THE MADNESS OF ALCOHOL.PART NINE.2013.

AS I SAID BEFORE MY SEXUAL ABUSE LASTED LUCKLY FOR ME 3 TIMES,IT ENDED WHEN I TURNED ON MY ABUSER WHO WAS A FRIEND,BUT THE SCARS OF THAT,AND MY EARLIER PHYSICAL ABUSE AT THE HANDS OF THE SO CALLED BRIDES OF CHRIST,THE NUNS WERE DEEP.
NEXT CAME THE PHYSICAL ABUSE OF THE TEACHERS AND HEADMASTER OF THE ROMAN CATHOLIC HIGH SCHOOL I ATTENDED,ADD IN,A BULLY OR TWO,PLUS THE BEATINGS AND DISCIPLINE OF HOME,AND THIS WAS NOT A HAPPY CHAPPY.
LOVE WAS NOWHERE TO BE FOUND IN MY YOUTH,I NEVER EVER HEARD MY FATHER SAY,HE EVER LOVED ME,AND ONLY ONCE DID I EVER HEAR MY MOTHER SAY IT,AND THAT WAS WHEN I SPENT A WEEK IN JAIL AFTER A DISASTROUS ATTEMPT TO KILL MYSELF IN MY EARLY 20'S BY SETTING A HOUSE ON FIRE,ANOTHER NIGHT OF DRINK AND DRUGS,WHICH I SURVIVED,WHICH WAS WORSE LUCK ON MY PART,THOUGH ALL MY LIFE I HAVE REGRETTED THESE ACTIONS,AMONGST OTHERS.
NEVER IN MY LIFE HAVE I EVER SET OUT TO HURT ANYBODY,BUT WITH ALCOHOL,THIS FLESH WAS OUT OF CONTROL.

BACK IN SCHOOL THE WEAPONS OF CHOICE WERE MANY,FROM STRAPS OF LEATHER,SOME WITH SPLITS IN THEM,BLOCKS OF WOOD BOUNCING OF YOUR HEAD,INCLUDING BLACK BOARD DUSTERS,FISTS AND KICKS.
THE TEACHERS OF MY HIGH SCHOOL WERE IN A LEAGUE OF THEIR OWN,AND IN REALITY SHOULD HAVE FACED THE COURTS FOR THEIR BRUTALITY,IF NOT IN THIS YEAR 2013,INCLUDING TWO NUNS IN MY CASE.
NUNS,PRIESTS AND TEACHERS,MUMS,DADS,AND YOUTH LEADERS WERE UNTOUCHABLE IN MY YOUTH,AND THE ONLY REAL LOVE IN ONES YOUNG LIFE WAS YOUR GANG OF FRIENDS.

RELIGIOUS TENSION WAS NEVER FAR AWAY FROM SCHOOL AND HOME LIFE,WITH CATHOLICS AND PROTESTANTS AT EACH OTHERS NECKS DAILY,WHICH IS STILL THE WAY IN THIS YEAR 2013.
I REMEMBER COMING UP TO THE TWELVE OF JULY,WHEN PROTESTANTS CELEBRATE THE BATTLE OF THE BOYNE,MY PROTESTANT FRIENDS OF MY YOUTH WOULD STEP BACK FROM YOU,MAINLY DUE TO PEER PRESSURE,THEN AFTER THE TWELVE,FRIENDSHIPS WOULD RETURN,WIERD BUT TRUE.
I NEVER CARED MUCH FOR RELIGION,TO ME RELIGION WAS EVIL,AND THE REASON FOR MY UNHAPPINESS AS A CHILD,IF TRUTH BE TOLD,NOTHING GOOD EVER CAME OUT OF RELIGION,AND STILL TO THIS DAY 2013 IT IS THE SAME,RELIGION IS A MANMADE CURSE.

AS A CHILD I USE TO STAND IN FRONT OF THE STATUE OF THE VIRGIN MARY AND CHILD JESUS AND MARVEL AT THE BEAUTY OF IT,LITTLE DID I KNOW,THAT IN REALITY I WAS REMEMBERING MY OWN HEAVENLY MOTHER,WISDOM SOPHIA,PROVERBS 8:VERSES 22-36,REVELATION 12,"AND WISDOM IS VINDICATED BY HER CHILDREN."
THIS WAS BROUGHT TO MY REMEMBRANCE WHEN SHE VISITED ME FOR THE FIRST 15 YEARS AGO,BUT I WILL COME BACK TO THIS VISITATION,AS WELL AS OTHERS IN FUTURE BLOGS.

TO BE CONTINUED...

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