OF FINARY,INCLUDING LANDS AND BANKS,THAN THEY DO FOR ANY ABUSED,POOR OR NEEDY CHILD OR ADULT.

THERE IS NO NEED FOR ANY HUNGER IN THIS WORLD,BUT CHURCHES AND GOVERNMENTS NEED IT TO BE,FIRST,FOR CONTROL,SECOND,TO SHOW THE WORLD THEY CARE,WHEN IN TRUTH,THEY COULD NOT CARE LESS.
SELF IS HUMANKIND'S DOWNFALL,EGO IS MAN'S DOWNFALL,IF TRUTH BE TOLD,FOR MAN THINKS HE KNOWS BEST,REGARDLESS OF WOMAN KNOWING WHAT IS BEST IN ALL TRUTH.

WHAT THIS WORLD DOES NOT REALIZE IS,ANY CHURCH OR COUNTRY,OR FAMILY WITHOUT THE FEMININE,THE MOTHER,EVENTUALLY CEASES TO BE,THE BLOODLINE RUNS OUT.
SO YOU MALE CHURCH OF ROME,AS WITH ALL CHURCHES WITHOUT THE FEMININE,THE MOTHER OF ALL,WILL IN THE END CEASE TO BE.
GRANTED THE BEAST WITH THE MORTAL WOUND IN REVELATION WILL RECOVER,BUT IN THE END,THIS MALE CHURCH WILL CRUMBLE AND RETURN TO THE DUST OF THE GROUND FROM WHENCE THEY CAME,ALONG WITH THEIR JEALOUS LORD GOD,SON,WHO CREATED THEM.

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THE WISDOM OF A CHILD.2013.

EXTRACT FROM NEALE DONALD WALSCH, "CONVERSATIONS WITH GOD."
INCLUDING MY INPUT.

IN A FUTURE TIME, YET NOT FAR OFF, BECAUSE OF ONE INDIVIDUAL, THIS WORLD WILL BECOME FLAMES, AND THE INNOCENTS WILL PAY THE PRICE TO THE BEAST WITH THEIR BLOOD.
IT IS ALWAYS THE INNOCENT WHO PAY FOR THE MADNESS OF THE GUILTY.
HUMANKIND HAS FINALLY LOADED THE DICE, THEY HAVE CREATED WEAPONS WHICH WERE NEVER THERE AT THE START, WEAPONS WITH THE ABILITY TO EXTERMINATE ALL LIVING BEINGS, CITIES AND VEGETATION.
ALL THIS WILL COME ABOUT DUE TO RELIGION AND EGO, BY ONE CLAIMING TO BE GOD ALMIGHTY, THOUGH IN TRUE, HE IS THE BEAST HIMSELF.

WHEN EXPLAINED TO A CHILD, THE CREATION OF SUCH WEAPONS AND THEIR DESTRUCTIVE POWER, HIS WORDS OF WISDOM IN REPLY WERE;

"I SEE, IT IS AS IF INSECTS HAD INVENTED PESTICIDES."

HUMAN BEINGS AND MAN, IN PARTICULAR, HAVE INVENTED THEIR OWN PESTICIDE, AND NOT FAR OFF THEY WILL SPRAY THIS WORLD WITH THEIR RELIGIOUS HATE OF DESTRUCTION AND EXTERMINATION.
INSECTS ARE NOT SO STUPID.

HOW FOOLISH IS MAN?

"Peace be with you."

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WHEN THE TRUTH IS FIRST HEARD.2013.

WHEN A PERSON FIRST HEARS THE TRUTH OF GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE FATHER AND MOTHER,THEN HEARS THAT THEY HAVE NOT ONLY A SON,BUT A DAUGHTER,YHWH,THE FATHER,MOTHER,SON AND DAUGHTER,THEN HEARS,THEY ARE NOT ALONE,BUT ALSO HAVE AN EXTENDED CIRCLE OF FAMILY,OTHER SONS AND DAUGHTERS,WHO IN TURN ARE GODS AND GODDESS'S IN THEIR OWN RIGHT,PSALMS 82,THAT TRUTH IS DISMISSED AND IS NOT UNDERSTOOD BY THE HEARER,DUE TO CORRUPTION,FABRICATION,AND FALSE TEACHINGS OF THE TRUE WORDS OF GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT.

THOSE WHO TEACH THERE IS NO GODDESS,AND ONLY ONE GOD,WITH ONLY ONE SON ARE TEACHING LIES,AND MORE THAN THAT,ARE SELF APPOINTED TEACHERS,WHO HAVE NO AUTHORITY TO TEACH THE WORDS OF GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY.
THESE LIES IN THE MOST ARE FORCED UPON CHILDREN EVEN IN THIS YEAR 2013,WHICH IS SAD BUT TRUE.
SO WHEN THE TRUTH IS REVEALED AS THE THE TRUTH,THOSE INDOCTRINATED BY THE ESTABLISHED CHURCHES REJECT IT BECAUSE,IT CANNOT BE.
THEY THINK THEIR TEACHERS ARE TEACHING THE TRUTH,AND THAT IS GOOD ENOUGH FOR THEM,EVEN THOUGH IT IS THE BLIND LEADING THE BLIND,IN REALITY.

SO WHEN THE TRUTH IS FIRST HEARD BY THOSE TAUGHT WITHIN THE WALLS OF HUMAN HANDS,BY TEACHERS AS HUMAN AS THEY,EVEN THOUGH SOME CLAIM INFALLIBILITY,LOL,THE DARK ONE WILL REMOVE THAT TRUTH,FOR FEAR OF BEING DISCOVERED AS A LIAR.
ANY OTHER STORY THAN THE ONE THEY HAVE BEEN TAUGHT,ABOUT ONLY ONE GOD,WITH ONLY ONE SON,CANNOT BE TRUE,EVEN THOUGH SCRIPTURES AND COMMON SENSE,AND A SPIRIT REVEALS THE TRUTH.

YET AS SOME LISTEN TO THE TELLER OF THE TRUTH STORY,WITHIN THEIR BEING THEIR SOUL IS AWAKENING,FOR THE SOUL WITHIN KNOWS THE TRUTH,BEING IT COMES FROM THE BEGINNING,AND HAS THIS KNOWLEDGE INBUILT,THE PROBLEM IS,THE SOUL MUST COMPETE WITH A HUMAN MIND,WHICH HAS BEEN BRAINWASHED FROM BIRTH WITH THE FALSE STORY.

TO THE ESTABLISHED CHURCHES,ESPECIALLY MY OWN BIRTH CHURCH,THE CHURCH OF ROME,THIS SPIRIT IS ANATHEMA,AND IN THEIR EYES,THE DEVIL HIMSELF,LOL.
YET IF I SPEAK THE TRUTH OF GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT,AND THE TRUTH OF JESUS,ONE OF THEIR SONS,FOR I AM ONE ALSO,BUT WE ARE NOT THE ONLY TWO,AND IF I SPEAK THE TRUTH OF MARY MAGDALENE,JESUS PARTNER AND LOVE,AND THEIR CHILDREN,JESUS JNR WHO IS KNOWN AS JUSTUS,COLOSSIANS 4:VERSE 11,,JOSEPH AND THEIR DAUGHTER TAMAR,AND IF I CONDEMN SATAN AND ALL HIS WORKS,THEN SURELY I AM A HOUSE DIVIDED?

JESUS ADVOCATED THAT YOU TEST YOUR TEACHERS,YET FEW DO,FOR FEAR OF QUESTIONING,OR FOR FEAR OF THOSE TEACHERS.
MANY A CHURCH I HAVE BEEN MARCHED OUT OF FOR ASKING QUESTIONS,WHICH THESE SELF APPOINTED TEACHERS COULD NOT ANSWER,"WHERE DID CAINS WIFE COME FROM?",TO MENTION ONE.
THE ABOVE QUESTION ALWAYS HAS THE SELF APPOINTED TEACHERS SEARCHING FOR WORDS TO EXPLAIN,CAINS WIFE,WHICH IN TRUTH HAS ONLY ONE ANSWER,EVE WAS NOT THE ONLY WOMAN,IN THE BEGINNING.
WHEN A SELF APPOINTED TEACHER IS PUSHED FOR AN ANSWER,EXPLANATION FOR EVEN ONE QUESTION THEY CANNOT ANSWER,EMBARRASSMENT OF BEING SHOWN UP BEGINS,THEN WHEN PUSHED FURTHER,ANGER TAKES OVER,THEN THE SELF APPOINTED TEACHERS GANG OF DISCIPLES REMOVE THE OFFENDING IN THEIR EYES,SPIRIT OF QUESTIONING,YET ALL I WAS DOING WAS TESTING THEIR TEACHER,AS JESUS REQUESTED,LOL.
OH THE JOYS OF THE TRUTH.

REMEMBER PEEPS,JESUS ALSO SAID,"EVERYTHING HIDDEN WOULD BE REVEALED,EVERYTHING COVERED WOULD BE UNCOVERED."
JESUS ALSO TOLD YOU,ANOTHER WOULD COME IN HIS NAME,WHO WOULD GUIDE YOU INTO ALL TRUTH.

"AND WHEN THE SPIRIT OF TRUTH IS COME,(HE) WILL GUIDE YOU INTO ALL TRUTH,AND WILL SHOW YOU THINGS TO COME."

THE EVIL ONE HAS DECEIVED THIS WORLD,BY GETTING IT TO BELIEVE HE IS GOD ALMIGHTY,SINGULAR,JEALOUS,WRATHFUL,VENGEFUL AND PUNISHING.
DOES THIS SOUND LIKE A LOVING FATHER PEEPS?
THIS SON GOD,FOR THAT IS WHAT HE IS IN REALITY,A SON,AND A WAYWARD ONE AT THAT,THIS SON GOD HAS YOU BELIEVING,HE IS ALONE,LOL,PSALMS 82,AND JESUS WORDS,"YE ARE GODS,"AND HIS BRINGING TO YOUR REMEMBRANCE PSALMS 82 ARE PROVE,IF NEEDED,THIS BELIEF IS A LIE.
HE HAS YOU BELIEVE THAT GOD ALMIGHTY,THE FATHER,MY FATHER AND JESUS'S FATHER,OUR FATHER IS ALONE,WHEN PROVERBS 8:VERSES 22,AND REVELATION 12,AND JESUS ACKNOWLEDGEMENT,"AND WISDOM IS VINDICATED BY HER CHILDREN,"IS PROOF WITHOUT DOUBT OF A MOTHER,OF WHOM JESUS AND I ARE BUT TWO OF THEIR SONS.
SHE IS THE MOTHER OF ALL CREATION,PARTNER,LOVE,CO CREATOR,AND DAILY DELIGHT OF GOD ALMIGHTY,OUR FATHER.
YOU HAVE BEEN LIED TO PEEPS,AND CONNED INTO BELIEVING THIS MALE MADNESS OF A STORY.
YOUR JEALOUS SON GOD,WITH ONLY ONE SON IS A FOOLISH SON,FAR FROM THE FATHER,AND MOST CERTAINLY FAR FROM THE MOTHER,AND TRUTH,AND WITHOUT WISDOM,THE MOTHER,THERE IS NO TRUTH.

THE GREATEST OF ALL BLASPHEMIES WITHIN THE BIBLE IS,THE BLASPHEMY AGAINST THE HOLY SPIRIT,THE MOTHER,WHY,BECAUSE SHE IS GOD ALMIGHTY'S LOVE,PARTNER,CO CREATOR AND DAILY DELIGHT,THIS BLASPHEMY IS NEVER FORGIVEN IN THIS AGE OR THE AGE TO COME,WHICH IS UNDERSTANDABLE IF YOU INSULT THE LOVE AND PARTNER OF GOD ALMIGHTY.
TRY AND INSULT SOMEONE'S PARTNER WHO IS TRULY IN LOVE WITH THAT PARTNER UPON EARTH AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS,NOW IMAGE INSULTING GOD ALMIGHTY'S LOVE AND PARTNER,NOT A GOD IDEA.

GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,OR THEIR DIVINE COUNCIL DEMAND NO WORSHIP,OR EVEN PRAISE OR RESPECT,BECAUSE ALL UPON EARTH HAVE FREEWILL,TO BELIEVE OR NOT,THAT IS YOUR CHOICE,BUT THERE IS ONLY ONE TRUTH,AND THAT IS GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY'S TRUE,AND IT IS COMING TO THIS WORLD.
WITH MIGHTY SIGNS AND WONDERS,IN THE SKIES ABOVE,AND IN THE EARTH BELOW THEY WILL MAKE THEIR PRESENCE FELT,AFTER THIS EASTER TIME.
THIS SPIRIT,STEWART WAS BORN ON EASTER SUNDAY 1964,MY BIRTH DAY THIS YEAR IS GOOD FRIDAY 2013,ISON IS COMING,A GREAT SIGN FROM ABOVE,THAT A GREAT SOUL IS UPON EARTH,IN FLESH,AND THIS SOULS TRUTH WILL BE HEARD WORLDWIDE.

THIS COULD NOT HAVE HAPPENED 30 YEARS AGO,FOR TECHNOLOGY WAS NOT ADVANCED AS IT IS NOW.
IN PLACE NOW IS THE WORLD OF TECHNOLOGY,MEDIA,INTERNET,MOBILE PHONES IT IS THE GREAT TOOL OF COMMUNICATION WITH HUMAN BEINGS,THOUGH YOUR TECHNOLOGY IS TAME COMPARED TO THAT ABOVE,LOL,BUT EVERYTHING IS IN PLACE FOR GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY'S MESSAGE TO BE HEARD WORLDWIDE,THOUGH SOME TRIBES HIDDEN,WILL HAVE TO BE VISITED IN PERSON BY WISDOMS CHILDREN,BUT EVENTUALLY ALL THE WORLD WILL HEAR THE TRUE WORDS OF GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,AND THEIR TRUTH.

YOU WERE MEANT TO BE ONE UPON EARTH,THAT WAS THE TEST.
YOU WERE MEANT TO LIVE IN HARMONY AND PEACE.
REGARDLESS OF WHAT YOU BELIEVE,BE YOU RELIGIOUS OR NOT,YOU ALL COME FROM THE SAME SOURCE,GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,IN THE END,YOU CANNOT GET PAST THAT TRUTH,REGARDLESS OF YOUR TEACHINGS OF LIES,AND YOUR OWN INDOCTRINATED MINDSET.
ONE FAMILY,GRANTED WITH MANY BRANCHES,BUT FROM THE SAME TREE,WITH MANY DOMINIONS AND PRINCIPALITIES.
AS ABOVE,SO BELOW,ON EARTH,AS IT IS IN HEAVEN.
SIMPLE TRUTH.
YET INSTEAD,YOU ARE MANY,IN MANY BRANCHES OF YOUR RELIGIOUS ESTABLISHMENTS,WHO SELDOM SEE EYE TO EYE ON ANYTHING,WHO JUDGE AND CONDEMN ALL OTHER RELIGIONS BAR THEIRS,WITH THE CHURCH OF ROME CLAIM SUPREME AUTHORITY OUT OF ALL CHURCHES,CLAIMING THEIR TRUTH IS THE ONLY CHURCH,YET IF IT BE THE ONLY TRUTH,WHY IS IT NOT THE TRUTH?
ANY CHURCH WHO HAS MURDERED AND ABUSED CHILDREN IN THEIR MILLIONS FOR EVEN A FRACTION OF THEIR EVIL TIMES,WOULD HAVE BEEN LONG AGO SHUT DOWN AND DESTROYED,BUT NOT ROME THE HARLOT,FOR THE DEVIL,THE JEALOUS SON GOD OF THE OLD TESTAMENT IS A WILEY FOX,OR WOLVE IF TRUTH BE TOLD,WITH BILLIONS OF MISGUIDED FOLLOWERS.
THIS IS WHY,"MANY WILL BE CALLED,BUT FEW TAKEN."

ALL WILL HEAR AND SEE THE TRUTH,BUT IT IS UP TO SELF AND FREEWILL WHETHER OR NOT THEY LISTEN TO IT :( :)

BUT LETS NOT HAVE ANY BONES ABOUT IT,WHEN THE TRUTH,ALL TRUTH FINALLY COMES,VIA THE SPIRITS OF ALL TRUTH,MALE AND FEMALE,WISDOMS,AND GOD ALMIGHTY'S CHILDREN,AND YOU HAVE BEEN GIVEN AMPLE TIME TO DIGEST THAT TRUTH,IF THEN YOU REJECT THAT TRUTH,THAT TRUTH,GOD AND THE GODDESS,INCLUDING JESUS,MARY MAGDALENE,AND ALL THE DIVINE COUNCIL ABOVE WILL REJECT THE REJECTERS OF TRUTH.

WHEN YOU READ OR HEAR SOMETHING AND IT AWAKENS YOUR SOUL,THEN FOLLOW THAT FEELING,FOR IT IS THE TRUTH YOUR SOUL AND FLESH IS RECEIVING AND SLOWLY ACCEPTING.

"TAKE OF YOUR GRAVE CLOTHES OF LIES,AND REPLACE THEM WITH THE BREAD OF ALL LIFE,ALL TRUTH."

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2020 IS COMING?

THE COMING OF THE HOLY SPIRIT.2013.

ONE THING YOU MUST UNDERSTAND ABOUT THE HOLY SPIRIT IS,FIRST OF ALL,THEY ARE BOTH MALE AND FEMALE,ONE YET TWO,TWO SOULS WITH THE ONENESS.
THE FATHER,GOD ALMIGHTY,AND THE MOTHER,THE HOLY SPIRIT,THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY.

"THE TWO ARE ONE,THEY HAVE A SON AND DAUGHTER,UPON EARTH,MAN AND WOMAN."

SO TWO SOULS MUST COME,IF TRUTH BE TOLD,MALE AND FEMALE,THE SON AND DAUGHTER OF GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY.
ETERNAL LOVERS,SOULMATES.
THEY WILL BE WITNESS OF JESUS,HIS WORDS,AND HIS FATHER AND MOTHER,THEIR FATHER AND MOTHER,GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY.
THEY WILL BRING TO YOUR REMEMBRANCE,THE WORDS OF JESUS,AND WILL GUIDE YOU INTO ALL TRUTH.
THEY WILL REMIND YOU OF PAST TIMES,AND SPEAK OF THE PRESENT,AND THAT WHICH IS TO COME.
THOUGH THEY WILL NOT SPEAK ON THEIR OWN AUTHORITY,BUT OF WHATEVER THEY HEAR FROM THEIR FATHER AND MOTHER ABOVE,AND THEIR DIVINE COUNCIL,PSALMS 82.

REGARDLESS OF WHAT YOU HAVE BEEN TOLD,BY YOUR TEACHERS,THERE IS A BIGGER STORY,YET TO BE TOLD.
THE STORY YOU HAVE BEEN TOLD BY YOUR HUMAN TEACHERS,ORIGINATED VIA THE FEATHERS OF ROME,AND IS BUT A FRACTION OF THE TRUTH.
ALL TRUTH IS YET TO COME.

LET US PUT THE TWO SOULS,AND THE GODDESS TO ONE SIDE,FOR THIS MOMENT,BUT NEVER FORGET THEM,FOR THEY ARE TRUE,REGARDLESS OF YOUR TEACHINGS,OR WHAT YOU THINK YOU KNOW.

LETS CONCENTRATE ON THE MALE CHRISTIAN SCRIPTURES,AND THEIR EXPLANATION OF THE HOLY SPIRIT,AND REGARDLESS OF MY VISION OF TWO SOULS COMING,MALE AND FEMALE,THE SON AND DAUGHTER OF GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,EVEN JESUS PREDICTED ANOTHER WOULD COME IN FLESH.
JESUS WAS NOT JUST TALKING ABOUT AN ENERGY SOURCE,BUT A HE,FLESH AND BONES.
NOW SOME WOULD SAY,BUT HOLD ON BOYO,THE HOLY SPIRIT CAME AT PENTECOST,BUT IF TRUTH BE TOLD,THE POWER OF THE HOLY SPIRIT CAME AT PENTECOST,NOT THE PERSON OF THE HOLY SPIRIT,HE IS YET TO COME,AND HE IS A PERSON,WITH A PARTNER.

"AND THE SPIRIT AND HIS BRIDE SAY,COME."

"LET THOSE WITH EYES TO SEE,SEE THE WORDS OF TRUTH,AND OF THE SPIRIT,LET THOSE WITH EARS HEAR HIS WORDS."

UNDERSTAND PEEPS,JESUS IS TALKING BELOW OF A HE,A PERSON WHO WILL COME IN FLESH TO REVEAL ALL TRUTH.
SO THAT WHICH YOU HAVE BEEN TAUGHT BY YOUR TEACHERS OF CHRISTIANITY IS NOT ALL TRUTH.

JOHN 14:VERSE 26:

BUT THE COMFORTER,WHICH IS THE HOLY SPIRIT,WHOM THE FATHER WILL SEND IN MY NAME,(HE) SHALL TEACH YOU (ALL) THINGS,A BRING (ALL) THINGS TO YOUR REMEMBRANCE,WHATSOEVER I HAVE SAID TO YOU.

WHOM THE FATHER WILL SEND IN MY NAME.
(HE WILL TEACH YOU ALL THINGS,(HE) BEING A HUMAN BEING,ELSE IT WOULD HAVE SAID,"WHEN THE POWER OF THE SPIRIT COMES",BUT IT DOES NOT,REVEALING A PERSON IS TO COME,EVEN SOME MORMONS KNOW THIS TRUTH,AND BELIEVE IT,AS DO A FEW OTHERS.
(HE) WILL REMIND YOU OF WHAT JESUS A CHRIST SAID,AND WILL EXPLAIN HIS WORDS.

JOHN 15:VERSE 26:

BUT WHEN THE COMFORTER IS COME,WHOM I WILL SEND UNTO YOU FROM THE FATHER,EVEN THE SPIRIT OF TRUTH,WHICH PROCEEDETH FROM THE FATHER,(HE) SHALL TESTIFY OF ME.

WHY THE COMFORTER?
BECAUSE HE WILL COMFORT THOSE WHO LIVE IN CHAOS WITH THEIR LIVES,THE ABUSED,THE SELF ABUSED,THE INDOCTRINATED MINDS OF POISON BY RELIGIOUS ESTABLISHMENTS,THE FLESH AND SOULS WHO LIVE IN THE WORLD OF CHAOS AND DELUSION,FOR THAT WHICH YOU HAVE LIVED,HE HAS LIVED HIMSELF.

"IF YOU HAVE NO NEED FOR A DOCTOR,THEN SPIRIT WILL HAVE NO NEED FOR YOU,HE DOES NOT COME TO SPEAK TO THE SO CALLED WELL,THE SO CALLED RIGHTEOUS,FOR THEY HAVE HAD THERE LOT,HE COMES TO SPEAK TO THOSE WHO HAVE LOST HOPE,AND HAVE LOST THEIR WAY,DUE TO RELIGION,ABUSE,WAR,SEPARATION,DIVISION,HE COMES TO SPEAK TO THE CHILDREN OF WISDOM,AND THOSE NOT OF THE BLOODLINE OF JESUS AND THE MAGDALENE,WHO WISH TO LISTEN TO ALL TRUTH."

JOHN 16:VERSE 7-15:

NEVERTHELESS I TELL YOU THE TRUTH;
IT IS TO YOUR ADVANTAGE THAT I GO AWAY,FOR IF I DO NOT GO AWAY,THE COUNSELLOR WILL NOT COME TO YOU;
BUT IF I GO,I WILL SEND (HIM) TO YOU.
AND WHEN (HE) COMES,(HE) WILL CONVINCE THE WORLD OF SIN AND OF RIGHTEOUSNESS AND OF JUDGEMENT;
OF SIN,BECAUSE THEY DO NOT BELIEVE IN ME;
OF RIGHTEOUSNESS,BECAUSE I GO TO THE FATHER,AND YOU WILL SEE ME NO MORE;
OF JUDGEMENT,BECAUSE THE RULER OF THE WORLD IS JUDGED.
"I HAVE YET MANY THINGS TO SAY TO YOU,BUT YOU CANNOT BEAR THEM NOW.
WHEN THE SPIRIT OF TRUTH COMES,(HE) WILL GUIDE YOU INTO ALL TRUTH;
FOR (HE) WILL NOT SPEAK ON (HIS) OWN AUTHORITY,BUT WHATEVER (HE) HEARS (HE) WILL SPEAK,AND (HE) WILL DECLARE TO YOU THE THINGS THAT ARE TO COME.
(HE) WILL GLORIFY ME,FOR (HE) WILL TAKE WHAT IS MINE AND DECLARE IT TO YOU.
ALL THAT THE FATHER HAS IS MINE;
THEREFORE I SAID THAT HE WILL TAKE WHAT IS MINE AND DECLARE IT TO YOU."

SO (HE) IS A PERSON,YET EVEN (HE) HAS A TWIN,ONE YET TWO,TWO SOULS,MALE AND FEMALE.
THE SPIRITS OF TRUTH ARE COMING TO A SOUL NEAR YOU SOON.

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OMG THERE'S A WOMAN.

IF HUMAN BEINGS KNEW THERE ARE WOMEN ABOVE,AS WELL AS MEN,GODS AS WELL AS GODDESS'S,SONS AND DAUGHTERS OF THE MOST HIGH GOD AND GODDESS,THEN THE TRUE STORY WOULD BE SEEN THROUGH NEW EYES,AND ATTITUDES WOULD CHANGE IN THIS WORLD.
BEFORE MAN TOOK OVER THE RUNNING OF THIS WORLD,WOMEN WERE IN CHARGE,NOT BECAUSE THEY WERE STRONGER THAN MAN,BUT BECAUSE THEY KEPT ORDER AND BALANCE WITHIN THEIR COMMUNITIES.
WHEN MANS EGO DECIDED TO BRANCH OUT AND CONQUER OTHER MEN AND WOMEN,ORDER AND BALANCE WENT OUT THE WINDOW.
PUT RELIGION AND ORIGINAL SIN INTO THE MIX,WITH ONLY ONE MALE GOD,WHO HAS ONLY ONE SON,WHO IS A JEALOUS,WRATHFUL,PUNISHING AND VENGEFUL GOD,AND YOU HAVE DISASTER ON AN EPIC SCALE,WHICH IS EXACTLY WHAT THIS WORLD IS NOW FACING IN THIS YEAR 2013.

BY REMOVING THE MOTHER OF ALL FROM THE STORY,PROVERBS 8:VERSES 22-36,REVELATION 12,"AND WISDOM IS VINDICATED BY HER CHILDREN,"MAN REMOVED ALL PROTECTION FROM THIS EARTH.
BELIEVE IT OR NOT,IT IS THE MOTHER WHO WATCHES OVER THIS WORLD,GOD ALMIGHTY,THE FATHER,HAS OTHER WORLDS TO KEEP IN CHECK,AND HAS LITTLE TO DO WITH THE EARTH,IF TRUTH BE TOLD,THOUGH HE DOES STEP IN NOW AND THEN,TO KEEP HIS HAND IN,LOL.
BUT IT IS THE FORGOTTEN MOTHER,AND HER SPIRITS WHO ARE THE GUARDIAN'S OF THIS WORLD.
YOU SEE WITHOUT HER,NOTHING UPON THIS EARTH,OR WITHIN THIS UNIVERSE WOULD HAVE BEEN POSSIBLE,NOTHING.
GOD ALMIGHTY,THE FATHER CREATED EVERYTHING WITH HIS LOVE,PARTNER,CO CREATOR AND DAILY DELIGHT,PROVERBS 8:VERSES 22-36.
SHE IS THE CHICKEN WHO GATHERS HER CHICKS BENEATH HER WINGS,AND REASSURES THEM ALL IS WELL,FOR SHE IS THEIR PROTECTOR,THEIR COMFORT AND SHIELD.

NOW HERE'S THE CRUNCH PEEPS.
FIRST AND FOREMOST,FORGETTING THE MOTHER OF ALL CREATION,THE PARTNER AND LOVE OF GOD ALMIGHTY,IS THE GREATEST OF ALL BLASPHEMIES,FOR SHE IS THE HOLY SPIRIT.
JESUS HIMSELF REVEALS HER IN HIS WORDS,"AND WISDOM IS VINDICATED BY HER CHILDREN,"AND IN HIS REFERENCE TO THE CHICK AND HER CHICKS,BUT CHRISTIANS MOST OF ALL FAIL TO SEE HER.
THIS SPIRIT IS ALSO BRINGING TO YOUR REMEMBRANCE JESUS WORDS,AND REVEALING WITHOUT DOUBT THE PARTNER,LOVE,CO CREATOR AND DAILY DELIGHT,MY HEAVENLY MOTHER AND JESUS'S,THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,PROVERBS 8:VERSES 22-36,REVELATION 12.

THERE IS NO WAY AROUND THIS TRUTH,AND IT IS ONLY A MATTER OF TIME BEFORE IT HITS HOME,AND HUMAN BEINGS CLICK,HOLY SHIT,THERE IS A MOTHER UP ABOVE.

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THE CHRIST AND HOLY SPIRIT MYSTERY.

"AND HE HAS A NAME INSCRIBED WHICH ONLY HE KNOWS."

I AM THE IMAGE OF THE INVISIBLE GOD,
GOD ALMIGHTY,
MY FATHER,
THE FIRST BORN MALE OF EVERY CREATURE,
YET I AM NOT ONE,
BUT TWO,
MALE AND FEMALE ARE WE,
SON AND DAUGHTER OF THE MOST HIGH GOD AND GODDESS,
WITHIN US WE CREATED ALL THINGS IN THE HEAVEN AND ON THE EARTH,
THINGS VISIBLE AND THINGS INVISIBLE,
WHETHER THRONES,
OR DOMINATIONS,
OR PRINCIPALITIES,
OR POWERS,
ALL THINGS HAVE BEEN CREATED THROUGH AND UNTO US,
AND WE ARE BEFORE ALL CREATURES,
AND WITHIN US ALL THINGS HOLD TOGETHER,
WE ARE THE HEADS OF OUR BODIES,
AND MASTER AND MISTRESS OF OUR SOULS,
YET WE ARE ONE,
BUT TWO,
MALE AND FEMALE ARE WE,
IN THE WORLD ABOVE,
AND THE WORLD BELOW,
ABOVE WE DANCE AS ONE IN SPIRALS OF LOVE AND ROMANCE,
THE SPIRIT AND THE BRIDE ARE WE,
WE WHO ARE THE BEGINNING,
THE FIRSTBORN FROM THE DEAD,
THAT IN ALL THINGS WE MAY HAVE THE FIRST PLACES,
FOR IT HAS PLEASED OUR FATHER AND MOTHER ABOVE,
THAT IN US ALL THEIR GOODNESS AND FULLNESS SHOULD DWELL,
AND THROUGH US THEY SHOULD RECONCILE THEMSELVES ALL THINGS,
WHETHER ON THE EARTH OR IN THE HEAVENS,
MAKING PEACE THROUGH THE BLOOD OF OUR CROSS,
WE ARE OUR FATHER AND MOTHERS SON AND DAUGHTER,
THE IMAGE,
AFTER THE LIKENESS OF THEM,
ARE WE,
WE ARE TRUE GOD AND GODDESS,
FROM OURSELVES WE COME,
I AM TRUE GOD MAN,
SHE,
MY LOVE,
IS TRUE GODDESS WOMAN,
THE FATHER,
MOTHER,
SON,
AND DAUGHTER.
THE MYSTERY COMPLETE ARE WE.

"AND THE SPIRIT AND HIS BRIDE SAY,COME."

SAN DOM DE NANTA VAN SAN NANTESS ESTANTO PEEPS?

THE TRUTH IS COMING TO A SOUL NEAR YOU SOON.2013.

SO GOD ALMIGHTY MADE MAN AND WOMAN IN HIS IMAGE,AFTER HIS LIKENESS,WHICH IS TRUE IN PART,BUT NOT ALL THE STORY,FOR GOD ALMIGHTY CREATED NOTHING WITHOUT WISDOM,HIS PARTNER AND LOVE BEING PRESENT.
FOR GOD ALMIGHTY TO MAKE A WOMAN IN HIS IMAGE,GOD ALMIGHTY WOULD HAVE TO BE A LADY BOY,OR AT LEAST A CROSS GENDER BEING.
THIS HE IS NOT,FOR HE IS MALE,AND HAS HIS OWN SOUL.
HIS PARTNER WISDOM IS FEMALE,AND HAS HER OWN SOUL ALSO,THOUGH BOTH ARE ONE,WHEN TOGETHER,YET ARE INDIVIDUAL BEINGS IN THEIR OWN RIGHT.

SO WHERE DID GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY COME FROM?
THEY CAME FROM THEIR FATHER AND MOTHER BEFORE THEM,WHO IN TURN CAME FROM THEIR FATHER AND MOTHER BEFORE THEM,AN ETERNAL BLOODLINE OF HUMAN BEINGS,FOR IN TRUTH,THAT IS WHAT THEY ARE HUMAN BEINGS,IN THE IMAGE,AFTER THE LIKENESS OF GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY ARE YOU,MALE AND FEMALE CREATED.

THOUGH YOU WILL NOT READ WHAT THIS SPIRIT REVEALS IN YOUR MALE EDITED BIBLE,OR OTHER HOLY BOOKS OF YOUR MANMADE RELIGIONS,FOR THEY ARE MALE,WITH A MALE STORY OF A JEALOUS MALE GOD,WITH ONLY ONE SON,LOL.
YET IF TRUTH BE TOLD,NOT EVEN A MALE GOD COULD GIVE BIRTH TO ANY SON,LET ALONE CHILD,WOMEN ARE THE BEINGS WHO BRING FORTH LIFE,BE IT ABOVE,OR UPON THE EARTH BELOW,BE IT MALE OR FEMALE.
THOUGH BOTH PARENTS ARE NEEDED FOR THE CONCEPTION,IT IS THE MOTHER WHO GIVES BIRTH,AND NOURISHES HER YOUNG,UNLESS YOU BE A SEA HORSE,EVEN NATURE REVEALS THE TRUTH,IF YOU HAVE EYES TO SEE.

SO A SECOND STORY IS MADE UP,JUST AFTER THE TRUE STORY.
THIS ONE HAS THE LORD GOD,A DIFFERENT RANK FROM GOD ALMIGHTY,AND A SON OF GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THOUGH A WAYWARD SON.
IN THIS STORY,PUT INTO HUMAN ROMAN MINDS,BY THE JEALOUS SON GOD OF THE OLD TESTAMENT,MAN IS CREATED OUT OF THE DUST OF THE GROUND,AND WOMAN OUT OF ONE OF MANS RIBS,LOL.
THIS STORY ALWAYS TICKLES MY RIBS,AND THOSE OF THE DIVINE COUNCIL ABOVE.
BIT LIKE THE STORY OF THE APPLE AND THE SNAKE,THERE WAS NOT APPLE MENTIONED,BUT AS CHILDREN WE ARE TOLD THIS STORY,WHICH IN TRUTH IS A LIE,IF TRUTH BE TOLD,REGARDLESS OF BEING A SMALL DEVIATION FROM THE TRUTH,IT IS A LIE,AND MISLEADING,ESPECIALLY TO YOUNG MINDS SEARCHING FOR THE TRUTH IN THIS WORLD OF DELUSION.

NOTHING IN THIS UNIVERSE IS WITHOUT THE FEMALE,ABOVE AND BELOW,AND NONE CAME TO THIS EARTH WITHOUT,BOTH A FATHER AND A MOTHER,GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY.
THE FIRST HUMAN BEINGS CAME FROM SOMEWHERE ELSE,THE SONS AND DAUGHTERS OF THE MOST HIGH GOD AND GODDESS CALL IT HOME,REALITY.
BUT I TELL YOU THIS PEEPS,THERE WERE MANY HUMAN BEINGS SET DOWN UPON EARTH,BEGINNING IN AFRICA.
ADAM AND EVE WERE NOT THE ONLY MAN AND WOMAN SET DOWN UPON EARTH,FOR THEY HAD ONLY THREE SONS,CAIN,ABEL AND SETH,YET CAINS WIFE APPEARS FROM OUT OF NOWHERE;
FROM WHENCE DID SHE COME,IF EVE BE THE ONLY WOMAN?
PROVERBS 8:VERSES 22-36,THE FIRST OF ALL CREATION,THE FIRST WOMAN,AND GOD ALMIGHTY'S PARTNER,LOVE,CO CREATOR AND DAILY DELIGHT.
THIS WOMAN IS THE MOTHER OF ALL CREATION,THE FIRST CHICKEN WHO LAID EGGS,THE LOVE OF THE ROOSTER.
YET EVEN THE ROOSTER HAD BE BORN VIA THE CHICKEN,IF TRUTH BE TOLD.

SO WHICH CAME FIRST,THE CHICKEN OR EGG?

THE ANSWER IS,THE CHICKEN.

WHERE DID SHE COME FROM?

THE ANSWER IS,SHE WAS ALREADY THERE.

SO NOW HERE IS A QUESTION FOR YOU PEEPS.

WHICH CAME FIRST,MAN OR WOMAN?

THE ANSWER IS,WOMAN,THE FIRST THOUGHT.

IT IS SHE WHO BROUGHT FORTH MAN,HER TWIN SOUL,AND LOVE,HER EQUAL.

ARE YOU BEGINNING TO UNDERSTAND THE STORY,THE MALE STORY?
IT IS COMPLETELY WITHOUT THE MOTHER,THE FEMININE,EVEN THOUGH SHE IS VERY MUCH WITHIN THE STORY;
PROVERBS 8:VERSES 22-36,REVELATION 12,"AND WISDOM IS VINDICATED BY HER CHILDREN."
BECAUSE OF MALE ROMAN EDITORS AND MALE TEACHERS,THE MALE STORY IS THE ONLY STORY,YET IF TRUTH BE TOLD,THIS STORY DOESN'T WASH WITH WISDOM AND GOD ALMIGHTY'S SONS AND DAUGHTERS,AND NEVER DID,BUT THE MASSES FOLLOW IN BLINDNESS THE MASSES,WHO FOLLOW BLIND TEACHERS,WHO TEACH LIES AND FALSEHOODS,LEADING THE SHEEP ASTRAY.

ITS 2013 PEEPS,AND THE MOTHERS STORY IS BEING TOLD,REGARDLESS OF THE FLESH THAT IS REVEALING IT.
WAKE UP PEEPS,FOR NONE OF YOU READING THIS CAME TO THIS EARTH WITHOUT A FATHER AND MOTHER,BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY,NO MAN EVER CONCEIVED OR GAVE BIRTH TO ANY CHILD,ABOVE OR BELOW.
BOTH ARE NEEDED,SPERM AND EGG,YET EVEN THEN,THE SINGLE CELL NEEDS THE MOTHER TO NOURISH IT AND FORM IT.

SO YOUR MALE STORY OF A JEALOUS GOD WITH ONLY ONE SON,IS A NONE STARTER,FOR IT IS NOT POSSIBLE IN THIS UNIVERSE OR ANY OTHER.
PSALMS 82 AMONGST OTHER PASSAGES REVEALS MANY SONS,AND MANY GODS,WHO SIT IN THE DIVINE COUNCIL OF GODS,WITH GOD ALMIGHTY AT ITS HELM.
BUT I TELL YOU THIS PEEPS,AMONGST THE SONS AND GODS SITTING IN THE DIVINE COUNCIL,ARE DAUGHTERS AND GODDESS'S,AND AT THE HELM OF THE FAMILY OF CREATIONS DIVINE COUNCIL IS,NOT ONLY GOD ALMIGHTY,BUT THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,WISDOM SOPHIA.
PROVERBS 8:VERSES 22-36,REVELATION 12,"AND WISDOM IS VINDICATED BY HER CHILDREN,AS HER CHILDREN ARE BY HER."

GOD ALMIGHTY,THE FATHER,DID NOTHING WITHOUT WISDOM,THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE MOTHER BEING PRESENT.

"LET THOSE WITH EYES SEE THE WORDS OF THE SPIRIT."

"AND THE SPIRIT AND HIS BRIDE SAY,COME."

MUCH IS BEING REVEALED TO YOU PEEPS,IF YOU HAVE EYES TO SEE,AND EARS TO HEAR MY VOICE.
AT TIMES I WILL REPEAT IMPORTANT PASSAGES AND POINTS,BUT WITHIN ALL MY WRITINGS IS TRUTH,PURE AND SIMPLE,EVEN THAT WHICH IS WRITTEN BY MY FLESH,ABOUT MY FLESH,IS TRUTH.
MY SOUL WRITES ONLY OF SPIRITUAL MATTERS,AND MATTERS OF PURE TRUTH,FROM THE SOURCE OF ALL TRUTH,GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY.

SAN DOM DE NANTA VAN SAN NANTESS ESTANTO PEEPS.

CLUSTER HEADACHES/THE BEASTS OF THE MIND :(

FIRST COMES THE KALEIDOSCOPE EFFECT WITHIN THE EYES,
ZIGZAG,ZIGZAG IN THE CORNER OF EACH EYE,
THEN THE NECK CRACKS AND CREAKS AND STIFFENS,
THEN COMES THE SNEEZING,
WORLD RECORDING SNEEZING,
A MYSTERY TO ME,
AND THEN THE DULL LURKING PAIN UPON MY RIGHT BROW,
THE BEGINNING OF THE TRAUMA TO FOLLOW,
YET SOME ARE PHANTOMS,
AND NEVER REACH THEIR GROWTH,
BUT THE WAITING AND EXPECTING IS TRAUMA IN ITSELF,
THOUGH RELIEF WHEN THE FULL FORCE OF ONE IS WITHHELD,
AND I THANK GOD AND THE GODDESS FOR A STAY OF TRAUMA,
THIS TIME AT LEAST,
THE SLEEP CLUSTERS ARE A RUDE AWAKENING,
WITH MUCH CONFUSION WHEN THEY STRIKE,
FROM SLEEP TO EXTREME PAIN IS AN EXPERIENCE OF THE TWILIGHT KIND,
AN EXHAUSTED DAY THEN FOLLOWS,
BUT WORST OF ALL ARE THE DAYLIGHT ONES,
THE BEASTS OF MY MIND,
THESE ARE THE WARRIORS OF THE CLUSTER KINGDOM,
THE RULERS OF MY BROKEN MIND,
THEIR PAIN IS WITHOUT FULL EXPLANATION IN HUMAN WORDS,
THOUGH WOMEN WHO SUFFER FROM THE CLUSTER ATTACK SYNDROME SAY,
"NOT EVEN CHILD BIRTH COMES CLOSE,"
A FULL BLOWN CLUSTER IS EXTREME PAIN,
TRAUMA,
AND WISHING FOR DEATH TO COME QUICKLY,
IT REDUCES THE HOST TO TEARS OF PLEADING FOR HELP FROM ABOVE,
WHILE THOSE AROUND ARE AT A LOSS WHAT TO DO,
AS THEY SUGGEST AND ADVISE IN VEIN,
I REMOVE MYSELF FROM ALL TO SOLITARY PAIN,
BETTER THAN TELLING A FRIEND TO FCUK UP OR FCUK OFF DUE TO THE TRAUMA OF THE MOMENT,
I SEARCH FOR COLD AIR,
MY SOULS WAY OF TRYING TO HELP,
THOUGH VEIN IT IS WITH A RESTLESS FLESH
EVEN THOUGH MY SOUL KNOWS COLD AIR IS A PART HELP,
BUT ONLY A PART,
THEN THE VOMITING STARTS ON TOP OF THE TRAUMA,
DISTRESS AND STRESS,
REMOVING THAT WHICH IS WITHIN,
WHILE ALL THE TIME THE SINUS'S ARE FILLING,AND EMPTYING,
INCREASING THE PAIN WITH EACH SNEEZE,BLOW AND SNIFF,
STANDING WITH HEAD IN HAND AGAINST THE NEAREST WALL,
RUBBING TEMPLE IN HOPE OF RELIEF,
WHILE MY SINUS TRACKS CRACK AND MOVE,
SOME LAST 15 MINS SOME 8 HOURS,
SOME ARE ONE AFTER ANOTHER,
BUT ALL ARE EXTREME PAIN,
AS EXTREME AS IT GETS UPON THIS EARTH,
SLOWLY THE PAIN DECREASES,
THOUGH AFTER 8 HOURS OF ULTIMATE PAIN,
THERE IS LITTLE REST,
AT TIMES THE AFTERMATH IS A TRAUMATIC UNTIL IT IS COMPLETE,
THEN WOW,
THE RELEASE AND RELIEF,
THE CLOSEST I CAN EXPLAIN IT,
AND I DO TO MY FRIENDS WITH AN APOLOGY FIRST IS,
"ITS LIKE HAVING A ORGASM,"
ONLY BY EXPERIENCING A CLUSTER HEADACHES COULD YOU EVER UNDERSTAND THE MEANING OF MY EXPLANATION OF RELIEF WHEN ONE FINALLY DEPARTS,
OTHER PARTS OF CLUSTER HEADACHE EFFECTS,
ENDLESS CRYING,
LOSS OF PARTNER,
FAMILY,
FRIENDS,
JOB,
LIFE.
DAY,
NIGHTS,
ISOLATION,
LACK OF UNDERSTANDING,
SPENDING A FORTUNE ON TOILET PAPER,
SPRAYS,
TABLETS,
HEADACHE STICKS,
ENDLESS RETURNS TO DOCTORS,
NEUROLOGISTS,
QUACKS,
PSYCHOLOGISTS,
AND ENDLESS DRUGS INTAKE.
THIS ONLY EXPLAINS A FRACTION OF THE EFFECTS OF A CLUSTER HEADACHE,
TAKE ALL ABOVE AND MULTIPLY IT BY 100'S,AND THEN SOME.

I HAVE BEEN SUFFERING CLUSTER HEADACHES FOR 8 YEARS NOW, DUE TO TRAUMATIC BRAIN INJURY, OR ACQUIRED BRAIN INJURY AS IT IS CALLED.
THOUGH FOR 4 1/2 YEARS OF THOSE 8, I HAD TO SEARCH OUT THE REASON FOR MY HEADACHES, WITH MY FIRST NEUROLOGIST, BECAUSE I SPOKE TO MY PSYCHOLOGISTS ABOUT SPIRITUAL THINGS, TELLING ME, "YOU HEADACHES ARE ALL IN YOU HEAD."
I TOLD ALL MY DOCTORS THE EXTREME PAIN, DISTRESS, TRAUMA, DEPRESSION, ISOLATION, AND SUICIDAL LIFE  I WAS GOING THROUGH, BUT BECAUSE OF A NEUROLOGIST, WHO IS HUMAN, AND PRONE TO MISTAKES, AS MANY WRONG DIAGNOSIS OF CONDITIONS HAVE SHOWN OVER MANY CENTURIES AND DECADES, BECAUSE OF ONE REPORT, AND JUST ONE MRI, I WAS CONDEMNED TO SUFFER FOR 4 1/2 YEARS OF LOST FAMILY, FRIENDS, WORK, FREEDOM, HOPE, AND ALMOST, AFTER LOST LIFE, AFTER TAKING TO MUCH MEDICATION TO TRY AND EASE THE PAIN, AT LEST :(

I BEGAN TO SEARCH ON-LINE FOR THE REASON OF MY HEADACHES, SENDING PHOTOS TO THE MAYO CLINIC AND ALL NEUROLOGISTS I COULD FIND.
EVENTUALLY, A NEUROLOGIST FROM THE ULSTER CLINIC AND CRAIGAVON HOSPTIAL EMAILED ME, TELLING ME, 'I HAD CLUSTER HEADACHES, AND HE COULD HELP ME;
AND THIS AFTER MOVING GP'S 3 TIMES, PSYCHOLOGISTS AND PSYCHIATRISTS THINKING, BECAUSE OF SPIRITUAL MATTERS I'D REVEALED, THAT I WAS MAD.
SO FOR 4 1/2 YEARS, OF EXTREME PAIN, TRAUMA, DISTRESS, DEPRESSION, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS DUE ALL THE ABOVE, LOSING WORK, FAMILY, FRIENDS, PARTNERS, FREEDOM, HOPE, AND SELF-RESPECT, I WAS TREATED WITH SUMATRIPTAN TABLETS ONLY :(
JUST BEFORE I WAS GOING TO LET THE NEUROLOGIST FROM NORTHERN IRELAND, WHO CONTACTED ME VIA EMAIL SEE ME, I RECEIVED AN APPOINTMENT FROM THE GP I'D LEFT 2 YEARS PREVIOUS, BECAUSE OF LACK OF HELP, DUE TO A WRONG DIAGNOSIS OF, "YOUR HEADACHES ARE ALL IN YOUR HEAD, YOU IMAGINING THEM," AND THE APPOINTMENT WAS FOR THE ROYAL HOSPITAL, NEUROLOGY.
I THANKED THE NEUROLOGIST ON-LINE FOR HIS OFFER OF HELP, AND EXPLAINED I HAD JUST RECEIVED AN APP FOR NEUROLOGY IN THE ROYAL VICTORIA HOSPITAL, THOUGH I THINK HE WAS NOT HAPPY, AFTER OFFERING ME HELP, BUT THE ROYAL HOSPITAL IN BELFAST WAS CLOSER, AND EARLIER THAN CRAIGAVON, AND WITH DOZENS OF HEADACHES PER WEEK, I WAS NOT GOING TO MISS MY APPOINTMENT, REGARDLESS FROM WHICH GP IT CAME FROM, OR THE YEARS THAT HAD PASSED.
I WAS EITHER A SECOND OPINION, AND CORRECT DIAGNOSIS, OR DEATH :(
I HAD STUDIED THIS CONDITION SINCE I FIRST ACQUIRED IT, AND KNEW I WAS SUFFERING FROM CLUSTER HEADACHES, AFTER TALKING TO THOUSANDS ON-LINE, WHO SUFFER FROM CLUSTER HEADACHES, INCLUDING MANY NEUROLOGISTS, PSYCHOLOGISTS, PSYCHIATRISTS AND GP'S.
I SHOWED MY NEW NEUROLOGIST, DR.WATT, FROM THE ROYAL VICTORIA HOSPITAL IN BELFAST, THE PHOTOS OF WHAT HAPPENS DURING AN ATTACK/CLUSTER HEADACHE, AND EXPLAINED IN DETAIL, WHAT HAPPENS, FROM BEGINNING TO END OF EACH HEADACHE, AND WITHIN 20 MINS, DR.WATT SAID, "YOU HAVE CLUSTER HEADACHES.'
I CRIED, BECAUSE FOR THE FIRST TIME, IN 6 YEARS OF SUFFERING TO WORST PAIN, AND CONDITION KNOWN TO DOCTORS AND MEN AND WOMEN, SUDDENLY, A CONSULTANT, DOCTOR, HUMAN BEING WAS LISTENING TO ME, AND KNEW THE CAUSE OF THIS LIFE THREATENING CONDITION CALLED, CLUSTER HEADACHES :)
INSTANTLY, MY MEDICATION INCLUDED, OXYGEN, IMIGRAN INJECTIONS, MAXITRAM, TEMAZEPAM AND SOON ANESTHETIC PAIN RELIEF, AND FAILING THAT, DEEP BRAIN STIMULATION :)
SO FROM NO HELP AT ALL, AND A WRONG DIAGNOSIS, TO EVERY KIND OF HELP THERE IS WITHIN THIS WORLD OF NEUROLOGY.
I STILL SUFFER CLUSTER HEADACHES DAILY, BUT AT LEAST NOW, IN 2016, I AM UNDERSTOOD, AS IS MY CONDITION BY MY DOCTORS, DUE TO AN UNDERSTANDING AND CARING NEUROLOGIST, AND EVENTUALLY NEW GP'S LISTENING TO MY NEW, TRUE EXPERT IN THIS FIELD OF NEUROLOGY :)
I AM STILL NOT ABLE TO WORK, DUE TO CLUSTER HEADACHES, STUTTER, WORD ASSOCIATION AND MEMORY PROBLEMS, THOUGH THE LAST THREE I COULD LIVE WITH, IF MY NEUROLOGIST COULD CEASE MY CLUSTER HEADACHES.
EVEN WHEN OUT FOR A DAY, OR NIGHT, I NEVER GET THROUGH ONE, WITHOUT THE CLUSTERS, WHICH IN TURN HAVE TO BE INJECTED WITH IMIGRAN, WHICH IN TURN MAKES ME SICK, AND WISHING TO RETURN HOME :(
I USE TO ENTERTAIN, WHICH STOPPED 8 YEARS AGO :(
I STILL FUND RAISE FOR CHARITIES, WHICH I HAVE DONE SINCE I WAS 13, AND OVER THE LAST 3 YEARS, WITH THE HELP OF OTHERS HAVE RAISED 4000 ODD POUNDS FOR THE CHILDREN'S HOSPICE NI, JIGSAW NI, AND VARIOUS COMMUNITY NEEDS AND PROJECTS.
THOUGH RECENTLY THAT STOPPED FOR 3 MONTHS, DUE TO THE EXTREME LEVEL AND PAIN OF THE CLUSTERS, RESULTING IN AN ACCIDENTAL OVERDOSE OF PAIN KILLERS, WHICH ONCE MORE BROUGHT SWIFT ACTION FROM MY PSYCHIATRISTS, NEUROLOGIST AND GP'S :)
I AM WRITING A BOOK NOW, WHICH IS ABOUT THE MISSING TRUTH, THAT FEW KNOW ABOUT GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY, THE HOLY SPIRIT, WHICH I SHOULD HAVE BEGUN 8 YEARS AGO, WHEN THE CLUSTERS AND OTHER CONDITIONS FIRST CONFINED ME, BUT WITH CLUSTERS AS MY CLOSE COMPANIONS, LITTLE IS DONE BUT SEARCHING FOR RELIEF, SOMETIMES AFTER 14 HOURS, OR MULTIPLE HEADACHES, AND HOURS OF RECOVERING, EVEN DAYS, WITH EACH HEADACHE OR CLUSTER OF THEM :(
I USE TO BE AN EXCELLENT PHOTOGRAPHER AS WELL, BUT EVEN THAT HAS CEASED, DUE TO CONFINEMENT :(
MY ANESTHETIC PAIN RELIEF BEGINS AT THE END OF JUNE 2016, 8 YEARS AFTER AFTER I ACQUIRED THIS LIFE THREATENING CONDITION CALLED CLUSTER HEADACHES :(
BETTER LATE THAN NEVER :)
I WILL WRITE MORE, WHEN THAT TIMES ARRIVES, WITH MR. GERRY BROWN :)
IN THE LAST 3 YEARS, WHEN I BEGAN TO COUNT THE CLUSTERS, DUE TO MY FIRST NEUROLOGIST LACK OF UNDERSTANDING AND CARE, I HAVE SUFFERED 1652 FULL BLOWN CLUSTER HEADACHES, WITH 3 IN THE LAST 24 HOURS :(
I SUFFER AROUND 7-15 PER WEEK, WITH SOMETIMES 2 DAYS BREAK AT TIMES :)
I HAVE NOTICED OVER THE LAST 8 YEARS THAT THE CLUSTERS REACT TO LOW PRESSURE IN THE WEATHER, SOMETIMES ARRIVING WITH EACH SHOWER OF RAIN.
THEY ALSO INTENSIFY IN SUMMER, AND WHEN TEMPERATURES SOAR, THE PAIN IS UNBEARABLE, LEAVING THE HOST TO SEEK SHADE AND COOL AIR, OXYGEN :(
I PRAY AND HOPE, BY JUNES END, RELIEF MIGHT BE FOUND, AND POSSIBLE AN ANSWER FOR OTHERS TO SEEK, IF SUCCESSFUL :)
DO NOT TAKE A FIRST OPINION AND MRI TO BE RIGHT, AND IF NEED BE, ASK FOR MULTIPLE OPINIONS AND MRI'S, IF SATISFACTION OR DIAGNOSIS SEEMS WRONG, AND USE YOU INTERNET/WWW TO SEARCH AND ASK OTHERS FOR THEIR OPINION AND AT TIMES FAR AWAY DIAGNOSIS OF THAT WHICH YOU SUFFER, AND REMEMBER, YOUR DOCTORS, BE THEY GP'S OR CONSULTANTS ARE BUT HUMAN, LIKE YOU AND ME, AND AS SUCH MAKE MISTAKES AND WRONG DIAGNOSIS'S, THOUGH I AM LUCKY, FOR ABOVE GUIDE AND HELP WITH MY PAIN, BUT MANY OTHERS HAVE LONG GIVEN UP, AND TAKEN THEIR OWN LIVES BECAUSE OF DOCTORS PLAYING GOD, LACK OF UNDERSTANDING AND CARE, AND MISDIAGNOSING THEIR FELLOW HUMAN BEINGS :(
HAVING MANY YEARS OF STUDY, COUNTLESS EXAMS AND MANY LETTERS AFTER YOUR NAME MEANS NOTHING IF YOU HAVE NOT GOT THE WISDOM AS YOUR GUIDE :(

14/05/2018.
AFTER NO CONTACT FROM MY NEUROLOGIST, DR WATT FROM THE RVH IN BELFAST, NORTHERN IRELAND, THE NATIONAL NEWS CAME ON TWO WEEKS AGO, WITH DR WATT HITTING THE HEADLINES ABOUT THE POSSIBLE OF SOME OF HIS PATIENTS BEING MISDIAGNOSED, WHICH SHOCKED ME BECAUSE DR WATT WAS SPOT ON WITH MY DIAGNOSES OF CLUSTER HEADACHES, WHICH MY FIRST NEUROLOGIST DIAGNOSED AS BEING ALL IN MY HEAD, IN OTHER WORDS, I WAS IMAGINING THEM AND HAD TO SUFFER SEVERAL YEARS OF EXTREME PAIN AND SUICIDAL.
DR WATT IN MY CASE, AND FROM WHAT I HEAR 100'S OF OTHERS CASES WAS AN EXCELLENT DOCTOR, FRIENDLY, CARING AND VERY PROFESSIONAL, WITHOUT WHOM I WOULD NOT BE HERE TODAY.
SINCE MY REVIEW LAST TUESDAY NIGHT AT THE RVH, I NOW HAVE TWO SCANS COMING, ONE FOR MY BRAIN, AND ONE FOR MY NECK, TO SEE WHAT MIGHT BE THE DAMAGE FROM MY ACQUIRED BRAIN INJURY/TRAUMA AND DAMAGE TO MY NECK, IF ANY, THOUGH DR WATT'S DIAGNOSES OF CLUSTER HEADACHES, IS CORRECT AND THANKFULLY MY MEDS REMAIN IN PLACE.
I HAVE NOTICED RECENTLY WHEN I FORGET TO TAKE MY EPHILIM TABLETS MY CLUSTER HEADACHES INCREASE DRAMATICALLY, WITH DOZENS ARRIVING IN DAYS, SO I AM TRYING NOT TO FORGET TO TAKE MY MEDS.
I AM SUFFERING BETWEEN 3-5 A DAY AT THE MOMENT AND THIS IS WITHOUT FORGETTING TO TAKE MY EPHILIM, SO LIFE IS STILL SHITE, ESPECIALLY BEING CONFINED INDOORS 24/7 AT TIMES.
MY BACK HAS BEEN OUT FOR TWO WEEKS AND I HAVE BEEN HAVING A LOT OF PROBLEMS WITH MY NECK AS WELL.
MY GP HAS NOW GIVEN ME MORPHINE TO SEE IF I CAN GET SOME KIND OF REST AT NIGHT AND DAY.
SOME WEEKS I AM WITHOUT SLEEP FOR 48 HOURS UNTIL EXHAUSTION FINALLY KNOCKS ME OUT FOR AN HOUR OR TWO BEFORE THE ONSET OF ANOTHER CLUSTER.
I AM ALSO ON OXYGEN AND IMIGRAN INJECTIONS, WHICH HELP AT TIMES AND AM TRYING CBD OIL IN THE HOPE IT MIGHT HELP FURTHER.
THE CBD OIL HAS CLEARED UP MY CHEST INFECTION, BUT THE CLUSTERS STILL ARE A DAILY CURSE IN MY LIFE.
MY FIRST MRI SCAN IS TOMORROW EVENING AT 5PM IN MUSGRAVE PARK HOSPITAL, BELFAST, NORTHERN IRELAND.

13/08/2018.
AFTER 12 WEEKS WAIT BETWEEN APPOINTMENTS WITH NEUROLOGY, I HAVE A NEW NEUROLOGIST, WHO HAS TOLD ME I HAVE CLUSTER HEADACHES AND SOME OTHER TYPE OF HEADACHE WITH A LONG NAME, WHICH I DO NOT REMEMBER, BUT WILL REVEAL WHEN MY NEXT APPOINTMENT TO GP ARRIVES IN TWO WEEKS.
THOUGH I HAVE BEEN PUT ON MELATONIN BECAUSE I TOLD THE NEUROLOGIST, WHEN ASKED HOW LONG A HEADACHE WOULD LAST, WHICH I REPLIED, "SOME LAST 9 HOURS OR MORE, UNLESS THEY ARE ONE CLUSTER GOING INTO ANOTHER," THIS IS WHY I AM NOW ON MELATONIN, THOUGH THE CLUSTERS ARE STILL COMING WITH LOW PRESSURE IN WEATHER AND ATLANTIC STORMS PILING IN ONE AFTER THE OTHER.

03/03/2019.
Well here we are in 2019 and the beginning of March 2019 and the cluster headaches are still as bad as they ever were with 4 overnight and this morning have used 2 Imigran Injections so far and oxygen but with storm Freya approaching Northern Ireland from the South the clusters or beasts of my mind will keep piling in as low pressure rules the roost.
Worse luck I am unable to get an appointment with my doctor for 2 a month now, with even the walk-in surgery being cancelled in my surgery, which has shocked many who attend the surgery.
So as for getting referrals to Neurology or any other department within the medical profession is impossible at the moment because for that to happen you need to see your GP.
It seems either Clifton Street Surgery, which was brilliant in care has either taken on too many patients or, are unable to cope with the volume of cases coming in to see them.

10/05/2019.
The cluster headaches are battering my brain every two hours at the moment, with extreme pain to boot, leaving me exhausted, traumatised and depressed.
Have also run out of oxygen after 3 clusters and my next supply does not arrive until June, plus Imigran injections are slowly disappearing.
I need to see Neurology asap, but with my GP surgery not having a walk in surgery anymore and appointments not available as they used to be, I am not struggling.

13/05/2019.
Spent five hours this morning bathing my head in ice cold water, which I find helps at times with the cluster headaches at times, but it is very exhausting sitting on a bath for hours at a time.
Have completely run out of Oxygen and Imigran Injections are running low after suffering at least 40 clusters from last Tuesday.
I am totally traumatized, depressed and distressed with the severity of the clusters this time.
I cannot get an appointment with any of my GP's, which means I cannot get an appointment with Neurology which is where I need to be to get extra Oxygen and possible more injections, or even a deep brain stimulation operation.
It is now over 13 years since my cluster headaches began and now I truly need help with this extreme pain before I end it all, because I just cannot go on anymore with this extreme pain every two hours or so.

21/05/2019.
After suffering from 12 plus cluster headaches per day in the last month I decided to appeal for help from my new Neurologist and Neurologist Dept, who got straight back to me.
I explained I was on the edge with this cycle of clusters and needed help ASAP, after one more night of extreme pain and suffering I got an emergency appointment with the brilliant Dr Puerkert from Neurology Dept RVH Belfast, Northern Ireland, who administered anaesthetic injections in frontal right lope, right side of skull and base of brain.
After treatment, I suffered 4 long clusters and used 3 Imigran Injections to help with easing it them through.
Now over the last week, I am averaging around 2-4 per day, which bathing in ice-cold water is helping with, and saving on Imigran Injections.
So here's hoping the severe cycle of clusters is over now with this latest episode.

30/05/2019.
Have just had my month Oxygen supply delivered, and though I was promised a bigger supply from Neurology RVH, this has not filtered down to my GP's yet.
I used 3 injections last night to stop extremely sore clusters.
So even though my clusters are down from 12 plus per day, I am still going through hell with the ones that are slipping through, which totally control all my life, because you can never plan anything, and almost have to carry tons of medication and the hope that not even one cluster will show up to ruin your day or night.
Because once one begins my body prepares for the extreme pain, trauma, distress and depression each cluster brings with it, whether they become full clusters or just shadows, which are just as bad at times, though without the extreme pain.
Shadows are when a cluster or clusters are lurking in the background and leave you feeling drained and expectant all day long.
I have also noticed that my neck is giving me a lot of pain throughout all of this cycle, so the neck cluster connection is always something to look into.

31/05/2019.
Once more I have had a very bad night last night being awakened 5 times with cluster headaches, one of which I injected to stop, as for the other 4 I bathed my head with ice cold water for about 1/2 hour or so before hopefully stopping it without injecting, then returning to bed for about another 1/2 hour.
Once more low pressure is well and truly in control in weather and with rain showers piling in constantly I am at a loss what to do.
Will have to contact Neurology again so if this cycle does not stop because I cannot live like this constantly in extreme pain, exhausted, traumatised, distressed and depressed.
The battle continues...

05/06/2019.
Had another minor surgery yesterday where my Neurologist is trying anaesthetic to numb the right side of my head in the hope of helping with my chronic cluster headaches.
But once more after this treatment when I went to be I began to have cluster headache after cluster headache, which has now added up to 7 in 7 hours, I am not going to sleep again even though I am exhausted, for I have noticed when I stay awake the cluster are few and far away, but when I fall asleep the cluster arrive one after the other, strange.
It seems when I relax the clusters are just waiting to pounce and they are also the worse in extreme pain they have ever been.
My Neurologist DR T PEUKERT of the RVH Belfast, Northern Ireland is doing his very best to help me with my extreme condition of cluster headaches but to see what is really going on, and the severity of my condition, he is going to have to bring me in to hospital to see how chronic my clusters are.
I dread falling asleep now for I know as soon as I do a cluster is going to arrive with its extreme pain.

15/06/2019.
Have had 24 full blown cluster headaches since Neurology performed extensive minor surgery 4 weeks and two weeks ago which completely used my Oxygen supply for the month.
Some cluster headaches I was able to bath away with ice cold water, but that requires sitting at a sink for hours in the middle of the night.
I am down to my last Imigran Injections which are not due again until the first week in July, which is also when the Oxygen is due.
I think Neurology has ok'd a bigger supply of Oxygen, but until now I have not received it.
Was cluster free last night, the first in months, but with low pressure still hanging about I will not hold my breath on that lack of clusters continuing.


TO BE CONTINUED...

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THE JESUITS-THE BLACK POPE.PART SIX.2013.

SO AS THE POPE OF THE EAST MEETS THE POPE OF THE WEST,MONUMENTAL MOVES ARE BEING MADE BY FRANCIS TO MEND OVER 1000 YEARS OF CONFLICT BETWEEN THE TWO BRANCHES OF THEIR CHURCH,CONSTANTINOPLE AND ROME.
BARTHOLOMEW I IS IN INSTANBUL FORMERLY CONSTANTINOPLE,FRANCIS I IS IN ROME.
YET THIS IS THE FIRST TIME IN OVER 1000 YEARS THAT THE POPE OF THE EAST HAS STEPPED FOOT IN ROME,AFTER THEIR FALLOUT OVER WHO WAS SUPERIOR TO THE OTHER.
THE ROMAN EMPIRE OF OLD IS BEGINNING TO RISE AGAIN.
FOR FRANCIS TO GO TO INSTANBUL,THE MESSAGE WOULD BE CLEAR FOR ALL THE EASTERN ORTHODOX CHURCHES TO SEE,THE BEAST IS UPON EARTH,AND IS RECOVERING FROM THE WOUNDS SELF AFFLICTED.
MOSCOW IS ALSO IN HIS SIGHTS,AS CORRUPTION TROUBLES THAT BRANCH OF ORTHODOXY,JUST AS IT HAS TROUBLED ROME IN RECENT YEARS.

POPE PAUL II WAS SEEN AS A GREAT POPE,IN PUBLIC,FRANCIS I WILL SURPASS EVEN PAUL,IN HIS PUBLIC IMAGE,AS THE WORLD MARVELS AT SUCH A MAN.
THE GREAT REFORMER IS HERE,TO STAMP HIS AUTHORITY AND THAT OF HIS CHURCHES SUPERIORITY OVER ALL RELIGIONS.

"ONE OF ITS HEADS SEEMED TO HAVE A MORTAL WOUND,BUT ITS MORTAL WOUND WAS HEALED,AND THE WHOLE WORLD FOLLOWED THE BEAST WITH WONDER."

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THE JESUITS-THE BLACK POPE.PART FIVE.2013.

SO POPE FRANCIS SHUNNED HIS GOLD FISHERMAN RING FOR A SILVER ONE,SMART MOVE FOR THE WOUNDED DRAGON WHO WILL GIVE HIS AUTHORITY TO THE BEAST IN THE END.
OPUS DEI PR MACHINE IS IN OVERDRIVE AS I WRITE,KISSING CRYING BABIES,KISSING THE HANDICAP,TRAVELING IN AN OPEN ROOFED CAR,BEING PART OF HIS PEOPLE,ITS ALL CLICKING INTO PLACE IN ADVANCE OF THE BEASTS APPEARANCE UPON THE WORLDS STAGE,AS HIS HOSTS FLESH SHINES IN SIMMERING WHITE,HUMBLE AND MEEK.
THE PROBLEM FOR HIS WORSHIPPERS IS,THEY ARE BEING SLOWLY BEGUILED AND HYPNOTIZED BY THE DRAGON OF SCARLET AND PURPLE,AS THEY MARVEL AT HIS HUMBLE,SIMPLICITY AND GRACE.
WHAT IS EVEN MORE FRIGHTENING IS,ROMAN CATHOLIC'S ARE NOT ENCOURAGED TO READ THE BIBLE,PREFERRING TO LEAVE THE TEACHING OF THE SCRIPTURES UP TO THEIR TEACHERS,IE THE CHURCH OF ROME,SO THE TRUTH WITHIN THE SCRIPTURES IS MISSED COMPLETELY.
IN FACT MOST ROMAN CATHOLICS HAVE NEVER SEEN A BIBLE,AND I KNOW THIS FROM CHILDHOOD.
MOST EVEN PRAY TO JESUS EARTH MOTHER MARY,AND A MULTITUDE OF SAINTS,BEFORE EVER PRAYING TO JESUS HIMSELF,AND FEW EVER PRAY TO GOD ALMIGHTY,AND NONE PRAY TO THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,EVER.
SO ROMAN CATHOLICS WILL NEVER SEE THE SIGNS AND WONDERS OF REVELATION,AND HOW IT PERTAINS TO THEM.
WITHIN THE BOOK OF REVELATION ARE MANYS SIGNS AND SECRETS,IF YOU HAVE EYES TO SEE THEM,BUT FEW DO.
IF YOU RELY ON YOUR TEACHERS FOR TEACHING,AND IN THE END THAT TEACHING IS WRONG,YOU ARE FCUKED PEEPS,PURE AND SIMPLE.

"AND THE SPIRIT AND HIS BRIDE SAY,COME."

I AM BUT A SPIRIT MESSENGER AND GUIDE INTO TRUTH,BUT EVEN I HAVE GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,AND 7 SPIRITS GUIDING ME,INCLUDING OTHERS FROM THE DIVINE COUNCIL.
I REVEAL THE TRUTH,AS IT IS REVEALED TO ME,THAT WHICH LY'S WITHIN YOUR BOOK OF HUMAN HANDS,THE BIBLE.
IT TAKES A CHILD OF WISDOM TO SEE THE TRUTH AMONGST THE LIES,FOR MANY ARE THEY,PUT THEIR BY ROMAN HANDS VIA ROMAN MINDS.

"WISDOM IS VINDICATED BY HER CHILDREN,AS HER CHILDREN ARE BY HER."

THE TRUTH IS COMING TO A SOUL NEAR YOU SOON,FOR THE TRUTH IS WITHIN ALL UPON EARTH.
YOUR SOULS HAVE THE TRUTH INBUILT FROM THE BEGINNING.
IT WILL BE THE SPIRITS OF ALL TRUTH WHO WILL AWAKEN THE SOULS WITHIN ALL OF YOU,AS IS THEIR TASK.

"THE TWO ARE ONE,GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT,THEY HAVE A SON AND DAUGHTER,UPON EARTH MAN AND WOMAN."

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THE MADNESS OF ALCOHOL.PART NINE.2013.

AS I SAID BEFORE MY SEXUAL ABUSE LASTED LUCKLY FOR ME 3 TIMES,IT ENDED WHEN I TURNED ON MY ABUSER WHO WAS A FRIEND,BUT THE SCARS OF THAT,AND MY EARLIER PHYSICAL ABUSE AT THE HANDS OF THE SO CALLED BRIDES OF CHRIST,THE NUNS WERE DEEP.
NEXT CAME THE PHYSICAL ABUSE OF THE TEACHERS AND HEADMASTER OF THE ROMAN CATHOLIC HIGH SCHOOL I ATTENDED,ADD IN,A BULLY OR TWO,PLUS THE BEATINGS AND DISCIPLINE OF HOME,AND THIS WAS NOT A HAPPY CHAPPY.
LOVE WAS NOWHERE TO BE FOUND IN MY YOUTH,I NEVER EVER HEARD MY FATHER SAY,HE EVER LOVED ME,AND ONLY ONCE DID I EVER HEAR MY MOTHER SAY IT,AND THAT WAS WHEN I SPENT A WEEK IN JAIL AFTER A DISASTROUS ATTEMPT TO KILL MYSELF IN MY EARLY 20'S BY SETTING A HOUSE ON FIRE,ANOTHER NIGHT OF DRINK AND DRUGS,WHICH I SURVIVED,WHICH WAS WORSE LUCK ON MY PART,THOUGH ALL MY LIFE I HAVE REGRETTED THESE ACTIONS,AMONGST OTHERS.
NEVER IN MY LIFE HAVE I EVER SET OUT TO HURT ANYBODY,BUT WITH ALCOHOL,THIS FLESH WAS OUT OF CONTROL.

BACK IN SCHOOL THE WEAPONS OF CHOICE WERE MANY,FROM STRAPS OF LEATHER,SOME WITH SPLITS IN THEM,BLOCKS OF WOOD BOUNCING OF YOUR HEAD,INCLUDING BLACK BOARD DUSTERS,FISTS AND KICKS.
THE TEACHERS OF MY HIGH SCHOOL WERE IN A LEAGUE OF THEIR OWN,AND IN REALITY SHOULD HAVE FACED THE COURTS FOR THEIR BRUTALITY,IF NOT IN THIS YEAR 2013,INCLUDING TWO NUNS IN MY CASE.
NUNS,PRIESTS AND TEACHERS,MUMS,DADS,AND YOUTH LEADERS WERE UNTOUCHABLE IN MY YOUTH,AND THE ONLY REAL LOVE IN ONES YOUNG LIFE WAS YOUR GANG OF FRIENDS.

RELIGIOUS TENSION WAS NEVER FAR AWAY FROM SCHOOL AND HOME LIFE,WITH CATHOLICS AND PROTESTANTS AT EACH OTHERS NECKS DAILY,WHICH IS STILL THE WAY IN THIS YEAR 2013.
I REMEMBER COMING UP TO THE TWELVE OF JULY,WHEN PROTESTANTS CELEBRATE THE BATTLE OF THE BOYNE,MY PROTESTANT FRIENDS OF MY YOUTH WOULD STEP BACK FROM YOU,MAINLY DUE TO PEER PRESSURE,THEN AFTER THE TWELVE,FRIENDSHIPS WOULD RETURN,WIERD BUT TRUE.
I NEVER CARED MUCH FOR RELIGION,TO ME RELIGION WAS EVIL,AND THE REASON FOR MY UNHAPPINESS AS A CHILD,IF TRUTH BE TOLD,NOTHING GOOD EVER CAME OUT OF RELIGION,AND STILL TO THIS DAY 2013 IT IS THE SAME,RELIGION IS A MANMADE CURSE.

AS A CHILD I USE TO STAND IN FRONT OF THE STATUE OF THE VIRGIN MARY AND CHILD JESUS AND MARVEL AT THE BEAUTY OF IT,LITTLE DID I KNOW,THAT IN REALITY I WAS REMEMBERING MY OWN HEAVENLY MOTHER,WISDOM SOPHIA,PROVERBS 8:VERSES 22-36,REVELATION 12,"AND WISDOM IS VINDICATED BY HER CHILDREN."
THIS WAS BROUGHT TO MY REMEMBRANCE WHEN SHE VISITED ME FOR THE FIRST 15 YEARS AGO,BUT I WILL COME BACK TO THIS VISITATION,AS WELL AS OTHERS IN FUTURE BLOGS.

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THE JESUITS-THE BLACK POPE.PART FOUR.2013.

24 HOURS AFTER HIS COMMENTS ON PAEDOPHILIA,CARDINAL NAPIER OF DURBAN IS NOW BACK TRACKING,AND BLAMING THE BBC'S STEPHEN NOLAN ON TWISTING HIS WORDS,EVEN CLAIMING THE NOLAN SHOW HAD AN AGENDA IN THEIR REPORTING.
ONCE MORE A CARDINAL,A RANK BELOW THE POPE,SHIFTS THE BLAME UNTO OTHERS,WHEN IN TRUTH,THE BLAME IS SOLEY THEIRS.

AS A CHILD THE ROMAN CATHOLIC CHURCH ADVOCATED AND DRILLED INTO YOUR BRAIN,THAT GOD ALMIGHTY,AND JESUS WERE ALWAYS WATCHING,NEVER BLINKING.
SO IF THIS BE TRUE,SURELY THEY WERE WATCHING THE EVIL OF THOSE WHO CLAIM TO REPRESENT THEM UPON EARTH?
UNLESS THEY WERE SLEEPING,AS EX POPE BENEDICT SUGGESTED AS HE BOWED OUT.

"IT WAS AS IF THE LORD WAS SLEEPING AT TIMES."

THIS IS A DIRECT INSULT TO THE LORD,AND THIS COMING FROM THE HEAD OF THE SO CALLED UNIVERSAL CHURCH OF TRUTH.

"THEY SPEAK OF LOVE WITH THEIR LIPS,BUT THEIR HEARTS ARE FAR FROM ME."

JESUS WAS VERY CLEAR ON HARMING AND HINDERING THE LITTLE ONES,A MILLSTONE AROUND YOUR NECK WOULD BE A BETTER END.

CARDINAL NAPIER OF DURBAN IS BEING REIGNED IN AS I WRITE,AND REGARDLESS OF HIS NOW BACK TRACKING,AND SHIFTING THE BLAME,THIS SPIRIT AND THE WORLDS MEDIA ARE WATCHING FOR THE JESUITS BLACK POPES RESPONSE.
HE MUST ACT,IF THE WOUNDED DRAGON OF REVELATION IS TO RECOVER.

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THE JESUITS-THE BLACK POPE.PART THREE.2013.

AS THE MEDIA AND SO CALLED EXPERTS IN THEOLOGY PONDER ON POPE FRANCIS 'S FIRST STEPS AS POPE,OF HIS HUMILITY AND GRACE,WEARING BROWN SHOES INSTEAD OF THE PAPAL RED,STOPPING TO STROKE A DOG,TALKING TO THE PUBLIC,WEARING SILVER RATHER THAN GOLD ETC...
POPE FRANCIS,THE JESUIT BLACK POPE IS BUILDING A PICTURE,HE IS DISTANCING HIMSELF FROM THE CHURCHES DARK PAST,EVEN KIND OF REJECTING THE CHURCH HE NOW GOVERNS,BUT THE DARK CHURCH IS NOT DISTANCING ITSELF FROM THEIR POPE,AS CARDINAL NAPIER,THE BLACK CARDINAL OF DURBAN NOW PROVES.

"PAEDOPHILIA IS NOT A CRIMINAL CONDITION."

TELL THAT TO THE COUNTLESS MILLIONS OF LITTLE ONES,INCLUDING THIS SPIRIT,WHOM YOUR CHURCH HAVE ABUSED,AND STILL ABUSE IN THIS YEAR 2013.
WHAT IS CRIMINAL CARDINAL NAPIER IS YOUR CHURCH OF DARKNESS,EVIL,IT TRULY IS A CRIME AGAINST GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,THE HOLY SPIRIT,JESUS AND MARY MAGDALENE,AND ALL OF HUMANITY.

SO AS POPE FRANCIS,THE JESUIT BLACK POPE SETTLES INTO PETERS CHAIR,THE STORM CLOUDS GATHER.
YET WHAT WILL HE DO WITH HIS BLACK CARDINAL OF DURBAN?
TO BE THE BLACK POPE,THE LAST,HE MUST REIGN IN HIS WAYWARD CARDINAL,FOR NOT TO DO IT,WILL SHOW WEAKNESS,WHICH IS NOT THE WAY OF THE BEAST.
HE MUST SHOW AUTHORITY FROM THE BEGINNING,AND MUST SHOW REFORM IN PUBLIC.
SHOWING HUMILITY IS BUT THE BEGINNING OF OPUS DEI'S PR DRIVE WITH THEIR POPE,A PR DRIVE NOW DAMAGED BY A BLACK CARDINALS COMMENTS.
MANY WILL BE RUSHING ABOUT THE VATICAN TODAY,THE 16TH OF MARCH 2013,TRYING TO RESCUE THE DAMAGE NOW DONE BY A NUMBNUT CARDINAL'S COMMENTS ON CHILD ABUSE,AND THOSE WHO BROUGHT FORTH THIS EVIL,WHOM HE NOW DEFENDS,FOR THAT IS WHAT CARDINAL NAPIER IS DOING,DEFENDING PAEDOPHILIA.

YET IF TRUTH BE TOLD,JESUS WAS CLEAR WHAT SHOULD HAPPEN TO THOSE WHO HARM AND HINDER THE LITTLE ONES,"A MILLSTONE WOULD BE A BETTER END,THAN TO DO SUCH A THING."
THIS SPIRIT IS JUST BRINGING TO YOUR REMEMBRANCE THE CHRIST'S WORDS,LEST YOU FORGET PEEPS.
PAEDOPHILIA IS EVIL,AS ARE THOSE WHO BRING FORTH SUCH EVIL,REGARDLESS OF STATUS WITHIN SELF APPOINTED CHURCHES,AND RELIGIONS,JESUS WAS CLEAR ON THAT.

SO POPE FRANCIS MUST ACT,IF HE BE THE TRUE BLACK POPE,IF THE WOUNDED BEAST IS TO RECOVER.

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THE JESUITS-THE BLACK POPE.PART TWO.2013.

NOW SOME ARE SIGHING WITH RELIEF THAT THE POPE IS NOT BLACK,OR CALLED PETER,SO THIS CANNOT BE THE LAST POPE.
LITTLE DO THEY KNOW,THAT THE JESUITS ARE KNOWN AS THE BLACK PRIESTS,DUE TO THEIR VESTMENTS COLOUR,AND THEIR SUPREME GENERAL IS KNOWN AS THE BLACK POPE.
THE JESUITS,AND OPUS DEI ARE THE POWERHOUSE BEHIND THE VATICAN,AND THEIR MAN IS NOW AT THE HELM OF THEIR CHURCH,THE BLACK POPE,WITH ITALIAN BLOOD,AND NAME,A ROMAN,IF TRUTH BE TOLD,PETER THE ROMAN,THE GREAT DENIER OF CHRIST.

POPE FRANCIS?

SAINT FRANCIS OF ASSISI SAID ON HIS DEATHBED REGARDING THE LAST POPE.

"AT THE TIME OF THIS TRIBULATION A MAN,NOT CANONICALLY ELECTED,WILL BE RAISED TO THE PONTIFICATE,WHO,BY HIS CUNNING,WILL ENDEAVOR TO DRAW MANY TO ERROR AND DEATH...
SOME PREACHERS WILL KEEP SILENCE ABOUT THE TRUTH,AND OTHERS WILL TRAMPLE IT UNDER FOOT AND DENY IT...
FOR IN THOSE DAYS JESUS CHRIST WILL SEND THEM NOT A TRUE PASTOR,BUT A DESTROYER."

POPE FRANCIS KNOWS BY CHOOSING THIS NAME HE WAS FULFILLING AT LEAST SAINT FRANCIS'S PROPHECY.

HE EVEN SAID TO HIS FELLOW CARDINALS TODAY,14TH OF MARCH 2013,"GOD FORGIVE YOU FOR WHAT YOU HAVE DONE."
JORGE MARIO BERGOGLIO KNOWS HIS FELLOW CARDINALS HAVE SOLD HIS FLESH AND SOUL OUT TO THE DEVIL,OF WHICH HE WILL POSSESS AT A LATER TIME,OUTING POPE FRANCIS SOUL IN THE PROCESS.
THOSE OF YOU OF THE CHRISTIAN FAITH WILL UNDERSTAND THE MEANING OF THE WORD AND STATE OF POSSESSION,IT IS MENTION ENOUGH IN THE SCRIPTURES,IF TRUTH BE TOLD,AND CANNOT BE DENIED.
POPE FRANCIS NOW KNOWS HIS DESTINY,IT IS UP TO THIS WORLD TO FIGURE HIS DESTINY OUT,BEFORE IT IS TOO LATE.

"AND I SAW A WOMAN SITTING ON A SCARLET BEAST WHICH WAS FULL OF BLASPHEMOUS NAMES,AND IT HAD SEVEN HEADS AND TENS HORNS.
THE WOMAN WAS ARRAYED IN PURPLE AND SCARLET,AND BEDECKED WITH GOLD AND JEWELS AND PEARLS,HOLDING IN HER HAND A CUP FULL OF ABOMINATIONS AND THE IMPURITIES OF HER FORNICATION;AND ON HER FOREHEAD WAS WRITTEN A NAME OF MYSTERY:"BABYLON THE GREAT,MOTHER OF HARLOTS AND OF EARTHS ABOMINATIONS."

IF YOU HAVE A MIND WITH WISDOM UNDERSTAND THIS NEXT MYSTERY.

THERE ARE SEVEN HEADS,WHICH REPRESENTS SEVEN HILLS ON WHICH THE WOMAN IS SEATED;
THE SEVEN HILLS REPRESENT SEVEN KINGS,FIVE OF WHOM HAVE FALLEN,ONE IS,THE OTHER HAS NOT YET COME,AND WHEN HE COMES HE MUST REMAIN ONLY A LITTLE WHILE.
AS FOR THE BEAST THAT WAS AND IS NOT,IT IS AN EIGHTH BUT IT BELONGS TO THE SEVEN,AND GOES TO PERDITION.

THE BEAST HAS YET TO MAKE HIS APPEARANCE ON THE WORLD STAGE,,BUT HE BELONGS TO THE SEVEN,THE SEVEN KINGS OF ROME,THE ROMAN CATHOLIC CHURCH,AND ROMAN EMPIRE.
FRANCIS IS NOT AS HUMBLE AS HE SEEMS TO BE.
THIS WILL BECOME CLEAR AS HIS EGO STARTS TO BUILD,AND HIS POSSESSION BEGINS.

REMEMBER PEEPS,HE IS A JESUIT,A BLACK PRIEST,AND NOW POPE.

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THE JESUITS-THE BLACK POPE.PART ONE.2013.

MOST WERE EXPECTING A BLACK POPE IN SKIN,EVEN MORE A LATIN AMERICAN POPE,THE LATER IS WHAT THEY GOT,BUT WHAT A SHOCK AND SILENCE IN ST PETERS SQUARE WHEN THE ANNOUNCEMENT WAS FIRST MADE,AND THEN WHEN POPE FRANCIS SHORLY AFTERWARDS APPEARED IN PERSON.
WHATEVER THE CROWD AND MEDIA WERE EXPECTING,IT MOST CERTAINLY WAS NOT A POPE FROM ARGENTINA,THE SHOCK OF THE MEDIA WAS THE BEST OF ALL,FIRST THEY WERE CAUGHT OUT WITH THE APPEARANCE OF WHITE SMOKE,THEN THE RAPID PACE OF EVERYTHING THAT FOLLOWED,THEY WERE COMPLETELY MIFFED,AS WERE THOSE THEY INTERVIEWED STRAIGHT AFTER THE ANNOUNCEMENT,AND STILL A DAY AFTER IT IS SO.
VATICAN INSIDERS ARE NOW BACK TRACKING FROM THEIR SHOCK AND WORDS AFTER THE SHOCK ANNOUNCEMENT,AND ARE NOW HEAPING PRAISE UPON THE NEW POPE,BUT ONE THING IS CERTAIN,THE SHOCK OF CATHOLICS IN EUROPE,INCLUDING VATICAN INSIDERS,AND SO CALLED RELIGIOUS EXPERTS,AND INCLUDING THE WORLDS MEDIA,WAS PLAIN FOR ALL THE WORLD TO SEE.
AS YOU READ MY WORDS,IN A FUTURE TIME YOU WILL REMEMBER THEM,AND OF WHAT THEY REVEAL.

THERE IS A COMET IN THE SKIES ABOVE,PAN-STARRS,WHICH THE MEDIA HAVE FORGOTTEN AT THE MOMENT,ITS STILL VISIBLE FROM THE EARTH WITH THE NAKED EYES JUST AT SUNSET IN THE WESTERN SKY UNTIL 18TH MARCH 2013.
THE ANCIENTS KNEW THE SIGNIFICANTS OF A COMET IN THE SKIES,AND THE GREAT CHANGE IT BRINGS UPON THE EARTH BELOW.

THE QUEEN OF ENGLAND STRANGELY CALLED OF HER TRIP TO ROME,WITH THE NEWS OF A NEW POPES ARRIVAL.
SHE WOULD ALSO HAVE BEEN TOLD OF PAN-STARRS APPEARANCE IN THE SKIES,AND ITS SIGNIFICANCE IN WORLD EVENTS,AS WOULD THE VATICAN,NOTHING IS BY CHANCE,REGARDLESS IF YOU THINK IT IS,EVERYTHING HAS ITS REASON,EVEN COMETS.
IN FACT ALL OVER THE WORLD THE WORLDS ASTRONOMERS AND MYSTICS,AND ELDER SOULS,WISDOMS CHILDREN WOULD HAVE UNDERSTOOD PAN-STARRS APPEARANCE IN THE SKIES ABOVE WITH THE ELECTION OF A NEW POPE ON THE 13-03-13.
AS I SAID BEFORE,NOTHING IS BY CHANCE.

YOU SEE,COMETS ARE SOULS TRAVELING THROUGH SPACE,THEY ARE ENERGY,AND AS THEY TRAVEL THROUGH SPACE,THEY PICK UP PARTICLES OF ICE,WHICH OVER TIME BUILDS SOMETIMES SO VAST,THEY CAN BE SEEN FROM EARTH.
THEY BRING NEWS OF LIFE,AS WELL AS NEWS OF DEATH,FOR THOSE WITH EYES TO SEE THEM,BUT THEY ALWAYS BRING NEWS OF GREAT CHANGE.
COMETS ARE LIVING BEINGS,AND EACH UPON EARTH USE TO BE ONE,SOME SMALL,AND SOME LARGE,BUT EACH WERE ONE TRAVELING THROUGH SPACE BEFORE THEIR INCARNATION INTO FLESH.
REMEMBER PEEPS,EVEN THE EXPERTS CLAIM,OR AT LEAST TRY TO EXPLAIN AS BEST THEY CAN,LIFE CAME FROM SOMEWHERE ELSE.
THEY ARE NOT FAR OF THE MARK WITH THEIR THOUGHTS,FOR EVEN THEIR THOUGHTS COME FROM SOMEWHERE ELSE,IF TRUTH BE TOLD.

I TOLD YOU MANY SIGNS AND WONDERS IN THE SKIES ABOVE,AND THE EARTH BELOW WOULD BE SHOWN IN THIS YEAR 2013,BUT YOU NEED EYES TO SEE THEM.

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THE MADNESS OF ALCOHOL.PART EIGHT.2013.

I NEVER EVER FITTED IN AT MOST OF MY SCHOOLS,EXCEPT THE FIRST SCHOOL I ATTENDED,IT IS THE ONLY SCHOOL I BELIEVE I WAS HAPPY IN,WITHOUT,TO MY RECOLLECTION ANY ABUSE AT ALL.
THE SO CALLED BRIDES OF CHRIST,MY NEXT JUNIOR SCHOOL CHANGED THAT COMPLETELY.
COMPETING WITH ALCOHOL IN THE HOUSE,AND AROUND ME AS A CHILD WAS BAD ENOUGH,BUT THE ABUSE OF THOSE DEEMED AS GUARDIANS OUTSIDE THE HOUSE SHOULD NOT HAVE BEEN ALLOWED,AND WAS TANTAMOUNT TO CRIMINAL.
WORST OF ALL PARENTS GAVE THEIR PERMISSION FOR A MULTITUDE OF ABUSIVE BEHAVIOUR,AND BEING NUNS,THEY THEMSELVES KNEW FEW WOULD QUESTION THEIR AUTHORITY,SO ABUSE WENT ON UNCHECKED.

AS I SAID BEFORE,THE ABUSE ESCALATED IN MY FINAL SCHOOL WITH DAILY BRUTALITY.
THE ANGER IN THIS FLESH WAS BUILDING,ONE BECAUSE OF SCHOOL AND HOME ABUSE,OR AS THEY CALLED IT DISCIPLINE,AND TWO BECAUSE OF THE MADNESS OF RELIGION WHICH SURROUNDED THE RELIGION OF YOUR BIRTH.
THE OTHER SIDE WERE NOT TO BE TRUSTED,REGARDLESS OF BEING PROTESTANT OR CATHOLIC,SADLY FOR A LOT IN MY COUNTRY,NORTHERN IRELAND IT IS STILL SO IN THIS YEAR 2013.

WE RAN ABOUT IN GANGS IN MY YOUTH,THE STRANGE THING ABOUT THIS ALL MY GANG WERE PROTESTANT,WHICH WAS THE RELIGION OF MY CHOICE,IN REGARDS OF FRIENDS,AND STILL IN THIS YEAR 2013 IT IS SO.
I STILL HAVE CATHOLIC FAMILY AND FRIENDS,BUT WITH WHAT I WRITE,ESPECIALLY ABOUT RELIGION,AND ROME,THOSE FAMILY AND FRIENDS OF THE ROMAN CATHOLIC CHURCH FAITH THINK THIS CHILD IS LOST,LOL.
YET IN TRUTH,IT IS THEY WHO ARE LOST.

MY FIRST REAL TROUBLE I GOT INTO WAS BECAUSE OF RELIGION AND ALCOHOL,AGAIN IN A GANG OF MOSTLY CATHOLICS THIS TIME,WITH A FEW PROTESTANTS.
WE WERE ASKED TO LEAVE A LOCAL HOTEL FOR BEING UNDERAGE,BUT THEN SOMEONE CALLED US FENIAN BASTARDS,AND THAT WAS THAT,THE FUSE WAS LIT,WE BROKE THE WIDOWS OF TWELVE CARS IN THE CAR PARK,WHAT WE DIDN'T KNOW WAS,6 OF THE CARS WERE OWNED BY CATHOLICS,AND FRIENDS OF OUR PARENTS,BIG MISTAKE.
MY LESSON FOR THAT MISTAKE COST MY PATENTS 1600 POUNDS,AND GOT ME A CRIMINAL RECORD FOR THE FIRST TIME,FOR CRIMINAL DAMAGE.
I TOOK THE RAP FOR MY MATES,AND MY ACTIONS,THEY DESERTED ME,AND DENIED THEIR INVOLVEMENT IN OUR NIGHT OF ALCOHOLIC AND RELIGIOUS MADNESS.

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THE MADNESS OF ALCOHOL.PART SEVEN.2013.

AS I SAID BEFORE,SOME MAY SAY WHERE IS THE CONNECTION WITH ALCOHOL AND LIFE?
THE ANSWER TO THAT IS,LOOK THROUGH YOUR OWN LIVES AND THE LIVES OF THOSE AROUND AND CLOSE TO YOU,THEN YOU WILL FIND FEW ESCAPE THE RAVAGES OF ALCOHOL,AND MANY MORE ADDICTIONS.

AFTER THE SO CALLED BRIDES OF CHRIST HAD FINISHED THEIR YEARS OF ABUSE,DUE TO MOVING TO A NEW SCHOOL,THE BIG SCHOOL,MY SEXUAL ABUSE STARTED,BUT NOT IN SCHOOL,OUTSIDE SCHOOL,AND BY A FRIEND,MY FIRST OUTSIDE SCHOOL AND HOME BULLY,AND THATS HOW THE SEXUAL ABUSE STARTED,AS A RESULT OF BEING AFRAID OF THIS PERSON,LIKE ALL BULLIES,FEAR IS THE NUMBER  ONE TOOL OF CONTROL,THREATS ARE A CLOSE SECOND.
I RARELY TALK ABOUT THESE EPISODES IN MY LIFE,BUT THEY ARE IMPORTANT.
THANKFULLY MY SEXUAL ABUSE LASTED FOR ONLY SEVERAL TIMES,BUT SOME AROUND ME WERE NOT SO LUCKY.
ALSO PHYSICAL ABUSE WAS A TOOL OF MY GENERATION'S GUARDIANS.
MANY TIMES I,AND MY MATES WERE GIVEN SEVERE BEATINGS AT TIMES,MINE WAS WEEKLY,THEIRS SEEMED TO BE LESS,BUT WHAT GOES ON BEHIND CLOSED DOORS IS ANYONES GUESS IN THIS WORLD OF CHAOS.

IN THE BIG SCHOOL THE BEATINGS AND STRAPPING CONTINUED,SO I WAS IN A NO WIN SITUATION,BEATINGS,AND NOW STRAPPING'S,AT HOME,OUTSIDE HOME,AND SCHOOL.
THE INQUISITION WOULD HAVE BEEN EASY,COMPARED TO THIS SHIT.
I GOT,AND WATCHED OTHERS GETTING THE LIVING DAYLIGHTS BEATEN OUT OF THEM BY BOTH PARENTS AND TEACHERS.
I MYSELF COULD NAME 11 TEACHERS,2 NUNS AND A MULTITUDE OF PARENTS WHO CROSSED THE LINE OF ABUSE,BUT STRANGELY ENOUGH NOT ONE PRIEST.
THE PRIESTS OF MY YOUTH WERE QUITE COOL,SMOKERS,DRINKERS AND CURSERS,WHO SEEMED TO KNOW THEIR OWN FAILINGS,WHICH I SUPPOSE GAVE THEM AN UNDERSTANDING OF OTHERS IN THEIR FAILINGS.
BEST NOT TO JUDGE,LEST YOU YOURSELF BE JUDGED.
BUT STILL YOU COULD NOT TURN TO AN ADULT AND SAY,I HAVE BEEN ABUSED,AND AM BEING ABUSED,"PLEASE HELP ME."
WHO COULD YOU TURN TO,WHEN ALL AROUND WERE ABUSING?
IT WAS A VICIOUS CIRCLE OF ABUSE,WHICH TOUCHED MANY AROUND ME,THE YOUTH WERE LOST,AND GROWING EVER ANGRY,CHOOSING VARIOUS ADDICTIONS TO ESCAPE THE MADNESS AND CHAOS OF THIS ADULT WORLD OF SHAME,A SHAME THAT IS STILL GOING ON IN HOMES ALL OVER THE WORLD AS I WRITE.

TO BE CONTINUED...

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THE MADNESS OF AUNIDAN CHRISTI.PART TWO..2013.

IN BETWEEN THE SPIRITUAL TRUTH I WILL REVEAL,AND MUCH I HAVE TO REVEAL,I WILL REVEAL MY FLESHES CHAOTIC LIFE AT TIMES,YET EVEN IN THE DARKEST OF TIMES,THE SPIRITUAL WAS ALWAYS ABOUT ME,REGARDLESS OF ME LISTENING OR NOT,THEY WERE ALWAYS ABOUT ME.

THEY,MY GUIDES AND SPIRITS,ARE FROM THE DIVINE COUNCIL,PSALMS 82,AND ARE MY HEAVENLY FAMILY,OR MORE TO THE TRUTH,MY FAMILY IN REALITY,AND AT THE HELM OF THAT DIVINE COUNCIL IS,GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,MY HEAVENLY FATHER AND MOTHER.
IT IS THEY WHO REVEAL TO ME,THAT WHICH I REVEAL IN TURN TO YOU PEEPS,YET WHAT I REVEAL IS ALL TRUTH,AND IS PLAIN TO SEE,IF YOU HAVE EYES TO SEE.

A LOT OF WHAT I REVEAL IS WITHIN YOUR SCRIPTURES,AND IS NOT NEW,FOR NOTHING IS NEW UNDERNEATH THE SUN,IT JUST NEEDS A SPIRIT TO GUIDE YOUR FLESH AND SOULS INTO THE TRUE WAY,THE WAY MOST HAVE FORGOTTEN.

SOME OF WHAT I REVEAL IS NOT OF THIS EARTH,OR WRITTEN WITHIN YOUR BOOKS OF EARTH,BUT IS PURE TRUTH,PURE AND SIMPLE.
TO UNDERSTAND THESE WORDS AND SAYINGS,YOU NEED TO ASK WISDOM,THE GREAT MOTHER TO GUIDE YOU,PROVERBS 8:VERSES 22-36,REVELATION 12,"AND WISDOM IS VINDICATED BY HER CHILDREN."
WISDOMS CHILDREN ARE THE BLACK SHEEP OF THIS EARTH,THEY ALWAYS COME FROM DARKNESS TO LIGHT,THEY COME THROUGH THE CHAOS OF HUMAN LIFE,TO GUIDE AND COMFORT OTHERS WHO LIVE IN CHAOS.
TO GIVE HOPE,AND REVEAL TRUTH.

AS A CHILD,I SAW MY HEAVENLY FAMILY AND SPIRITS MANY TIMES,BUT PEER PRESSURE,AND BEING DISSUADED FROM SEEING THE UNSEEN,THE INVISIBLE,REALITY,I GAVE IN TO PEER PRESSURE,AND FOLLOWED THE NORM,BECAME BLIND.
THOUGH LITTLE DID I KNOW,THE BLINDNESS WOULD NOT LAST,AND ABOVE WOULD RETURN AT A FUTURE TIME,IN MANY WONDEROUS WAYS,WHICH AT TIMES SCARED MY FLESH,AND THE FLESH OF THOSE CLOSE AND NOT SO CLOSE TO ME,LOL.
15 YEARS LATER,THE VISITATIONS STILL CONTINUE,AND EACH TIME MORE VIVID THAN THE LAST,AS MY SOUL AWAKENS TO REALITY.

IN THE LAST 15 YEARS,I HAVE ONLY MET MY HEAVENLY FATHER TWICE IN PERSON.
ONCE 15 YEARS AGO HE CAME TO ME IN FLESH,AND TALKED WITH ME,AND THE OTHER TIME,FOUR YEARS AGO I VISITED HIM,IN SOUL,FOR A CHAT,AND DRESSING DOWN,FOR MY PARTYING,AND FORGETTING MY TASK UPON EARTH,TO REVEAL THE TRUTH.
FEW WOULD HAVE SURVIVED WHAT I SURVIVED 4 YEARS AGO,AND MANY WERE SURPRISED THAT I HAD RETURNED FROM THE OTHER SIDE,AND AT EASTER,LOL,BUT I DID,THANK GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY.
I KNEW I WAS GOING TO BE CALLED HOME FOR A CHAT,AND TOLD THOSE ABOUT SO,BUT IT WAS STILL A SHOCK TO MY FLESH,AND THOSE CLOSE TO ME,AT THE CHOICE OF HOW I WAS CALLED HOME,A TREE,LOL,THE NIGHT I MET THAT TREE,THE MESSAGE WAS CLEAR TO MY SOUL,TOUGH IT TOOK MY FLESH ALMOST A YEAR TO GET THE SYMBOLISM AND MEANING OF THE TREE BEING USED TO CALL ME HOME,REMEMBER CHRIST,MR AUNIDAN CHRISTI.
I COULD STILL BRING YOU TO THE EXACT TREE TODAY,EVEN THOUGH I STRUGGLE WITH MEMORY LOSS,AND SEVERE MEMORY PROBLEMS,RARELY REMEMBERING MY LAST DAY,OR EVEN THE DAY I AM IN,BUT AT LEAST I AM WALKING,SLOWLY BUT WALKING,ESPECIALLY WHEN I SEE SOME WHO HAVE COME THROUGH SEVERE TRAUMA.
HOW LUCKY WAS THIS BLUE EYED BOY.

LUCKY FOR ME,THAT MY SOUL IS WHO IT IS,AND MY FLESH IS A STEWART,OF THE HOUSE OF UNICORN,AND IS THE CHOICE OF THE MOST HIGH GOD AND GODDESS TO REVEAL THE TRUTH,BUT I AM NOT ALONE UPON THIS EARTH,FOR MANY ARE MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS,WHO STAND IN FLESH UPON THIS EARTH.
REMEMBER PEEPS,ALL HAVE SOULS WITHIN,YOUR FLESH IS BUT A HOUSING,A MODE OF TRANSPORT,AND COMMUNICATION,WHEN NO LONGER NEEDED,YOU,THE TRUE SELF,DISCARDS IT.

"AND I WILL GIVE YOU A STONE WITH YOUR NEW NAME ON IT."
"AND HE HAS A NAME INSCRIBED WHICH ONLY HE KNOWS."

MY FLESH HAS A NAME,AS DOES YOURS PEEPS,BUT MY SOUL IS CALLED AUNIDAN,WHICH MEANS TO UNITE AND BOND,AUNI=UNITE,DAN=BOND,UNITE AND BOND,AUNIDAN.
GOOGLE IT,AND YOU WILL ONLY FIND ONE IN THIS WORLD OF OVER 7 BILLION PEEPS,GOOGLE YOUR OWN NAME AND YOU WILL FIND MANY,LOL.
SOME KNOW THEIR TRUE NAMES,THE NAME THEY ARE KNOWN BY IN THE REAL WORLD,FOR YOUR EARTH IS A DELUSION,THE LEARNING WORLD,TO TEACH YOU,AND TO GIVE LESSONS IN PREPARATION FOR THE REAL WORLD,AND WHERE YOU WILL SIT IN THE DIVINE COUNCIL,THE DIVINE COUNCIL OF GODS AND GODDESS'S,SONS AND DAUGHTERS OF THE MOST HIGH GOD AND GODDESS,PSALMS 82.

REMEMBER PEEPS,FOR I AM THE REMEMBRANCE SPIRIT,TO REMIND YOU OF THAT WHICH WAS,IS AND SHALL BE,THE GUIDER INTO TRUTH,FOR THERE IS ONLY ONE TRUTH,AND IT IS COMING TO A SOUL NEAR YOU SOON,LOL.
YOU HAVE FREEWILL PEEPS,TO BELIEVE THIS SPIRIT OR NOT.
I COULD BE A DELUSIONAL FOOL,WHO IS RECOVERING FROM A BRAIN TRAUMA,BRIDGING ON MENTAL ILLNESS,THOUGH EVEN MY SENIOR HEAD DOCTORS ARE FRIGHTENED AND BAFFLED BY MY REVELATIONS AND NEW LANGUAGE.

"SAN DOM DE NANTA VAN SAN NANTESS ESTANTO PEEPS."
"ET STEALIA ANTE PEEPS."
"SAN ABBA VAN MEERA STEALIA ANTE."

I AM NOT MAD PEEPS,OR DELUSIONAL,AND THE TRUTH NEVER LIES.
THAT WHICH IS BEING REVEALED IS TRUTH,PURE AND SIMPLE,YOU JUST HAVE NOT HEARD THE TRUTH YET.

"AND WHEN HE COMES,HE WILL GUIDE YOU INTO ALL TRUTH."

WHEN YOU SPEAK THE TRUTH,EVERYTHING BECOMES THE TRUTH,WHEN YOU SPEAK DELUSIONS,EVERYTHING BECOMES DELUSIONAL,WITHIN THE TRUTH,THERE IS NO DELUSION,BUT WITHIN DELUSION,THERE IS NO TRUTH.

"AND IN THOSE DAYS YOUR YOUNG WILL SEE VISIONS,AND YOUR OLD WILL DREAM DREAMS AND PROPHESY."

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THE MADNESS OF ALCOHOL.PART SIX.2013.

THERE AGAIN MY MOTHER DIDN'T UNDERSTAND LOVE,AND TO THIS DAY,I THINK SHE STILL DOES NOT UNDERSTAND IT.
SHE ONLY EVER SAID SHE LOVED ME,ONCE,AND THAT WAS AFTER A DISASTROUS ATTEMPT TO KILL MYSELF,WHICH SAW ME END UP IN JAIL FOR A WEEK,BUT WERE LONG BEFORE THOSE DAYS OF DARKNESS.
FROM WHAT I HAVE GLEANED OVER THE YEARS MY EARTH MOTHER'S MOTHER,MY GRANNY WAS QUITE HARD ON MY MOTHER,WHEN SHE WAS A CHILD,AND SHE HAD PROBLEMS AT SCHOOL ALSO,THOUGH MY MOTHER WOULD TELL YOU NOTHING,AND AVOID ANY QUESTION OF HER LIFE.

AS A CHILD ASKING A QUESTION WAS NOT RECOMMENDED,FOR ADULTS KNEW BEST,EVEN THOUGH IN TRUTH,THEY KNEW VERY LITTLE OF LIFE,AND WERE JUST GUESSING,AND TRYING TO SURVIVE IN THIS WORLD OF CHAOS,AND TRYING TO LEARN FROM THEIR OWN MISTAKES,AS ALL DO.
THE PROBLEM IS,YOU MUST ACCEPT,AND ADDRESS THOSE MISTAKES,AND TRY NOT TO MAKE THEM AGAIN,
AS CHILDREN,MAKING MISTAKES IS PART OF LEARNING,BUT AS ADULTS,THE LESSONS SHOULD BE LEARNT,THIS AT TIMES I AM STILL LEARNING,BUT ONE THING I KNOW,AND HAVE ALWAYS KNOWN,YOU CAN NOT BEAT A CHILD WHO MAKES MISTAKES,OR PERIOD,AND ESPECIALLY NOT BECAUSE OF YOUR OWN FAILINGS,TALK TO THE CHILD,GUIDE THE CHILD,SHOW LOVE TOWARDS THE CHILD,BUT DO NOT BEAT THEM,ESPECIALLY WHEN OTHERS ARE DOING IT ALSO WITHOUT YOU KNOWLEDGE,BECAUSE OF YOUR OWN BELIEFS AND LIFE OF CHAOS.

NEVER ONCE DID I HIT MY CHILDREN,REGARDLESS OF MY CHAOTIC LIFE,BUT THEN AGAIN,MY CHAOTIC LIFE WAS NOT PLEASANT AT TIMES FOR THEM EITHER.

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THE MADNESS OF ALCOHOL.PART FIVE.2013.

MY NEXT VICE WAS PETROL.
THIS,LIKE OTHERS WAS A STRANGE VICE,SITTING ON A MOTORBIKE,NOSE IN THE PETROL TANK UNTIL YOU ALMOST PASSED OUT,ALWAYS STOPPING,IF YOU WERE LUCKY AT THE BUZZING THAT FOLLOWED,THOUGH IT ONLY LAST MINUTES,IT WAS A STRANGE ATTRACTION,KINDA LIKE,WHEN IN ROME,DO AS YOUR MATES DO.
YET EVEN IN THIS YEAR 2013,I HEAR OF KIDS SNIFFING GLUE,PETROL,GAS,AND A MULTITUDE OF OTHER SUBSTANCES,WHICH SEEMS TO BE A YOUNG THING TO DO,BUT IN TRUTH,SELF ABUSE IT SEEMS IS AN OLD THING,DONE THROUGHOUT THE GENERATIONS.
THOUGH IT WASN'T JUST THE SO CALLED LOWER CLASSES,AND SO CALLED MIDDLE CLASSES THAT DID IT,THE SO CALLED UPPER CLASSES KNEW HOW TO ABUSE A MULTITUDE OF SUBSTANCES AS WELL,THE ONLY DIFFERENT WAS THEY HAD THE MONEY TO PAY FOR THE BETTER CLASS OF SUBSTANCES,THE GOOD SHIT.

I NEVER TAUGHT OR COMPELLED ANYBODY TO INDULGE IN ANY OF MY SUBSTANCE ABUSE,AND STILL TO THIS DAY IT IS SO,AND I AM THE FIRST TO DISSUADE ANY CHILD OR ADULT WHO WISHES TO GO DOWN THAT ROAD,BUT I CANNOT LECTURE,JUDGE OR CONDEMN ANYBODY ON THEIR PATH,ONLY GIVE ADVICE,WHICH IS WHAT I DO.
THE ONLY WAY TO LEARN IS BY YOUR MISTAKES,IN THE HOPE YOU LEARN FROM THEM,I MYSELF AM STILL LEARNING,AS MY RECENT BRAIN INJURY TESTIFIES.
NOW I LIVE WITH MUCH PAIN FROM MY VARIOUS INJURIES,UNTOP OF THE PAIN OF MY CHILDHOOD ABUSE,BOTH SELF AFFLICTED AND INFLICTED BY OTHERS,TOUGH I KNEW I WAS GOING TO BE CALLED HOME BY ABOVE,BY GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,MY TRUE FATHER AND MOTHER FOR A DRESSING DOWN,AND A GENTLE CHAT,BEFORE BEING RETURNED TO EARTH WITH A BANG,WHICH IS WHAT HAPPENED.
MOST OF MY CHILDHOOD ABUSE VICES CAME ABOUT DUE TO BEING UNHAPPY WITH MY SURROUNDINGS,BEING ABUSED IN SADISTIC WAYS BY THE SO CALLED BRIDES OF CHRIST,THE NUNS,GESTAPO,PENGUINS.
THEN CAME MY EARTH MOTHER WHO ACTED ON THE SO CALLED BRIDES OF CHRIST'S REPORTS OF HER SONS DAILY MISCHIEF,WHICH IS ALL IT WAS,IN THE EARLY YEARS,BUT IN MY CHILDHOOD,NUNS,OR THE SO CALLED BRIDES OF CHRIST WERE PUT ON A PEDESTAL,ALMOST BEING COMPARED IN STATUS WITH THE VIRGIN MARY,AND THEIR REPORTS WERE GOSPEL,THE TRUTH,REGARDLESS OF THE REAL TRUTH.
MANY TIMES I RETURNED HOME WITH WITH MANY BRUISES UPON MY YOUNG BODY,WHICH WERE INCREASED BY MY EARTH MOTHER'S ROMAN CATHOLIC JUSTICE,I WAS IN A NO WIN SITUATION,NOT EVEN WHEN I TOLD THE TRUTH OF MY ABUSE,I WAS NOT BELIEVED,FOR THE SO CALLED BRIDES OF CHRIST WERE GODS REPRESENTATIVES UPON EARTH,SO COULD NOT LIE,OR HARM CHILDREN.
HOW WRONG MY MOTHER WAS,AND STILL IS THIS YEAR 2013.
EVEN IN THIS YEAR 2013 MY MOTHER CANNOT UNDERSTAND CHILD ABUSE,AND STILL CLINGS ON TO HER FAITH,REGARDLESS OF THE TRUTH OF THAT FAITH BEING EXPOSED AS EVIL DAILY ON THE WORLDS MEDIA.

TO BE CONTINUED...

THE MADNESS OF ALCOHOL.PART FOUR.2013.

THE MANY TIMES I WAS TOLD FROM AN EARLY AGE THAT I WAS GOING TO THE ORPHAN HOME,I COULDN'T TELL YOU,THOUGH USING THOSE WHO WERE IN THE ORPHAN'S HOMES AS A THREAT OF CONTROL WAS A SHAME IN ITSELF,BIT LIKE THREATENING YOU WITH SANTA NOT COMING.

MY ADVANCE INTO THE WORLD OF ALCOHOL CONTINUED STEADILY,WHEN THE FAMILY MOVED INTO A MIDDLE CLASS AREA OF MY HOME TOWN.
BEFORE THE MOVE FROM THE COUNCIL ESTATE WHICH I LOVED,AND MY FIRST SCHOOL,THE ONLY THING I KNEW OF ALCOHOL WAS MY FATHERS DRINKING,AND THAT OF THOSE AROUND HIM,INCLUDING OTHER FAMILY MEMBERS.
IT WAS ONLY ON MOVING,AND DISRUPTION THAT ALCOHOL REALLY BEGAN TO TAKE HOLD.
I REMEMBER AT THE AGE OF ABOUT 12,I STARTED SMOKING,AND NOT CIGARETTES,BUT THE BEANO,LOL.
WE USE TO BUY A BEANO MAGAZINE,RIPE THE PAGES,ROLL THEM UP,AND SMOKE THEM,WHICH IN TURN RIPPED THE LUNGS OUT OF YOU,MADNESS,THE VERY THING OF CHILDHOOD WHICH WAS MEANT TO BRING EXCITEMENT AND JOY,WAS A REASON FOR CHILDHOOD VICE :(

MY NEXT VICE WHICH CAME MY NEW MIDDLE CLASS UPBRINGING WAS GLUE,ONCE MORE THIS VICE WAS THE THING TO DO WITH MY NEW FOUND MIDDLE CLASS MATES,WHICH IN TRUTH CAME FROM A LOWER CLASS UPBRINGING,WE AS CHILDREN JUST MOVED UP THE LADDER WITH PARENTS WHO WISHED TO BE THAT WHICH THEY WERE NOT,KEEPING UP WITH THE JONESES.
YET AS CHILDREN KEEPING UP WITH THE JONESES WAS NOT ON OUR RADAR,JUST EXPLORING LIFE,REGARDLESS OF HOW DANGEROUS THE LIFE WE CHOSE WAS,DANGER DOES NOT ENTER INTO A CHILDS RECKONING,IT WAS TRAIL AND ERROR,AND AT TIMES HARD LEARNING WHICH TAUGHT THE BEST LESSONS,THOUGH LOOKING BACK NOW,IT WAS MADNESS,PURE AND SIMPLE.
I PASSED OUT ONCE WITH THE GLUE AND WOKE UP COVERED IN GLUE,PYJAMA'S COVERED AND STUCK FAST TO ME,I HID THEM IN THE BOTTOM OF MY WARDROBE,BUT WITH THE SMELL OF EVO STICK SLOWLY MAKING ITS WAY AROUND THE HOUSE,IT WAS ONLY A MATTER OF TIME BEFORE I WAS CAUGHT,AND I WAS.
THE BEATEN I GOT,THAT DAY OF DISCOVERY WAS TANTAMOUNT TO CRIMINAL,MY BODY WAS WRACKED FROM HEAD TO TOE WITH BLACK AND BLUE BRUISES AND WELTS,AND ONCE MORE IN MY EARLY LIFE OF ENDLESS GROUNDING,I WAS ONCE MORE GROUNDED.
THE FUNNY THING WAS,MY MATES WERE NEVER GROUNDED,WHICH MEANT,THEY WERE CLEVERER THAN ME IN CONCEALING THEIR OWN VICES,BUT ALSO THERE PARENTS WERE FAR MORE LIBERAL,AND PROTESTANTS TO BOOT,SO ROME PLAYED NO PART IN THEIR LIVES,WHICH WAS A BIG ADVANTAGE IN THE PUNISHMENT STAKES.
YOU SEE THE ROMAN CATHOLIC GOD AND JESUS,WITH THE VIRGIN MARY IN TOE,WHERE RUTHLESS TEACHERS,AND HARD TASK MASTERS,WHO HAD LITTLE TIME FOR CHILDREN,BETTER SEEN THAN HEARD.
SO WHEN CHILDREN EXPLORED,EVEN WITH DANGER,AND THAT EXPLORING WAS FOUND OUT,THE CONSEQUENCES FOR SUCH EXPLORING WAS SEVERE,INSTEAD OF EXPLAINING THE DANGER AND REASONS FOR NOT DOING SUCH DANGEROUS THINGS,
SPARE THE ROD,SPOIL THE CHILD.
TIS BETTER TO GUIDE THE CHILD,THAN TO PUNISH THE CHILD WITH PAINFUL ABUSE.

TO BE CONTINUED...

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THE MADNESS OF ALCOHOL.PART THREE.2013.

NO CHILD IS BORN EVIL,AND NO CHILD IS BORN OUT OF ORIGINAL SIN.
EVEN THE NEXT POPE,WHO WILL SIT ON PETERS CHAIR,WAS BORN WITHOUT SIN,IT IS HIS SCHOOLING,UPBRINGING AND SELF WILL,AND HIS ALLOWANCE OF EVIL TO ENTER HIM,POSSESS HIM,THAT WILL BRING FORTH THE BEAST WITHIN.
BUT NO CHILD IS BORN EVIL.
BY TELLING THIS TO YOUR CHILDREN,IS TO ABUSE THEM GREATLY,MAKING THEM FEEL THAT THEY ARE NATURALLY EVIL,THIS IS HOW THE ESTABLISHED CHURCHES,ESPECIALLY THE CHURCH OF ROME,BEGAN THEIR CONTROL,ABUSE AND BRAINWASHING OF THE LITTLE ONES,AND ADULTS,ONCE LITTLE ONES,AND SO IT AS BEEN EVER SINCE.
HUMANS ARE EVIL,UNLESS THEY BELIEVE IN THIS FAITH OR THAT,THIS GOD AND PROPHET OR THAT GOD AND PROPHET,AND IF THEY DRINK,THEN THEY ARE THE DEVILS CHILDREN,LOL,INSTEAD OF JUST BEING GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY'S CHILDREN,WHO IN TRUTH ARE JUST FINDING THEIR FEET IN THIS WORLD OF CHAOS.
DON'T GET ME WRONG PEEPS,DRINK IS A CURSE,IF NOT RESPECTED,BUT RELIGION IS THE CURSE OF ALL CURSES,WHO DESERVES NO RESPECT WHATSOEVER.

CHILDREN SHOULD BE SHOWN LOVE,AND TOLD THEY ARE GOOD FROM BIRTH ONWARDS,AND NOT TOLD GOD AND JESUS DO NOT LIKE THEM IF THEY MAKE MISTAKES,THE JEALOUS GOD OF THE OLD TESTAMENT IS THE ONLY GOD I KNOW WHO SHOWS NO LOVE,ABUSES,RIDICULES,HUMILIATES,AND PUNISHES CHILDREN AND ADULTS FOR THE MISTAKES THEY MAKE.
IT IS HE WHO CREATED THE STORY OF THE ORIGINAL SIN AND PUT IT FORTH AS GOSPEL INTO HUMAN MALE MINDS,AND SO HUMAN MALE EGO LATCHED ONTO HIS IDEA,AND WITH IT CAME JEALOUSY,POWER,CONTROL,GREED,ABUSE AND BRAINWASHING.
MAKE EVERYTHING A SIN,AND THE ESTABLISHED CHURCHES WIN.

IN MY CHILDHOOD,EVERY MISTAKE WAS THE DEVILS WORK,AND MY FAULT FOR ALLOWING THE DEVIL TO BE MY FRIEND,LOL.
IT HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH ALCOHOLIC TRAUMA,CHILD ABUSE,BOTH CLERICAL AND BY ONE CLOSE,IT HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH THE ENDLESS BEATINGS,BY THOSE WHO WERE MEANT TO LOVE YOU,IT HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH THE SYSTEMATIC BRUTALITY AND BEATINGS OF TEACHERS WHO WERE MEANT TO BE EDUCATING YOU.
IT WAS THE EVIL WITHIN THE CHILD,PURE AND SIMPLE.

TO BE CONTINUED...

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THE MADNESS OF ALCOHOL.PART TWO.2013.

NOW SOME WOULD SAY,WHERE IS THE CONNECTION OF RELIGION AND ALCOHOL?
AT THE CORE OF ALCOHOL,IS THE DESTRUCTION RELIGION BRINGS WITH IT,BE IT ABUSE,DISCIPLINE,CONTROL,JUDGEMENT OR CONDEMNATION.
TOUGH IF TRUTH BE TOLD,AND IF YOU HAVE EYES TO SEE WITHIN YOUR SCRIPTURES,EVEN JESUS WAS DEEMED AS A DRUNKARD AND A GLUTTON,WHICH MEANS HE HAD TO BE SEEN DRUNK,AND PARTYING A BIT FOR SUCH AN OBSERVATION TO BE GIVEN.
THOUGH THE SAD PART OF THIS PART OF JESUS LIFE IS SKIRTED AROUND,FOR IT REVEALS HIS HUMAN NATURE,AND NOT WHAT HIS SO CALLED FOLLOWERS BELIEVE IN.
THEY FOOLISHLY BELIEVE IN ROMES STANCE ON JESUS,HE WAS DIVINE FULL STOP,LOL.
THEY,AS ROME ERROR GREATLY IN THEIR BELIEF THAT JESUS WAS NOT HUMAN,FOR EVEN GOD AND THE GODDESS ALMIGHTY,AND THE DIVINE COUNCIL,PSALMS 82 ARE HUMAN.
REMEMBER PEEPS,IN THE IMAGE,AFTER THE LIKENESS OF THEY,ARE YOU.
MELCHIZEDEK IS ANOTHER CLUE TO THE TRUTH OF ABOVE,FOR IN THE FORM OF MAN HE CAME VISITING ABRAHAM,EATING AND DRINKING WITH HIM,AND MANY TIMES ANGELS HAVE VISITED HUMAN BEINGS IN THE IMAGE,AFTER THE LIKENESS OF THE SON OF MAN,HUMAN BEINGS.
EVEN JESUS CHANGING WATER INTO WINE,WAS A FACT THAT DRINK WAS FOR PARTYING AND CELEBRATING,IF DONE IN MEASURE OF SENSIBILITY,OR FOR THY HEALTH SAKE.
BUT FROM MY YOUTH IT WAS NOT SO.

MY FATHER,GOD LOVE HIM,WAS AN ALCOHOLIC,AS WERE MOST OF MY FAMILY,UNCLES,AUNTIES,COUSINS,AND CLOSE FAMILY FRIENDS,SO FROM AN EARLY AGE DRINK WAS THE WAY OF RELAXATION,PARTYING AND CELEBRATING,AS IT IS TODAY.
TO ME IT WAS THE NORM OF FAMILY LIFE,EVEN BISHOPS,AND PRIESTS DRANK,AND NOT JUST ON THE ALTER,BUT IN PUBS AND AT PARTIES,IT WAS THE CATHOLIC THING TO DO.,A WAY OF LIFE.
MOST OF IT WAS HAPPY TIMES,EXCEPT FOR THOSE WHO NEVER KNEW WHEN TO END THE PARTY,LIKE MY FAMILY,TO THEM AT TIMES,THE PARTY NEVER ENDED UNTIL MONDAY MORNING,BUT EVEN THEN,THE NIGHT BROUGHT EXTRA PARTYING,ESPECIALLY THURSDAY NIGHTS,PAY DAY,THURSDAY'S ALWAYS HAILED THE BEGINNING OF THE WEEKEND,THE FOUR DAYS OF PARTYING,IF PARTYING IS WHAT YOU COULD CALL SOME OF IT.
THURSDAY WAS MY DAY TO DO THE PUB RUN,GOING WITH MY MOTHER TO THE PUB TO GET DAD OUT OF IT,OR AT LEAST HIS WAGES OUT OF IT,AT TIMES I ENJOYED IT,BEING SAT UPON A BAR STOOL,AND DAD BEING THE CENTER OF ATTENTION,AND FOR A BRIEF WHILE ME ASWELL,WHILE ALL THE TIME MUM WAS OUTSIDE BUILDING HER ANGER FOR THE SHOWDOWN LATER,WHICH ALWAYS CAME.
SITTING ON THE TOP STAIRS OF THE HOUSE CRYING WITH MY ELDEST SISTER LISTENING TO THE MAYHEM BELOW WAS NEVER A PARTY FOR YOUNG CHILDREN,WHO WERE FORGOTTEN ABOUT WITHIN ALCOHOLIC OUTBURSTS,BUT AN ALCOHOLIC THINKS NOT OF THEMSELVES AT SUCH TIMES,IN FACT,AN ALCOHOLIC THINKS VERY LITTLE WHEN THE DEMON DRINK IS SPEAKING OR SHOUTING.

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THE MADNESS OF ALCOHOL.PART ONE.2013.

WHEN I LOOK BACK AT THE MADNESS OF MY ALCOHOLIC ABUSE,THE HEARTBREAK,THE SELF INFLICTED PAIN,THE PAIN TO OTHERS,THE DANGER,THE LONELINESS,THE FOOLISHNESS,AND AT TIMES LAUGHTER,THROUGH THE TEARS,I NOW KNOW WITH WISDOM BY MY SIDE,IT WAS ALL VANITY,
SUCH A SIMPLE HUMAN CREATION,WHICH WAS MEANT TO BE USED FOR THY HEALTH'S SAKE,AND NOT IN WAYS OF MY YOUTH,OR AS IN DAYS OF 2013.
A LOT OF MY FAMILY ARE DEAD DUE TO THE ABUSE OF ALCOHOL AND ITS VARIOUS OFFSHOOTS,BE THEY DRUGS,SMOKING,AND IN GENERAL HIGH OR LOW LIVING,EVEN MORE OF MY FRIENDS HAVE DIED FROM THE RAVAGES OF ABUSE,AND WEEKLY I WATCH,LISTEN AND SEE ITS EFFECTS UPON THOSE I KNOW,AND THOSE WHOM I DO NOT KNOW.

MY DRINKING BEGAN WHEN I WAS 14,IN WINTER,AND THAT WAS THE FIRST MY PARENTS KNEW THEIR SON WAS GROWING,IN WAYS OF HIS FOREFATHERS.
I WAS ROLLED IN THE SNOW BY MY MATES,AND WAS SOAKING THROUGH,AND HAD TO GO HOME TO CHANGE,BAD MOVE,I COULDN'T EVEN STAND,LET ALONE SPEAK,SUCH A BEATEN I GOT FROM MY MOTHER,I WAS LEFT BLACK AND BLUE,INSIDE AND OUT,FOR MY FIRST TRIP INTO ALCOHOL,AND WAS GROUNDED FOR WEEKS AFTERWARDS.
SO ABRUPT WAS MY INTRODUCTION INTO SELF DRINKING,YET ALL MY MATES WERE ALREADY HARDENED DRINKERS,IN THE VICES OF THE DEVILS BRU.
BUT IF TRUTH BE TOLD,I WAS ALREADY AN EXPERT IN DRINKING,LONG BEFORE I KNEW WHAT IT WAS,I WAS IN MY GENES,FOR MANY GENERATIONS,AND EVEN AS A CHILD I WAS SURROUNDED BY IT,CONSTANTLY.

THOUGH MY CHILDHOOD IS MISSING IN ACTION,AS IT WERE,AND STILL IS TO THIS DAY,I CALL IT THE BLOCK,THE SAFE PLACE FOR IT TO BE,FOR THERE ARE DARK PLACES I WISH NOT TO RETURN TOO FROM MY CHILDHOOD,I STRANGELY REMEMBER AT TIMES THE MADNESS OF ALCOHOL,AND ITS EFFECTS ON THOSE CLOSE TO ME,WHEN I WAS A CHILD.
THERE WERE MANY HAPPY TIMES,WHEN DRINK WASN'T ABOUT,I THINK,THOUGH I HAVE TO QUESTION THESE TIMES IN MY BROKEN MIND,AT TIMES,BECAUSE HAPPINESS NEVER LASTED LONG,IT WAS ALWAYS WAITING FOR ALCOHOL TO COME AND BURST ITS BUBBLE,WHICH IT DID,UNCHECKED.

IT WAS BAD ENOUGH CONTENDING WITH THE ABUSE OF THE SO CALLED BRIDES OF CHRIST,THE NUNS,OR GESTAPO,OR PENGUINS,WHICH WAS SYSTEMATIC AND DAILY,FOR ONES SO YOUNG IN MY DAY,WITH THE PERSONALITIES OF THE CLASS SINGLED OUT FOR SPECIAL ABUSE,HUMILIATION AND RIDICULE,AND OF COURSE I WAS ONE.
EVEN WORSE WAS HAVING A WELL KNOW PRIEST,AND PERSONALITY AS AN UNCLE,AND BROTHER OF MY MOTHER,WHO WAS REGARDED AS BEING EQUAL TO THE POPE,LOL,IN MY MOTHER'S,AND OTHERS EYES,TO ME,HE WAS COOL,AND MY FRIEND,A TRUE UNCLE,EVEN THROUGH THE MISCHIEF OF A CHILD.
FOR THAT WAS WHAT IT WAS,MISCHIEF AND A LEARNING OF A CHILD,PURE AND SIMPLE.
THE PROBLEM WAS,THE SO CALLED REPRESENTATIVES OF GOD AND JESUS,WHO REPRESENTED THE ROMAN CATHOLIC CHURCH,AND THERE FOLLOWERS,THE ELDERS OF THE CHILDREN,FATHERS AND MOTHERS,FAMILIES,KNEW ONLY ONE WAY,DISCIPLINE,AND GOD,JESUS AND THE VIRGIN MARY'S DISCIPLINE AT THAT,WHICH WAS SADISTIC,RUTHLESS,PAINFUL,HUMILIATING,DEGRADING,AND FAR FROM THE LOVE OF GOD,JESUS AND THE VIRGIN MARY,THEY SAID LOVED US.
IRONIC.

THE FUNNY THING ABOUT MY FAMILY IS,ON BOTH SIDES,THROUGH THE GENERATIONS,ALCOHOL HAS BEEN WITHIN ALL OF THEM,AT DIFFERENT STAGES IN THEIR OWN PERSONAL GROWING,AS FLESH AND SOUL.
DRUNK,SOBER,SOBER,DRUNK,THE NEVER ENDING STORY.
BIT LIKE THE RELIGIONS OF MY FAMILY,THE STEWART'S,FROM CATHOLIC TO PROTESTANT AND BACK AGAIN,AND IF YOU GO BACK FURTHER ENOUGH TO JEW,EGYPTIAN AND AFRICAN.
WHICH IN ITSELF IS MADNESS IF TRUTH BE TOLD,FOR GOING BY MY FAMILY HISTORY,DNA,ALL ARE ONE,IN TRUTH,THOUGH DIVIDED,LOL,ALCOHOL IS ANOTHER DIVIDER,IF LEFT UNCHECKED,FOR THY HEALTH SAKE.
RELIGION I CAN HANDLE NOW AS AN ADULT,ESPECIALLY BEING A STEWART,AND COMING FROM NORTHERN IRELAND,THE EMERALD ISLE,FOR DAILY I SEE THE MADNESS OF RELIGION ON MY STREETS,WHICH HAS COME ABOUT BY MY FAMILY OF OLD FALLING OUT,THE BATTLE OF THE BOYNE.

KING WILLIAM WHO WAS PROTESTANT,THOUGH WAS BORN CATHOLIC WAS MARRIED TO MARY STEWART,WHO WAS CATHOLIC,BUT CHANGED,WHO WAS DAUGHTER OF KING JAMES WHO WAS CATHOLIC :(
AND YOU WONDER WHY WE DRINK.

RELIGION I CAN HANDLE,FOR I KNOW ITS FOLLY IN MY WISER YEARS,BUT DRINK,I NOW RESPECT IN MY WISER YEARS,EVENTUALLY,MAY I ADD,FOR SHE IS A HARD TEACHER WITHOUT WISDOM BY YOUR SIDE.

TO BE CONTINUED......

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