THE MADNESS OF ALCOHOL.PART SIX.2013.

THERE AGAIN MY MOTHER DIDN'T UNDERSTAND LOVE,AND TO THIS DAY,I THINK SHE STILL DOES NOT UNDERSTAND IT.
SHE ONLY EVER SAID SHE LOVED ME,ONCE,AND THAT WAS AFTER A DISASTROUS ATTEMPT TO KILL MYSELF,WHICH SAW ME END UP IN JAIL FOR A WEEK,BUT WERE LONG BEFORE THOSE DAYS OF DARKNESS.
FROM WHAT I HAVE GLEANED OVER THE YEARS MY EARTH MOTHER'S MOTHER,MY GRANNY WAS QUITE HARD ON MY MOTHER,WHEN SHE WAS A CHILD,AND SHE HAD PROBLEMS AT SCHOOL ALSO,THOUGH MY MOTHER WOULD TELL YOU NOTHING,AND AVOID ANY QUESTION OF HER LIFE.

AS A CHILD ASKING A QUESTION WAS NOT RECOMMENDED,FOR ADULTS KNEW BEST,EVEN THOUGH IN TRUTH,THEY KNEW VERY LITTLE OF LIFE,AND WERE JUST GUESSING,AND TRYING TO SURVIVE IN THIS WORLD OF CHAOS,AND TRYING TO LEARN FROM THEIR OWN MISTAKES,AS ALL DO.
THE PROBLEM IS,YOU MUST ACCEPT,AND ADDRESS THOSE MISTAKES,AND TRY NOT TO MAKE THEM AGAIN,
AS CHILDREN,MAKING MISTAKES IS PART OF LEARNING,BUT AS ADULTS,THE LESSONS SHOULD BE LEARNT,THIS AT TIMES I AM STILL LEARNING,BUT ONE THING I KNOW,AND HAVE ALWAYS KNOWN,YOU CAN NOT BEAT A CHILD WHO MAKES MISTAKES,OR PERIOD,AND ESPECIALLY NOT BECAUSE OF YOUR OWN FAILINGS,TALK TO THE CHILD,GUIDE THE CHILD,SHOW LOVE TOWARDS THE CHILD,BUT DO NOT BEAT THEM,ESPECIALLY WHEN OTHERS ARE DOING IT ALSO WITHOUT YOU KNOWLEDGE,BECAUSE OF YOUR OWN BELIEFS AND LIFE OF CHAOS.

NEVER ONCE DID I HIT MY CHILDREN,REGARDLESS OF MY CHAOTIC LIFE,BUT THEN AGAIN,MY CHAOTIC LIFE WAS NOT PLEASANT AT TIMES FOR THEM EITHER.

TO BE CONTINUED...

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